Where can I runaway to?

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I've had a rough life. My parents fought constantly, my dad abused my mom numerous times in front of me and has gotten in my face before scaring me he is gonna hit me. My parents divorced when I was in fifth grade because my mom cheated on my dad with another guy and got pregnant with his kid. I guess my depression started there, because starting middle school I started cutting. I saw it on a show once and wondered what it would feel like and if it would help me. It started as little but as more happened, in school and home, I continued it, deeper and more. My dad wasn't stable for the longest time so I spent my time with my ex step dad and mom when they were together along with my biological sister and half sister and brother. When he came back he was leaving with my step mom, she hates me because I look so much like my mom. Freshmen year I came out as lesbian, my mom and dad were fairly disgusted and still to this day try to convince me not to be, but I can't help it. I have a beautiful girlfriend whom I love so so much and adore but I just can't do this anymore. I have contemplated suicide so many times, written out the farewells, and held the pills in my hand many times but I haven't gone through with it yet. I just need somewhere to stay, a safe house or anything. Please..

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RE: Where can I runaway to?

Hello There!
Thank you for contacting the National Runaway Safeline. We are so sorry to hear about what has been going on at home. It sounds like you have been dealing with a lot for a long time. No one deserves to be treated the way you have been; you have a right to feel safe and supported.
You’re a brave person and have had to overcome a lot of obstacles and hardship. Have you ever considered talking to someone about how you feel? You also mentioned that you’ve cut yourself before and are now contemplating suicide. You can contact the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). They’re also available 24 hours a day to talk about how you’re feeling. We’re also sorry to hear that your family is not supportive of your sexuality, however, it’s great that you feel you’ve found someone who you love and trust. We also recommend that you contact The Trevor Project at 1-866-488-7386; they provide crisis intervention and suicide prevention for LGBTQ youth.
We are here to help you and can provide resources on where to stay and anything else you may need. Please give us a call 24/7 at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) when you’re ready. Or you can reach us through our Live Chat which is open every day from 4:30-11:30p.

Stay Strong,
NRS