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**Guest** · 02-05-2019, 08:16 PM

I’m a 12 year old whose life is completely ruined by my mom and I feel really sad because all she cares about is homework and whenever she gets a missing assignment she gets mad and starts hitting me, she does this every time and I’m sick and tired that she doesn’t even love me she only cares about my homework because she wants me to be a smart child but I think I’m smart enough to know that I’m getting kinda bullied by my mom and this really breaks my heart and now she took away the apps on my phone and hits me because I keep getting in “trouble” for doing stuff I don’t do please if you’re somebody who can help please reply.

**Guest** · 02-19-2019, 09:35 PM

Hi, I'm a 13-year-old girl that lives with my mom, step-dad, brother, and step-sister. I love my sister and my dad sometimes but my mom and brother I can't stand. My brother has ADHD and is younger than me so he always gets more attention and gets out of more trouble than me. My mom invests a lot of time between me and my brother and sometimes her and I sometimes have our good times but we have a lot more bad times. I won't say she physically abuses me, sometimes she will give me a whooping but it's rare unless I make her really mad. But she constantly compares me to my friends, my sister, who is also 13 and in 8th grade like me so it's annoying. She treats me like crap. She always accuses me of having an attitude when sometimes I really don't I'm just upset because she made me upset and slaps me or plucks my lip or something. Sometimes my grades fall and she gets really mad because she expects me to live how she did with straight A's but its hard.She constantly always says that Her, her sister (my aunt) and her mom are not basic and that they actually tried in school and that I'm not trying and I will never make it in life. She says I'll end up with teen pregnancy or working at Mc Donalds and just makes me feel low about myself. My brother irritates me and always hits me or puts his hands on me and I try to get him off and once I do he goes and says I did what HE did to ME. And my mom never believes me she listens to the 7-year-old instead of the 13-year-old. She always calls him her baby and just calls me cuss words or other things and it really hurts. Then when she accuses me of an attitude I sometimes say something and I was like I didn't even say anything bad, and she was like "Its not what you say its how you say it". and I understand that sometimes but she says it for literally everything I say back to her accuses me of being disrespectful When I'm really not. Then sometimes my step-dad wants to join in or something but literally, no one invited him in the conversation or argument so he can shut up. Sometimes I wish I could live with my grandmother but I feel like it will be the same or worse since she raised my mom. And I can't live with my biological dad because He and I have stopped talking because he doesn't act like a real dad. So I just feel like I have nowhere to go and I have nothing to do. The only reasons why I haven't killed myself is for one I have lots of friends that love me and family that loves me. Dance helps me be free because I'm a competitive dancer and I'm also afraid of dying so yeah. I constantly get called slow from them and dumb and then they go and say your not dumb or whatever and say that they never called me that when they literally just did. Sometimes when I get home from school or me get off the bus I get excited that I'm only going to see my mom for 10 minutes or so because then I go to dance for 4 1/2 hrs or so and then I come home eat dinner finish whatever hw I have if I have any and go to bed and its usually around 9-10. But now my mom is threatening to take me out of dance because of my grades. And I don't know how I will function once she takes me out because that's where I have fun and be free and if she thinks it will motivate me to get better grades, then she's wrong it will just make me not care anymore and I don't know what I will do after that. I don't have a very bad life and I know my situation isn't as bad as others because my mom does say I love you when she's in a good mood but it still hurts me. Today was the last straw because my math teacher emailed home and said my effort was dropping and that I was being disruptive in class when I literally did nothing and so my mom gave me this whole lecture and gave me 13 swats with a belt because I'm 13 years old and now my leg is red, stinging, with welps on it. I honestly can't stand my mom and sometimes I hate her with a passion. she calls me names, pushes me to the floor, smacks me but mainly just insults me and yells in my face. Her words hurt more than her actions. Even though those belt swings really hurt me. she took away my phone which is a normal punishment but threatens me that if I text anyone on it ill get in a lot of trouble but sometimes she will text me during school, and she gets mad when I don't reply but when I do reply she still gets mad because she says that I shouldn't be texting in school or she says that I'm grounded so why am I texting, so I still get in trouble. it's like everything I do I get in trouble. when my brother hits me or something and I get fed up and hit him back or something when he goes crying like a baby to my mom and I tell her the truth about what happens she never believes me and asks my sister what really happened and she tells what happened but its literally the exact same thing I said so she obviously doesn't trust me and thinks I'm honest with her. She really hurts my feelings and I feel like she genuinely likes embarrassing me in front of my friends and likes to cuss me out in front of my friends because she thinks it makes her look good and tough or whatever. and most of the time the parents don't say anything or they join in on her so I'm getting ganged up on parents that some of them I don't even know so I'm not sure why you are talking to me, like no ma'am I will literally stomp your face so you need to shut up please and thank you. Also, that night when I was eating dinner a commercial came on about cancer and I was watching it while I was eating and she looked at me with an evil fake smile with her fake voice and "**** your not supposed to be watching t.v, your grounded remember?'' so that really irritated me. She even limited me on how much food I can eat, and threatened she would come to my school and shadow me all day and follow me around to all my classes. I know you are NOT about to do that, no ma'am, no thank YOU. I really can't stand her, she will literally hit me with anything that's near her, whether it's a water bottle or a shoe or anything. I feel she's very verbally abusive to me and just disciplines me physically sometimes but every time she does do it there's really no reason and it is kind of unnecessary. I have to go right now because I am supposed to be doing my homework and she is yelling calling me a failure so this is all I can type. Thank you for reading.

**Guest** · 02-20-2019, 09:52 PM

Help me. I’m in the same position. Being desi, I have really strict parents, and I can’t date, can’t have a life or do anything. I have to sit inside and study. If I get a bad grade, my parents hit me. My mom is so sadistic, she calls everyone in the house a motherfu***** bi***. Who does that? And she treats my brother like a king. She tells me, go get my glasses, while she lets my brother have naps. She tortures me with all of these extra activities and I can’t catch my breath! She yells at me constantly and all she does is watch YouTube. I have scars from her and when people ask me what happened, I have to lie. This is so unfair. All the other kids have social media and are spoiled while my mom has her fingerprint on my phone, and doesn’t let me text, and won’t let me have anything. She pinches like hell. And she compares me to other children. She always tells me I’m stupid and dumb. I hate it. When I started to self-harm, my bff told my parents, causing in them trying to throw me out of the house. Constantly my brother annoys me, and blames things on me and my mom beats the hell out if me. I really need advice on what to do, because if my mom uses the belt again I’m gonna kill myself.

**ccsmod4** · 02-21-2019, 01:03 AM

Reply: Help me. Im in the same position.

Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

From everything that you have been going through at home with your parent’s it took a lot of courage for you to reach out. We appreciate you sharing your feelings about the situation. Well done. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed and or thinking about harming yourself. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
For depression or suicidal thoughts you might consider contacting the National Suicide and Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.

Again you do not deserve to be abused physically, emotionally etc.
It is not your fault that this is happening. You cannot control hat others choose to do.
Seeking help is an option available to you.

To report any abusive treatment there is Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.

Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. We are limited as to how we can help in this type of forum.

If you would like to talk more in detail please call 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) or chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in.

Be safe,
NRS

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**Guest** · 02-24-2019, 12:57 PM

I Just got slapped by my mom in the thigh for crying after she grabbed my face this is not the first time.i am adopted.When something happens to my mom she has to ruin everyone else’s day, then she asks why I favor my dad. Then I said maybe it’s because you hate me. Then she tries to make it seem like she does everything for me... The truth is I want to die. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

maybe I should just
| give up
| and die...

**Guest** · 03-02-2019, 01:13 PM

I also feel the same. My mom keeps blaming me for small mistakes and thinks she's the center of the universe. Every time I do something to make her proud, she would just brush it off and say I'll check it out later. Since I am only a minor I can't do much, I am still 14, turning 15 this year. hI had an argument with her and my dad (my parents aren't together anymore) over phone, and I asked her if we can continue it later but still forces me to read anyways. I have severe anxiety and depression so I am easily hurt. On top of that I also hyperventilate regularly, which makes it worst. Even my dad hates me, my close friends became my enemies, and my family hated me as well. My mother blames me for their fights, and says it's all my fault. This started over 7 years ago, around the time I was still 5 or 6, ever since then I had suicidal thoughts because of them. My mom call me arrogant and hits me when ever I talk back. I only started talking back when I had enough of it. I try holding back but I still talk back either way, and I end up getting punched out slapped. She threw her mouse at me which bruised me. And I lost a lot of weight because I lost my apettite. I even stopped talking to friends and family often. I only have 3 people I talk to but they can't understand me at all. My dad only starts understanding me once I hyperventilate and to the point I almost passed out. My mom only started to understand when I passed out, but she still doesn't get me at all. I confessed to her that I had anxiety and depression but only said okay we'll get you therapy. Then a few weeks later she brushed it off like nothing. I really need help with this, I can't even get myself fixed for the day, eat well, sleep well, or do anything at all. She only ever loves me when i do stuff she wants me to do. Please help me, I want to run away or kill myself. But I don't have anything to be able to make a living with, seen as I'm only a minor. I also have a little sister who suffers the same thing as me but is a lot less than mine. I take all of her blows as so she doesn't get hurt. And I don't want to be living with my relatives as I can't make myself trust them

**Guest** · 03-03-2019, 05:21 PM

I can relate...my mom is a little bit different though. We have times when we love each other, but those don't last long. Once I accidentally threw trash off my bed and I didn't notice. She came into my room, yelled at me, and told me to pick it up. Normally, I would've but I was on the top of my bunkbed and I had come home from dance class. She was right in front of it too. I was about to get up. Whenever me and my brother argue she always takes his side and constantly acts like she doesn't. One day my brother was fighting with my cousin and I told him to stop but he wouldn't. My mom ONLY seemed to notice me pushing my brother and started to yell at me. I could notice she was getting ready to slap me, but she remembered my cousins were there. I got mad and went inside. After a while she came inside and started screaming at me. I told her she always took his side, but she said I was constantly behaving badly. Stopping a fight is bad? She said he didn't do nothing wrong even after I told her he kicked me. The same thing with my dad. When I was little I accidentally bumped into my brother and he fell. On the couch. He started to cry. My brother would always find ways to get me in trouble. Once I pushed him onto pillows and blankets and he cried and screamed so hard, my dad never ran faster. He started to push me to the living room and my mom had just finished mopping. There are MANY examples of my parents punishing me unfairly and I admit I do behave poorly sometimes, but they shouldn't punish me that badly. My mom says I over react and I am a narcissist, and to me everyone is the wort but I seem like the best. Everyone in my family hates me except my grandpa. All of this happening and the wonder why I have depression and why I go to therapy. I also think I have something called borderline personality disorder. If I tell my mom she will tell me I'm just overreacting and tell me to stop lying and seeking attention. If I tell my therapist, she will call the police on my parents and where will that leave me? Me and my dad were arguing once and I said maybe I should stay at my friend's house. He said my friend and her mom wouldn't want a useless, worthless, child like me. What's worse is I'm only 11. My dad is also EXTREMELY sexist. My brother who is 10 is allowed to have a girlfriend, but I can't have guy friends. I know that's how most dad's are, but that's straight up sexist. Whenever I bring it up, he tells me to shut up. I am also lucky when surrounded by people, because they don't hit me then, but they do little things like pinch.... REALLY HARD.

**Guest** · 03-09-2019, 11:02 PM

Hi Iam young teenage mother, I am 17 years old I have one daughter, I live with my mom and brothers. I don't know what to do anymore for 3 years my mom has been making me feel depressed and suicidal she blames me for everything.she sometimes say she wish I wasn't born, when I heard that it broke my heart. My baby's father left me because of my mom she would tell him lies about me that isn't true. Iam sick of feeling depression sometimes I feel like running away from home. My father left us when I was 10 ever since he left my mom treats me like a homeless dog or a piece of rag she makes me do everything she doesn't do anything with my brothers. When I tell my mom can my brother help me clean for just a second she would tell my brother to hit me

**Guest** · 03-10-2019, 09:56 AM

My mom seems nice usually, but whenever I get distracted (it happens a lot) she screams and curses at me. I'm crying right now because about 20 minutes ago she called me a useless brat. She did this because I answered a question, she didn't hear me, I said it again. She muttered that i was a little brat under her breath, and she's called me useless on multiple occasions. She does this to my brother, too, but she isnt as mean to him, and they spend much more time together. We have an inside joke in the family (my mom and dad are divorced and i dont see him anymore, i have 2 brothers, one doesnt live with us) that she has a list of favourite children. When we do something bad, we are moved down. It's kind of funny, but it gets old quickly, and it's kind of belittling whenever she "moves you down".

**Guest** · 03-13-2019, 02:17 PM

My mom has currently grounded me and gave me a tons of chores to do by myself because I went to the nurse to lay down due to extreme cramps that made it hard to stay in class. Mind you I made sure to finish and do all the stuff I need to get done before asking my teacher if it was okay to go to the nurse office. So turns out they called her, next thing I know after my 30 minutes nap, I go to my next class and bout hour passes by I get texts from my mom saying I am never allowed in the nurses office ever , that I’m grounded and if she catches me taking a nap at home she’ll beat my ass. Like for as long as I can remember my mom has never really been nice to me and has always degraded my self confidence. I don’t have one memory of her actually being proud of me for anything I’ve achieved. She even has me make sure not to tell my doctors if I have any symptoms of depression because they’ll lock me in a institution. She makes me so stressed and depressed that I can barely have a nice day without getting yelled at for something I did. Like sometimes I wish I wasn’t born or could runaway or even just die.

**Guest** · 03-13-2019, 10:50 PM

Hi, I might need some help, my mom get mad at me fo doing the things i do and she said she wanted to kill me. It’s really messed up and I want to run away or punch her so badly but I know that’s a bad thing to do, she hits me and makes me bleed sometimes, she also wants me to go away and send me to military school so I won’t get in her way. Please help me I don’t want to do bad things but I might not have the patience anymore

**ccsmod4** · 03-14-2019, 02:49 AM

Reply: Hi, I might need some help

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.

If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in.

Be safe,
NRS

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**Guest** · 03-19-2019, 01:05 AM

So I actually love my mom, but recently she's been so hypocritical and thoughtless. She'll constantly point out my flaws and never once admits any time shes ever wrong. Just two weeks ago we had a small argument and I was trying to finish my sentence and she wanted to say something so instead of just saying shut up she said shut up while punching me. Just once, but shes always preached about how wrong she thinks that kind of thing is. Shes a big part of the reason I started cutting myself. I really want to die, but I dont have the heart to do it and I now I just want to leave. And tonight I just texted her to please keep the noise down because my family is watching a movie and they're literally yelling and laughing insanely loud at 1am. And she starts texting back about how lazy I am and that I dont work tomorrow (which I do) I'm 17 which I know should be old enough to keep myself together but I just cant keep on letting her say anything she wants and not be able to defend myself because I'm the kid.

**Guest** · 03-29-2019, 03:59 PM

I hate my life my dad and mum are always calling me names it is practically bullying and I have so much bruises all over me I want to run away or kill myself but I don’t know what other people will think of me I have filled a bag with clothes and am thinking of going out the window in the night because earlier I was lying down and dad said what r u doing apart from being a dick and then mum said what’s he doing and he said being a wee wanker and she said ima ********ing failure and that I’m a worthless mistake and then I said I was just lying down and then dad said r u giving cheek then come in and punched me in the face and spat on me

**Guest** · 03-31-2019, 01:21 AM

My mom acts like she loves me but I can tell that she doesn't really. She'll go on how much of an ****** or a spoiled little brat I am whenever I make any little slip ups or mistakes. She's hit me in the past before when I was younger but denies it even though I have extremely vivid memories of it. She will always criticize me and make fun of me whenever she gets the chance to. Whenever I try to talk to her about how I feel, she'll always say how dramatic or stupid I'm being and that I'm worthless. The last time I tried doing this, she literally went to the hospital claiming that she needed to get away from me and even got the police involved. I obviously felt really bad and thought that it was all my fault and that I should have never tried to make amends with her in the first place. The next night, she was back at our house and tried to get me to say that I was just being unfair and overly dramatic, just like teenagers typically are. I told her that that wasn't the case and that I've just been really upset by all of this and that I would like to make amends with her, but she wasnt having it. Her response was to go upstairs to her bedroom and even threatened to kill herself right then and there because of me. I felt like absolute ********. She came very close to carrying out this horrific deed, but stopped herself from doing it. She makes me feel like a piece of garbage that means literally nothing to her except for the fact that she gets to toss and throw me around without care. Pretty recently she even claimed that she would rather she had never adopted me and that I was never apart of her family. I was adopted from China when I was 1, so hearing this obviously made me feel like I was in shock. I knew she didn't like me all that much, but I never knew that she would unadopt me in a heartbeat. This was one of the most painful things I ever heard come from her mouth. Words can slice you up just as badly as physical harm, and I was in absolute pain in hearing this from her. For years of having to deal with torment from my mother, I desperately wanted to end my life for good. I even considered stabbing myself with a knife multiple times whenever I passed by the knives in the kitchen. I even feel comfort in hiding a knife in my nightstand drawer in case I decide to end it all for good. I feel like this will be the only way to completely end everything that I have gone through and that it will make me happy again. I have physically hurt myself before on numerous occasions because of this empty and lonely void that I feel everyday. It also doesn't help that many of my friends are also depressed and even seeking medical attention. They claim that I am one of the only reasons that they don't kill themselves either. Knowing this, it's almost impossible for me to actually kill myself in fear that my friends will follow in my footsteps. I'm utterly lost and I don't know what to do anymore. This is the first time I've reached out on any sort of platform like this, so thank you for anyone who took the time to read all of this and hear me out. I really appreciate it.

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