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  • ccsmod10
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    Thank you for telling us your story and reaching out. It can be difficult telling others what has happened to you and you are very brave for doing so. We’re also sorry to hear that you’ve attempted suicide in the past. Your life is very important. If you begin having those thoughts again and want to talk with someone anonymously, please don’t hesitate to reach out for help. One resource that might work for you is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. You can reach them at 1-800-273-8255. They also have an internet chat function through their website at suicidepreventionlifeline.org.

    If you’re not currently getting mental health resources, it can be really helpful to get treatment As your mental health suffers, you have -limited ability to handle the other stressors in your life. You can contact the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) to connect you to mental health resources at 1-800-950-6264 or NAMI.org You may also want to talk to your school because they should have a counselor for you.

    If you feel like leaving is the safest option for you then you can do that. We’re not legal experts here at NRS. Generally it’s not illegal to leave home, but your parents could file a runaway report, the police could get involved, and they could bring you home. The people you’re staying with could potentially get in trouble for having you stay there if your parents file a report.

    We want you to know that no one deserves to be abused, and you should not have to go through that. If you haven’t already, you could consider reporting the abuse you’ve been experiencing. If you want more information about abuse reporting or if you want to file a report, you could call Child Help at 1-800-422-4453 or you could call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY (1-800-786-2929) or chat with us online. We also want you to know that if you ever feel that you are in danger, you could call 911 for immediate help.

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    My mom usually abuses me verbally how a nuisance,stupid, useless I am. She doesn't hit me though but sometimes I have nightmares that she tries to kill me and makes me feel unsafe especially when it's only me and her. My step-dad doesn't do anything about it and my sister works a lot, I used to have a therapist but talking didn't help. I've tried to take my life once and I don't wanna do it again, I just
    Want the pain to go away. I just want to be happy away from her, I've always wanted to run away but I know that's unrealistic and I'm so so tired of everything.

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hello,
    Thank you for reaching out to NRS! It sounds like a very difficult situation you are a part of. You definitely deserve to be treated better. You are being so brave through all of this. We know it must have been difficult to reach out.
    If you ever feel like your life is at stake you can always call 911. That is the quickest way you can receive help if your life is in danger. The National Domestic Violence Hotline is another great resource that can help you with what is going on between you and your mom. They can offer support and answer any questions you may have.
    You mention that you are trying to get your mental health together. That is great and can be difficult with everything you have going on. NAMI is a great resource for mental health services and support. Their number is 1800-950-NAMI. You can also text NAMI to 741741 if you do not want to talk on the phone.
    You can always reach out to us to talk further. You can call us at 1800786-2929 or chat with us via our live chat at www.1800runaway.org. We are 24/7 and confidential.
    Stay safe,
    National Runaway Safeline

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    I have no idea what to do anymore.... my mom tried killing me twice she tried killing me when I was 14 by choking me to death I nearly passed out but I had put forced she chased me out the house at 8pm on a rainy night half naked, lucky enough my grandma was few house down 11-14 yrs old I was getting bullied my mom didn’t know until it was rumors about me in our old neighborhood I was being physically and emotionally Abusive durning my 6-8th grade my self esteem was so low I didn’t know how to communicate at all or take care of my self due to the bullying but it was one time I was getting choked by a old classmate and fast forward that year I was struggling with Because of bullying and plus I was left behind from other classes cuz of my low self esteem but two days later maybe a week after my mom beats me because I couldn’t do my work and left me with a black eye and got sent to school the next day I looked very emotionally and teachers was being all Suspicious about it so my history teacher I believe took me to the office and ask me what happen in a calm voice she knew something was up fast forward yrs later it was 2015 and I just turn 16 it was nice beautiful evening with good energy until my mom want get into a argue with me about me not coming to her about the kitchen she goes on and on I beg her to stop yelling at me at times we would debate on what he was arguing about it so she got annoyed and hit me so she went in her room and I got soooo irritated hopeless overwhelmed I had slice my arm until it was nearly a puddle on the ground with blood 30mins later I had almost died but doctor saved me now I’m 20years old learned so much through out my years my self esteem got way better but now things change brother coming back home after yearrrssss being in jail I’m so not used to my environment changing it’s a huge thing witch is very negative but I was being prepared but durning the process everything it feels like hell 2019 mhm lots of arguing last over 3-6months finally had calm down until my mom wants to humiliate me and abusive she always assume I’m disrespecting her even when we just having a normal regular conversation like normal people I get so confused why she treats me like this then turns into fights because the confusion and lack of communication then she ends up wanting me dead our last fight was few days ago I didn’t want put my hands on her cuz of course she my parent but I’m already going through mental changes and trying to reconnect my self but what’s caused the fight few days ago it was about clothes and I told her she was ignorant and selfish for not communicating with me for not removing this hanger thing for clothes to dry to move it in back to her room due to no space I ask her why move it in from of my door mind you it’s about 5.3 itch tall so I nearly bump into it she keep repeating her self like I didn’t understand English I was calm at first until she assume I was being rude befor I had said she was ignorant and selfish so I got mad when she thought I said that and kepts saying over and over to remove I decided to take my wet clothes off of it and left the hanging thing there the way it was I close my door 1min later she beg me to remove it I waited I was still mad so I try do better choices like an adult and I open the door calmly she cursed me out it and punch me nearly in my chest to my throat so I push her dnt punch me in my throat like that she gave me the angry look and threatened me with a fist and I blacked out and started swinging on her gave her a black eye so now she really coming at me pushed me to the ground pulled my bit me all over scratched me in my face until I bleed throws me on the ground stands on me stands on my stomach then tries to step on my chest she steady on doing it not realizing it and she steps repeatedly on my face blacked out twice as I scream bloody murder my brother came in and save I’m d me my brother tried to figure out what’s going on mind you he hates me to 20% loves me cuz I’m his sis but doesn’t really love me to actually take care of me so we was debating on what happen my mom gonna day “ I wanted to kill her. I said we’ll go ahead I’m ready go get the knife it would be easy she looks at me with full of hate as the devil takes full control so now I keep begging her to kill me I really after over these years like damn she really hated me why she kept me if that was the case and I couldn’t believe she realllly wanted me dead until today she told me she wanted to forreal kill me I was shocked I didn’t know how to process it especially if I’m still trying to fix my mental health my way and better instead going to back to the pass please someone help me give me options I’m trying my best to find roommates to get out of here before she really kills me on our next argument I don’t trust her especially the second time she try killing me

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  • ccsmod6
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    Hello and thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. We want you to know that we hear you and that the way your mom is treating you is completely inappropriate and unacceptable. It is not okay for her to hit you or pull your hair out. In fact, that kind of behavior could be considered abuse. If you are interested in reporting, you might want to talk to the National Child Abuse Hotline at 1-800-422-4453 and they would be able to provide you some information about that process and what could come of it. You deserve to be treated with love and kindness, especially in your own home. If you feel lost or as if life is not worth living, please call or chat us on our 24/7 confidential line at 1-800-786-2929 or 1800runaway.org or reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. We would be happy to listen to what you are going through and do our best to support you in any way that we can. That can look like trying to find you places you can go, helping you get assistance in your immediate surroundings, or just talking you through what is going on. Please know that we care about you and that you are always welcome here.

    Best,
    NRS

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    My mom pulls my hair everyday and calls me names and she says maybe you should take your medicine. And beats on me my hair falls out because of her she said some stuff that make me wanna kill myself and runway i think about committing suicide a lot and it hurts me because I love my mom but I feel like I don’t belong in this world

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  • ccsmod4
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    Hi there,
    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

    We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.
    Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).


    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS
    Last edited by ccsmod4; 12-10-2019, 02:02 AM.

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    My mom always is constantly criticizing me and scavenging for stuff to make me feel bad I have good grades do my work when I am supposed to and I just feel as though my Mom never cared about since I was born I want to die I've thought about this many times and this is my time to go goodbye world and everybody...

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hello, thank you for reaching out to us. We are sorry to hear about your situation, you do not deserve to be yelled at or hit with a spatula and it must be frustrating to not be able to use screens for more than thirty minutes. It is so cool that you have been swimming for so long and are interested in starting it up again. We will try our best to offer you help in any way that we can.

    You mentioned that your mom has hit you with spatulas before, we would like to offer a free resource called the National Child Abuse Hotline and their number is 1-800-422-4453. We also offer filing child abuse reports here at NRS, we are available 24-7 for free and our number is 1-800-786-2929. Another thing you mentioned is that you have tried to choke yourself, we would like to thank you for talking to us about this and offer a great resource for self-harm concerns. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available 24-7 for free and their number is 1-800-273-8255. We hope that these resources may be of use to you.

    Again, we’re really glad that you decided to reach out to us. It takes a lot to ask for help and you are trying to figure out your options which is really good to see. If you would like to talk further about your situation, please do not hesitate to call or chat with us. We’re here to listen, here to help.

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    Guest replied
    well..........a few pages ago i saw this comment about an indian kid..............this is pretty much a reply to that .............im indian too.....and my life doesnt suck.........but i cant say its good.......my mom alaways says i treat her like a servant...heck, if i had a servant i would treat them like a normal person...........well, twice when i was 7........ my mom yelled at me and just hit me.......and my dad stood up for me......he told her to back off...and he rarely ever yells at me...........but after i started 7th grade.........ive been waaaaaay moodier than before......i never had courage to say a bad word.....i just lost my temper a few weeks ago and told my dad to shut the hell up, and he threated to tell my mom.........he didnt tho...my parents dont like me being on screens too much.....their rule is 30 mins on normal days......on fridays after school.......i watch or play for HOURS! i just got in trouble for not doing something for this stupid audition my mom wants me to do....but i dont blame her...i only do one extra thing........and its an elective.......but i will starg swimming.ive been swimming since i was 4. .......im afraid im not gonna be playing roblox or minecraft for some time........and idk why im here.....anyway....back to my reply.......my mom watches youtube a LOT!!!!!!! SHES BEEN WATCHING THIS WHOLE DAY AND SHE WATCHES SOME STUPID INDIAN SHOW1!!!!!!!!!!!! she doenst even use earphone........which pisses me....im pretty sensitive with soundss.....i get yelled at everyday........its not fun.....just wait..... if i actually get a bunch of money......i know for sure that less than $ 5000 will be spent on my mom.....tho she spend a lot for me and my sis ......shes a stay home mom...........but she teaches dancing to these kids on Saturday ..........she loves to dance.....and i rly like playing the violin...but now im bored.........i used to lie it......now it just feels like work.......ive tried choking myself.... 1 of my biggest fears is a spatula.......plz dont laugh........my mom hits me with spatulas ......i hit myself with one today.......

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  • ccsmod2
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    Hello There,

    Thank you so much for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline and sharing a little bit about what is going on in your life.
    It seems like you are dealing with a tough situation and no one deserves to be insulted and we are sorry you are dealing with that.
    You mentioned wanting to kill yourself which is a permanent decision to a temporary situation. We want you to know that you are valuable, and it seems like there are people who do care about you. If you are ever feeling suicidal and need someone to talk to you can contact The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. The Suicide Prevention Lifeline can be reached at: 1800-273-8255.
    Also it is great that you have your boyfriend for support and that he can sometimes stay with you, it is helpful to have someone for support. You are at a legal age where you can move out one thing to consider would be to save up so that you can afford to get a place. Another option could be to see if living with your boyfriend would be an option for you.
    We hope that this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any more questions or would like to talk more about what is going on please give us a call. We are here 24/7 to listen and to provide support. Best of luck!
    NRS

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    My mom makes me want to kill myself, I’m 23 years old and struggling to get out of her house. I have a boyfriend who stays with me on occasion at my mother’s house and tries to help me but to no avail.

    My mom is just the worst, if things are not done in the manner she likes or when she wants, she goes into these ballistic rages where she screams so loud that my neighbors could hear her perfectly. Saying I’m a good for nothing loser, I’m pathetic, my boyfriend is going to leave me and that he deserves better, I’m useless, I’m a piece of ******** and a mistake. If I try to walk away or ignore her, she gets into my face and starts yelling at me even more.

    She demands that the house be clean EVERYDAY as in conducting a major cleaning everyday before I go to work; dishes, laundry, sweeping, mopping, dusting, scrubbing and the whole works. BEFORE I GO TO WORK. Which is only a couple of hours after I wake up, normally which is 9:00 am.

    I don’t know what to do anymore, she berates on a daily basis and I have no wish to live anymore if this continues. My boyfriend tries to help me by being supportive, help me clean or try to appease her. But my patience in this environment is running thin, I can’t take this anymore and I don’t think I should have to endure this. Parents are supposed to be nurturing, supportive or even kind but it seems like I was given a raw deal in life.

    I’m just starting to feel more and more like a mistake everyday, like life would be better if I wasn’t around anymore.

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  • ccsmod13
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    Hi there,

    Thanks for reaching out to NRS. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255 (www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org) is always available if you need someone to talk to about how you have been feeling. Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Reaching out to a school counselor or another adult that you trust could also be a good outlet for you as well. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.

    It can definitely be quite difficult when the adults in our lives are not supportive like they are supposed to be. You deserve to be treated in a way that makes you feel safe and happy. We truly want to be a support for you during this difficult time and we are here to listen and help with what is going on. Do not hesitate to reach out if you would like to talk more about your situation and brainstorm some options together. You can call us at 800-786-2929 or use our online chat services at 1800runaway.org.

    We look forward to hearing from you soon,
    NRS

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    My mom makes me want to die I hate her so much and I want her to die

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  • ccsmod3
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    Thank you for reaching out to us. It sounds like you are having a rough time. It must be frustrating being in a household were you don’t feel appreciated. We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.
    Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.We hope to hear from you soon.
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