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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
    If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
    We hope to hear from you soon.
    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS

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    Hi, im a 13 year old girl, i decided to write this because i cant take it anymore my mom constaly yells and wants me to watch my younger siblings all the time anthying she wants she calls my name i forces me to bring it to her.{ i have a younger brother thats 12 and he never does any of the stuff i do. ive gotten my phone took every chance i get it back because of daddy issues. My mom always wants me to cook and clean because im a girl then critices me when i dont get it right.I was orginaly born by mysef as the oldest then a year later my brother then we we were around 10 she had my younger brother whos no four and my little sister whos now 3, i watch all of them and never get a break i have a father who picks me up from my moms house but dosent insert himself into my life very much. There was a time in my life were i would always wait for him to pick us up exicteldy and was let down. Today my mom yelled at me because she said she say my younger brothers shoe in my room and forced me to look for it. when she came in and told her that i didnt find it she said mabye if my room wasnt so didrty i would find it even tho i looked around my whole room and she continued to yell at me. she told my brother to check his room and in his closet was the sho she said was in my room, instead of apolgizing she told me to turn my tv off because i didnt say anthying back when she said something to me.i went downstairs to make something to eat she came back upstairs because my tv was on. this has been going on for days and i was starting to harm myself now i was wondering if i should kill myself.

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
    If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
    We hope to hear from you soon.
    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS

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    I’m 17 and since I was like 14 me and my mom have never gotten along. She clearly favorites my older sister she doesn’t even try to hide it anymore. She will openly say that she is her favorite, I can’t do anything right no matter what I do it’s never good enough I have gone through severe depression on my own and survived it with no help but myself I have bad anxiety that I don’t take medicine for because I don’t belive In it and I know she wouldn’t even get me any. I have been wanting to be a doctor for my whole like for when I’m an adult and I have been researching colleges all she says to me is thars never gonna happen that I’m to stupid. I get a good boyfriend and she manipulated me into thinking he controls me and now she manipulated me into think his mom controls me too. She got jealous and mad when I got invited to a trip w them to look at colleges. She never congratulates me in anything she finds everything I do wrong and picks at me. I don’t do drugs or anything and my sister does and that’s ok but if I’m home late Bc of confusion when I needed to be home she walks out the house from me tells me to ******** myself and shuts my phone off. When something good happens to me she’s so quick to turn it down and put me down. I tell her house she hates me she’s jealous makes me sad told her once I’m depressed and wanted to kill myself and she laughed at me. But my sister got help Rt away Bc she was depressed over girls being mean. I would tell her and open up to her rn I want to die and commit suicide I just don’t know how and I’m scared and she would laugh and call me over dramatic I’m to scared to even talk to her about that stuff and even come to her to have a conversation when she’s mad at me and she manipulates me into thinking I’m always wrong it seems impossible to me that I could be right.

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or thinking of hurting yourself , we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.

    You don't deserve to be treated like that and we are sorry to hear that you are going through that. Talking to a trusted adult or a school counselor can be helpful. Family counseling can also be helpful in a lot of situations. You should not be called names and be called crazy. Your doctor or counselor can also help with things you are struggling with including stress and hearing voices.

    You are acting really brave in this situation by reaching out for help. This can be a lot and you are not alone. We are here to support you through this process. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
    We hope to hear from you soon.
    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS

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    Guest replied
    Hi im 14 and my mum makes me want to kill myself she is never there and when she is shes with a friend saying that shes always there for me when shes not she calls me sensitive when I cry calls me on idoit when I do something when I cry and can't breath she shouts making it worse and forcefully hug me and i told her it just makes it worse sometimes she gets drunk and yells if something goes wrong its never her fault she always has to be the centa of attention when my grandad was in the hospital they said he might die and my mum made it all about her when I was hurting myself she told people about it without my permission and when I talk to her she uses what I said against me so I've stopped but now shes saying oh you must not love me and she guilt trips me and when I don't get stuff or misunderstand because of my dyspraxia she yells at me and makes me self consonse of my speech since because of it no one could understand me and she calls me crazy because I hear voices in my head I just want to know if its normal for mums to act like this and if im overreacting

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  • ccsmod13
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    Hello,

    Thank you for your response to another user’s post. Often forums are a place of support and understanding for many youth. It often may be validating and helpful for users to read similar situations as well as exchange feedback to one another. For anyone experiencing any difficulties or challenges, the National Runaway Safeline encourages youth to reach out to our 24/7 crisis support line either by phone or chat for immediate services.

    Thank you again,
    NRS

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    Guest replied
    Wow..Im really sorry for what your going through. I hope you keep doing your dreams tho!

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  • ccsmod1
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    Hey there,

    Thanks so much for reaching out and sharing a little bit about what’s been going on, we know that it takes a lot of courage. It must be really hard to live in a home with so much tension. You should feel loved and appreciated at home and it sounds like your parents have not been treating you fairly.

    You mentioned that your parents make you want to kill yourself and it raises some concern. We care a lot about your safety, and we can help you find resources that can help you cope with these feelings. You do not have to face this alone, and there is so much help out there for you. If you are thinking about hurting yourself, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline could be a good resource for you. You can check them out at https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/, or you can call 1-800-273-8255 for help and support any time.

    It can be stressful to try to live up to parental expectations and it makes sense that it would be a sore spot with you and your parents but it is absolutely not ok that your dad has been hitting you. Absolutely no one deserves to be abused. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

    If you’d like to go over what’s going on in depth, or if you’d like to explore other options that you may have available to you, please don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. You can also chat us by clicking on the “CHAT” button on top of our homepage. We’re open 24/7 and here to listen and support you in any way we can.

    We'd love to hear from you about your experience using our crisis forum. Your feedback plays an important role in helping us improve our services to support youth and families. Please click the link below to fill out our survey: https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/we_care_what_you_think

    Stay safe,
    NRS

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    Guest replied
    My Mom and Dad make me want to kill myself or runaway. My Dad always hits me when I do something wrong and if I'm not doing well in school. My Mom always thinks I did stuff that I didn't do and when she asks the rest of the family if they did it and they say no she believes them. My Mom frickin likes our dog more than more me. She said that she can't wait till I get out of the house and like that hurts cause i'm her first born.

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hey there,
    It seems like you are having a tough time with your mom at home to the point you are feeling suicidal. You should never be treated like a slave and pushed to the point you feel like that is your only option. It’s understandable to feel frustrated by her hypocrisy and feel like drastic options are the way to go.
    Your life matters, and we want you to know we care about you and want to see things improve for you. There is hope here and things can get better, please reach out to 911 or the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 for immediate help.

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    Guest replied
    I hate my mom so much, I do nothing wrong and she digs up the past. She's a hypocrite doing the things she says that aren't good. She's just some stupid woman bossing her slave. I'm going to attempt suicide by hanging myself. Bye.

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  • ccsmod7
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    Hi there, thanks for reaching out. Sounds like you have been through more than anyone should ever have to go through, and you have been thinking about killing yourself for a long time now. We are so glad you are still here with us, your life is invaluable and you so deserve to make it through this and to have the opportunity to heal.

    It looks like you might be based in the UK, and if that is case we do not want to give you any misinformation about resources and options since are knowledge base is limited to the U.S. However, there are resources more local to you who are similar to us. We encourage you to reach out to them, you so deserve the support you are looking for:

    Local suicide prevention hotline:
    https://www.samaritans.org/

    Local Child Help hotlines:
    https://www.childline.org.uk/
    https://www.themix.org.uk/

    Best,

    NRS

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    hi so im female17 turning 18 and need help/advise as i cant get any irl.
    before i turned 10yrs: my dad would rape me in my sleep and id tell my mother she didnt care, my mother chased me with a knife a few times but never got me other than a cut on my arm when i ran under the bed to get away (she said if i were to kill myself she will kill me first as i tried hanging/suffocation when i was 7-9yrs old) she’d beat me over every little thing esp in public, both parents tell me im an accident, lock me in a room with no light food water for over 24hrs, my dad would beat me and lock me in the under stair cupboard for day or two. however my mother would keep me home from school to spend time with her cause she was lonely but would be nasty to me (my dad would beat her 24/7 as he is an alcoholic and drug addict). also do not know any other people than parents and have one younger sibling and one older both favoured over me...they got hit every now and then thats it.
    after 10yrs old:
    still getting hit by both, dad still a drinker/drug user but doesnt hit my mum anymore but he has 4 baby mums and still sexually abuses me til 17 (watching me in showers still, leaving inapropriate pictures on my phone, watching me dress/undress, watching me thru curtains even though im dressed or asleep). haven’t got any friends because i went to a racist school who were rude as i don’t come from privillage and from the hood. (all these things continue til 17)
    13yrs:
    starting to feel suicidal again, hearing voices and seeing things, heavily; smoking weed, drinking, using mdma, prescription drugs n partying etc. staying out house late nights not returning home because i was too busy getting in police trouble (cases, arrests etc). i have really bad anxiety i cant leave the house without being high or i feel too ugly or worthless to get out of bed. and also in a emotionally/verbally abusive relation ship til 16. kicked out of high school 2 years before gratuation and this whole time period was a sucide mission

    16yrs:
    tried killing myself never worked drug tolerance too high and sick of it i wanna live. but cant get a job (legally on paper do not have any qualifications and cant get none because anxiety) come to find out im a paranoid schizophrenic so im house bound for life and need a carer but do not have. father left house and mother doesnt hit shes just more emotionally abusive than ever. self pity parties, one minute she loves me next she wants me to ‘******** off and die’ but another says she needs me. she is very lonely has no friends or family either. (sibilings moves out when i was 14 with relationship partners)
    not on drugs, no legal trouble just saying in a 8 by 12 bedroom gained weight from depression and just numb dont do anything.

    17: things are still the same however i wanna live life more than ever but i leave my bedroom and im now in a negative bubble, i have nobody (no friends at all or any social life, no family members as they do not like us because my mum left them for my dad years ago). but i cant physically do anything like get a job, work & earn, see people, socialise or get away from my toxic mother as i do not have the tools or can aquire the tools to do so. genuinely feel like theres no point of even living because i sit up waiting for the next day watching time pass numb. i do not want to die but what else do i have? please give advice. dont have to tools other than this online option to speak to anyone. only time i spoke to someone and was able an old friend when i was 15, her mother professionaly and diagnosed me with paranoia schizophrenia but only spoke to her for a few moths as i cut that friend off she was very racist towards others and lived far anyway .

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  • ccsmod15
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    Thank you for sharing all that with us. We honor your feelings. You certainly don't deserve the sort of torment your mom is putting you through. That's totally unfair, unkind, and uncalled for. It sounds like she isn't even aware of all the damage that she's causing. If you feel that what she says is emotional or verbal abuse, you have the right to file a report with your state's child abuse reporting hotline or through www.childhelp.org at 1-800-422-4453.

    We are pretty concerned when you talk about killing yourself -- even if it's "just talk." That's pretty serious and clearly is coming from a place of pain.. If you ever feel suicidal, please reach out for the help you deserve. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is staffed by people trained to talk about suicide, so they are a great resource. You can reach them at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or call 1-800-273-8255. You can also reach out to us anytime to talk about suicide or anything else on your mind. We are confidential and open 24/7 at 1-800-RUNAWAY or by chat at www.1800runaway.org. We want you to be safe. Things can get better and you have many options besides suicide.

    It's great you are opening up about all this. You have a right to be seen and heard. If you ever want to talk about what's going on, please call or chat with us. We're here to listen, here to help.

    Be safe,
    NRS
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