I messed up and can't do anything about it.

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I've suffered from mental illness for years and have been hospitalized twice, and partially hospitalized three times for depression, self harm and suicide. I'm only 13. I moved out of my parents this year due to drug abuse, mental illness and emotional abuse. I went to my paternal aunts, who I had a really good relationship with before I moved in. Once I did we fought a lot, and I tried to commit suicide when visiting my moms house. This entire time I just wanted to live with my mom since she was clean and better, but nobody would let me, so I moved with my maternal aunt and two cousins, and ever since then I've been severely depressed and even suicidal. They haven't hurt me, but I just wanna be with my mom. At this point, I have no option but to just runaway to my mothers, but I know the chaos it'll start, someone please help me.. I wamna go home, to my real home..

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re: I messed up and can't do anything about it

Hello,

It seems like you have been struggling with living with your aunts since you moved in with them. From what you shared, you are considering running away to your moms home even though you are aware of what problems may come from that. In general, we can't exactly tell you what you should do. You seem to be self aware and really knowledgeable about what those possible consequences are. If you leave, it can cause you to be sent back to your aunts. It sounds like that has already been really hard for you. So at this point you would need to decide whether the consequences are worth you leaving to go stay with your mom.

Take care and be safe,
NRS