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  • ccsmod15
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    Hey there,
    It seems like you are having a tough time with your mom at home to the point you are feeling suicidal. You should never be treated like a slave and pushed to the point you feel like that is your only option. It’s understandable to feel frustrated by her hypocrisy and feel like drastic options are the way to go.
    Your life matters, and we want you to know we care about you and want to see things improve for you. There is hope here and things can get better, please reach out to 911 or the Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 for immediate help.

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    I hate my mom so much, I do nothing wrong and she digs up the past. She's a hypocrite doing the things she says that aren't good. She's just some stupid woman bossing her slave. I'm going to attempt suicide by hanging myself. Bye.

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  • ccsmod7
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    Hi there, thanks for reaching out. Sounds like you have been through more than anyone should ever have to go through, and you have been thinking about killing yourself for a long time now. We are so glad you are still here with us, your life is invaluable and you so deserve to make it through this and to have the opportunity to heal.

    It looks like you might be based in the UK, and if that is case we do not want to give you any misinformation about resources and options since are knowledge base is limited to the U.S. However, there are resources more local to you who are similar to us. We encourage you to reach out to them, you so deserve the support you are looking for:

    Local suicide prevention hotline:
    https://www.samaritans.org/

    Local Child Help hotlines:
    https://www.childline.org.uk/
    https://www.themix.org.uk/

    Best,

    NRS

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    Guest replied
    hi so im female17 turning 18 and need help/advise as i cant get any irl.
    before i turned 10yrs: my dad would rape me in my sleep and id tell my mother she didnt care, my mother chased me with a knife a few times but never got me other than a cut on my arm when i ran under the bed to get away (she said if i were to kill myself she will kill me first as i tried hanging/suffocation when i was 7-9yrs old) she’d beat me over every little thing esp in public, both parents tell me im an accident, lock me in a room with no light food water for over 24hrs, my dad would beat me and lock me in the under stair cupboard for day or two. however my mother would keep me home from school to spend time with her cause she was lonely but would be nasty to me (my dad would beat her 24/7 as he is an alcoholic and drug addict). also do not know any other people than parents and have one younger sibling and one older both favoured over me...they got hit every now and then thats it.
    after 10yrs old:
    still getting hit by both, dad still a drinker/drug user but doesnt hit my mum anymore but he has 4 baby mums and still sexually abuses me til 17 (watching me in showers still, leaving inapropriate pictures on my phone, watching me dress/undress, watching me thru curtains even though im dressed or asleep). haven’t got any friends because i went to a racist school who were rude as i don’t come from privillage and from the hood. (all these things continue til 17)
    13yrs:
    starting to feel suicidal again, hearing voices and seeing things, heavily; smoking weed, drinking, using mdma, prescription drugs n partying etc. staying out house late nights not returning home because i was too busy getting in police trouble (cases, arrests etc). i have really bad anxiety i cant leave the house without being high or i feel too ugly or worthless to get out of bed. and also in a emotionally/verbally abusive relation ship til 16. kicked out of high school 2 years before gratuation and this whole time period was a sucide mission

    16yrs:
    tried killing myself never worked drug tolerance too high and sick of it i wanna live. but cant get a job (legally on paper do not have any qualifications and cant get none because anxiety) come to find out im a paranoid schizophrenic so im house bound for life and need a carer but do not have. father left house and mother doesnt hit shes just more emotionally abusive than ever. self pity parties, one minute she loves me next she wants me to ‘******** off and die’ but another says she needs me. she is very lonely has no friends or family either. (sibilings moves out when i was 14 with relationship partners)
    not on drugs, no legal trouble just saying in a 8 by 12 bedroom gained weight from depression and just numb dont do anything.

    17: things are still the same however i wanna live life more than ever but i leave my bedroom and im now in a negative bubble, i have nobody (no friends at all or any social life, no family members as they do not like us because my mum left them for my dad years ago). but i cant physically do anything like get a job, work & earn, see people, socialise or get away from my toxic mother as i do not have the tools or can aquire the tools to do so. genuinely feel like theres no point of even living because i sit up waiting for the next day watching time pass numb. i do not want to die but what else do i have? please give advice. dont have to tools other than this online option to speak to anyone. only time i spoke to someone and was able an old friend when i was 15, her mother professionaly and diagnosed me with paranoia schizophrenia but only spoke to her for a few moths as i cut that friend off she was very racist towards others and lived far anyway .

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  • ccsmod15
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    Thank you for sharing all that with us. We honor your feelings. You certainly don't deserve the sort of torment your mom is putting you through. That's totally unfair, unkind, and uncalled for. It sounds like she isn't even aware of all the damage that she's causing. If you feel that what she says is emotional or verbal abuse, you have the right to file a report with your state's child abuse reporting hotline or through www.childhelp.org at 1-800-422-4453.

    We are pretty concerned when you talk about killing yourself -- even if it's "just talk." That's pretty serious and clearly is coming from a place of pain.. If you ever feel suicidal, please reach out for the help you deserve. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is staffed by people trained to talk about suicide, so they are a great resource. You can reach them at www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or call 1-800-273-8255. You can also reach out to us anytime to talk about suicide or anything else on your mind. We are confidential and open 24/7 at 1-800-RUNAWAY or by chat at www.1800runaway.org. We want you to be safe. Things can get better and you have many options besides suicide.

    It's great you are opening up about all this. You have a right to be seen and heard. If you ever want to talk about what's going on, please call or chat with us. We're here to listen, here to help.

    Be safe,
    NRS

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    Guest replied
    Ok so I’m 15 and I haven’t decided or anything but sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of my mother. She always takes her anger out on me, There is no physical abuse but sometimes when she shouts at me or criticises me I feel like I want to end it all. She says I can’t do anything sometimes and it feels as painful as a knife in the back.. When she shouts I talk back sometimes saying that if I had a choice to kill you or myself, I would kill myself because she would have to live with the guilt. This is nothing serious because it’s all talk but it feels good to say it in the open world.. When she shouts at me I normally feel like running away and starting a new life but I know that impossible.. On top of all this my mother doesn’t hear herself. She doesn’t know how one of her scoldings digs so deep in to my heart... It’s like mental torture... My mother keeps saying that when she is gone I will regret it but in my mind when she is gone the home will be more peaceful... Whenever my mother goes on vacation everyone else in the house is relieved and at peace when she returns the hurricane starts all over again...

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  • ccsmod2
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    Hello There,
    Thank you for reaching out to The National Runaway Safeline, we are here to help and here to listen. It sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now, and we want you to know that we are here to help.
    We are sorry to hear that the relationship between you and your mother isn’t good. One option to consider is to try and talk with your mom about how you are feeling. We know you mentioned that she makes fun of you when you try and talk to her and you do not deserve that. At NRS we offer conference calling where if you call us we can call out to your mother and help you have a productive conversation. Conference calling helps the conversation go smoothly and we are there for support.
    We know you mentioned feeling sad and thoughts of suicide, you do not have to deal with these feelings alone. We want you to know that you are worth living and that your life is valuable. Suicide is a permanent decision to a temporary situation. If you ever need someone to talk to or having suicidal thoughts, please call The National Suicide Prevention Hotline at: 1800-273-8255. There is always someone willing to listen and willing to provide support.
    You mentioned using drugs to deal with all of this, you probably already know that drugs are an unhealthy way to cope with everything. Drug addiction is a serious disease, if you feel you need help pleas contact SAMHSA (substance abuse and mental health services association). They can be reached at 877-726-4727.
    We hope that this information will be helpful to you in your situation. If you have any other questions or would like to explore more options, please give us a call. We are here to listen and here to help 24/7. Best of luck!
    NRS

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    Guest replied
    My mom makes me want to kill myself ive never been a sad person and I’m only 14 but the constant pain and struggle I go through with her is the worst she’s mean to my brothers and she yells at me and makes me feel worthless and I’m a male and I’m scared to talk about it cause of embarrassment but it hurts it does every day I wish I could go live with my grandma again, I play Xbox with my best friend who lives by my grandma and I love him to death I’ve known him for like 8 years but we play gta everyday and he’s the reason I could never kill myself but I feel like it would ease the pain to be gone my mom thinks I’m ok but I’m not I had a relationship that kinda broke me down a little bit when it ended and I can’t talk to my mom about it because she makes fun of me and I can’t deal with that drugs are my way I will never leave them

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  • ccsmod15
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    Hello,
    Thank you for reaching out during this difficult time. We are sorry to hear you don’t feel supported by your family at home, you have the right to feel safe and wanted! You are not a failure! You mentioned you were thinking about hurting yourself. The National Suicide Hotline https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ is a good resource for talking through your problems. You also mentioned you were sexually abused by a family member. This can cause lots of unseen issues including trouble sleeping, low-self esteem and many other issues. This was not your fault. The Rape Abuse Incest National Network https://www.rainn.org/ is another good resource for you. Please reach out to them if you are feeling like hurting yourself or needing additional support. You can also contact us at any time at 1-800-RUNAWAY if you would like more options. Please stay safe and reach out any time.

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    Guest replied
    hi,
    i want to prepare for my upsc..and im not that supported here at home..they did pay for my online class,but they always pull my spirits down by saying that i"m unfit,a failure and that i have bron to just distroy things,and i have been ill treated by many people..and i have a few illness,it has distroyed my self esteem and everything i bear,above all i was sexually abused by my own cousin..i:m not able to seep at nighys..no one to share pain..i just want to live life at my means as long as im alive

    im not able to tell more im tooo broke to pour it out

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  • ccsmod4
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    Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

    We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We are sorry that things are not going well between you and your mom
    You don’t deserve to have harsh things said to you or be made to feel suicidal.
    It seems that it’s been pretty hard for you. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by what has been going on. It also sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change.

    Your safety and well-being is important.
    If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.

    Sometimes when communication breaks down with someone you are close to you making it difficult to know just where to turn. You did well reaching out today. We would like you to know NRS is here to listen and here to help. Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of.

    Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
    If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
    also here is a link and number you might consider looking into for crisis services. SAMHSA 1-800-985-5990 http://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/disa...tress-helpline
    We hope to hear from you soon.

    Be safe and stay strong,
    NRS
    Last edited by ccsmod4; 04-14-2020, 03:41 AM.

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    Guest replied
    I really have stress, I can't deal with my mom. She makes me learn everything and still insults and hits me. Today my mom forced me to learn although it is on school holiday. She said if I remembered this from last 2 years. I said barely and she yelled at me and she kept trying to say stuff like, "wow you have no responsibility." "I wasted so much money" I seriously want to die. She makes me think I'm a dummy that she can do whatever she wants. I'm only 11 and I think she's one of those tiger mom's. She doesn't care if I said "I want to die." She gives me stress and she blames me even when I argue with my friend and I did nothing wrong. She's like one of those tiger moms. She talks trash about me and doesn't even care about me. She says I'm too addicted to social media and games because 1. School holiday. 2. Quarantine. She expects me to read some book about life. She's making me remember things I don't even know and won't affect my life. I want to die so badly. I wish my mom stopped comparing me too and stopped because some monster. I think I should just jump out of the window and wait for a new life to begin.

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  • ccsmod7
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    Hi there, thanks for reaching out today. Sounds like you are feeling pretty down about your relationship with your family members and they threaten to kick you out. That sounds really stressful to deal with and your feelings are valid. It seems like all this stress has made you feel like you are mistake and you shouldn't be here. Those are some really significant feelings and you so deserve to be supported during this difficult time. It's clear you are not wanting to hear this, but we need you to know that you are not a mistake. There is hope for you to move past this, and you are worth just as much as everyone else.

    If you feel like you are in immediate danger of harming yourself please call 911. Also know that you can always call or chat us or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline if you would like to talk to someone https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ or www.1800RUNAWAY.org. Your safety is incredibly important.

    It sounds like you are feeling like you might get kicked out. Just so you know, if you do get kicked out we can always look for shelters or transitional living programs in your area. If you haven't already, you might also ask any friends or family members if you can live with them if you do need a safe place to go. Please call or chat us if you would like to talk through your housing options or need any support 1-800-RUNAWAY; www.1800runaway.org.

    Best,

    NRS

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    Guest replied
    I hate myself Bc every day I try to make my family members happy and about once every other week I take things that aren’t mine and they act like I killed someone. I don’t know what to do, I’m 18 and they always tell me that they’re going to kick me out so I’m like always afraid Bc I’m a jr in high school and if they kick me out I’ll drop out of high school and I’ll be homeless. I’ll literaly have nothing to live for. Don’t reply by saying everyone means something and ******** like that Bc your just doing your job and what people expect u to say. I truly want to just end everything. God made a mistake bringing me into this life.

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  • ccsmod15
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    We are sorry you are going through all that. You don't deserve to be abused by your mom, which is what it sounds like. If you'd like to file an abuse report you have that right. You can file through your state's child abuse reporting hotline or through Child Help (www.childhelp.org) at 1-800-422-4453. You deserve to be heard and taken seriously.

    Some of the language you use concerns us because it sounds suicidal. Please know that you have other options. It's probably a good idea to talk things through with someone you trust: perhaps a teacher, counselor, relative, or anyone that you feel safe with. You also can reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255. They also have a website: www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org. Things CAN get better. And you don't have to face this alone.

    We welcome you to call us anytime to discuss what your options are or even if you just want to vent. We are here 24/7, are confidential, and we never tell anyone what to do. Our number is 1-800-RUNAWAY. You can also chat with us via the portal at www.1800runaway.org. Again, what you are going through is not your fault. Your feelings have value. We hope to hear from you soon.

    Best wishes,
    NRS
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