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hey, I am new to this. So recently (2019 and most of 2020) i have been having problems with my family. It is really hard for me. I don't really know what to do, at times i feel like just running away to go with my best friend (who is also kind of my boyfriend because we have been flirty talking since new years) but sometimes its gets so bad i think about ending my own life. Yeah i know a little over dramatic but when im in the moment, im just really hurt and i hate to say it but it does cross my mind. She always tells me that i do nothing and i am so lazy and she makes me feel really bad about myself as she adds more to it. Everyone always judges me because i am not living up to their expectations. My grades in school haven't really been good because i just cannot focus and my life is just kind of falling apart right now. I am 16 years old and very confused on what to do. I just want to leave but i know i cannot do that.

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Thank you for reaching out to us. We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe and stay strong,
NRS