My parents have been keeping me completely isolated my entire life, prevented me from getting mental help, bullied and belittled me for having mental problems afterwards, they have put a lot of pressure on me to take care of my siblings and I've been changing their diapers, feeding them, bathing and clothing them ever since they were teeny tiny. I am 17 years old, I am a transgender man and they also gave me long transphobic and hateful lectures on how I will never be their son and I won't make it in this world, they barely even let me outside though. They don't let me attend school or even online school. They take my medications and keep them away from me and they don't let me take them, they take away my internet connection for days or weeks at a time and my dad often gets angry and lashes out on me, and both of my parents are physically, emotionally and verbally abusive. But mainly toward me because they expect me to grow up and be mature since I am the oldest of my siblings. I have suffered depression for years and I have had enough of crying to sleep some nights and having to be waken up by my father dragging me out of bed by my hair and screaming at me. They seem normal around other people. No one believes me. Not even the police. I tried to tell the police myself, my friend had convinced me to call the cops and they came and spoke to my parents and the guy said to me "you should respect your parents. They are good people. You have nice parents."
I want to move out and leave. I have friends who have offered me a place to stay until I can find my own, I have plans to get a job as well, the trouble is my parents threatened me and said that if I was ever to leave they would have me sent to some mental facility or report me missing and have me locked up somehow. They don't let me go anywhere or do anything. I can't avoid them anymore because after they're done fighting with each other my dad blames me and says it's my fault and whatnot.
I live in Florida by the way. Don't know if that is relevant.
The chat line has been down for days and I can't call the hotline because my parents and siblings would hear me on the phone. And considering they don't allow me to have friends, they would surely find it suspicious. I don't know where else to turn. No one believes me when I try to tell them and my parents turn it around in me when I do and I am sick of being afraid and having nightmares and being stressed all the time because I don't know when they will be mad at me again. I apologise for this being so long.. I didn't intend for it to be.
I am not even sure what I hope to come out of this. I just feel so alone. I feel as if I will never be able to get out of here. I can't just up and leave in the middle of the night... At least I don't think I can. It doesn't sound like it would work anyway.
I want to move out and leave. I have friends who have offered me a place to stay until I can find my own, I have plans to get a job as well, the trouble is my parents threatened me and said that if I was ever to leave they would have me sent to some mental facility or report me missing and have me locked up somehow. They don't let me go anywhere or do anything. I can't avoid them anymore because after they're done fighting with each other my dad blames me and says it's my fault and whatnot.
I live in Florida by the way. Don't know if that is relevant.
The chat line has been down for days and I can't call the hotline because my parents and siblings would hear me on the phone. And considering they don't allow me to have friends, they would surely find it suspicious. I don't know where else to turn. No one believes me when I try to tell them and my parents turn it around in me when I do and I am sick of being afraid and having nightmares and being stressed all the time because I don't know when they will be mad at me again. I apologise for this being so long.. I didn't intend for it to be.
I am not even sure what I hope to come out of this. I just feel so alone. I feel as if I will never be able to get out of here. I can't just up and leave in the middle of the night... At least I don't think I can. It doesn't sound like it would work anyway.
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