I'm going to run away, but i'm very unsure.

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To keep myself as anonymous as I can, I'm going to address myself as 'T'.

I'm from wisconsin and I'm still young. Recently, a lot of stress has been building up in my home. Me and my family had recently moved, and I have had to go into homeschooling. My mom has been saying many hurtful things to me, threatening to hit me and 'crack me across the face' if I do something she doesn't like. I fight with my mom so much that I've become very uncomfortable around her.

Last night, we got into a fight over homework. She kept yelling at me and I kept trying to tell her to stop but she didn't listen. She hurled insults at me to the point where I had an anxiety attack. I felt sick and I wanted to leave. Later, she apologized and said she was wrong and she would never do it again.

Today, she did it again. She got my stepdad to yell at me too. I'm sitting in bed after the incident, I'm afraid and I want to leave. My mom takes her anger out on me all the time and I'm sick of it. I'm already packed, but i'm scared to leave. I know that the police will find me and I'll just wind up back home. I have no access to my phone so I can't call for help.

I'm scared, but I feel physically ill from the stress my mom has been putting on me. I need advice, should I go through with this?

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RE: I'm going to run away, but i'm very unsure.

Hello There!

Thanks for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are going through a really stressful time with your mother. It sounds like you have been holding strong for quite some time. Thank you for sharing so much with and we apologize that you re having to go through this. No one should have to go through such harsh conditions at home from loved ones.
You mentioned that you are wanting to leave home. Thinking about where you will go to remain safe is a great aspect to think of. A great concern is police being involved and bringing you back home. This is a possible option when trying to leave home as parents can file a runaway report.
Another option to consider is reporting what you are going through with child protective services. You can do this by calling Child Help at 1800-422-4453. You can also call us or live chat with us to talk more about this option or to find some safe places for you to go. If you are fearing being harmed you can always call police as well.
You can also considering talking with a counselor to help gain coping skills or to help with any other outcome that happen when things are getting overwhelming. Again, we can help locate those resources for you.

You are so resilient and can get through this!
Stay Safe,
NRS