I can't do this for four more years

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I know so many teenagers think they want to run away because their families are !!so awful!! but I swear I'm not just a delusional hormonal twelve year old. I'm fourteen, which I know isn't nearly an old enough age to live on my own. and I don't think I could manage it either— honestly I know I'm gonna stay. but it's awful here. just because I don't have the guts to up and leave forever doesn't mean that it's a mild situation. my mom owns a store. I work in it regardless of my own wishes. I am mistreated and beaten and screamed at every. single. day. the customers are awful and when they're discontent they come up with some *** that always puts me in a bad light because I was the one who helped them. they will come up with the WILDEST most BLATANT lies and my mom knows they're lied, her husband knows they're lies, and they'll tell the customers that theyre right, I'm just a stupid girl who can't control her temper. I go directly to the store after school. I work till about six or seven. I'm not paid or anything, either. i need to squeeze in a heap of homework in the space of two hours. I go to a school notorious in New York for its workload, and when I get less than A+ marks I get screamed at and beaten despite the fact I have NO time to study. my weekends are long workdays beginning when I wake up and ending at 10:00 pm. my parents are awful to me as well; they never keep their promises EVER, I cannot recall a promise they have kept at all. my moms husband is the worst. he will blow up at ANY given minute and has attempted to stab us before!! my brother is becoming a mini-him, sadistically using my parents favoritism for him to make my life absolutely horrible. I am dead serious. it's not some ********ing small issue that will be solved in a week. it's my life and it's been my life for years and years and I want to either run or kill myself. I just don't have the guts. Oh and did I mention how my parents care about what others think k of them so much more than they care about their own child? we pretend we're a big happy family whenever someone, a friend or another relative or whomevwr, is around. even though I physically flinch whenever my moms husband comes within three or so feet of me, we manage and everyone loves my parents because they're such lovely people with a gorgeous family!!!!

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Re: I can't do this for four more years

Hello, thank you so much for contacting us today. It sounds like you are having an extremely hard time at home. We are sorry you are going through this, no one deserves to be beaten and screamed at every day. It sounds like you are feeling pretty unsafe around your stepdad. It is not okay that he has attempted to stab you. If you are worried for your immediate safety, please call 911. If you are interested in reporting him to Child Protective Services (CPS), you could also do that. If you would like help reporting you can call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY and we can help you make a report. We are not experts on reporting and it can result in different actions such as your family getting a case worker and family services, or you could possibly be removed from your home. If you are unsure that reporting is the right option for your situation, you could call Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453. They are an information hotline who can tell you more about what reporting could look like in your case.

You mentioned that you want to run away or kill yourself. We are so sorry you are going through this, and you do not have to face this alone. Besides us, you can always call the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK or visit them at www.youmatter.suicidepreventionlifeline.org. We can also see if there are any local counseling resources in your area if you are interested in that. We are here for you, and we care about you. You seem like a really strong, smart person and we want to see you through this. Please call or live chat us so we can talk about your situation more and provide you those resources if you would like.

Thanks again for reaching out. You are really strong for doing so.
We look forward to hearing from you!

Best wishes,
NRS