Need Help/A Plan (By Tomorrow)

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My parents are way too controlling, but I don't even know if others would see it as controlling. Lately I've been having trouble explains this all, but I really need help. I'm 17 years old, I suffer from panic attacks and severe depression on a daily basis. I have no job because I'm not mentally capable of keeping one. If I'm not crying in a dark corner wanting to kill myself, I'm losing my mind, and collapse on the floor wanting to kill myself becausE I'm so sick of living like this. My biggest issue, mainly my only issue to really worry about is finding a plan around school or my life, which is why both matters while I'm explaining. Since my panic attacks got worse, I can't handle being in my core classes anymore. The gore,the dark world we live in, how dark the world used to be,everything negative. I can't hear that stuff anymore, whenever I do, I panic badly and nearly end up throwing up and missing half the lesson. The school offered me correspondence but my mom won't let me, nor will me dad. Now my dad is threatening me with more abuse and my mom is threatening to get rid of me, and my sister is saying they should send me to a psycho ward (or a school for psychos. I'm stuck between fighting and killing myself. I just can't go to school anymore. But like I said it's only my cores making me worse. I'd be fine right now without them, but my mom won't help make it easier in me, nor will my dad. All they're worried about is punishing me for having anxiety and depression. I just need a way to get through this or to successfully kill myself. Please help. I don't want to die, but my parents have me surrounded.

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Re: Need Help/A Plan (By Tomorrow)

Hi there,

Thanks for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline (NRS). It sounds like you’re going through a difficult time right now with school and family stress. You mentioned struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide. Thank you for sharing this with us. Depression often can bring on a lot of negative and scary thoughts. You seem to have a lot of insight into your mental health though, and you’ve realized that some things need to change to help maintain your well-being. Sometimes a little extra help from professional resources can help. Perhaps you may be able able to see a therapist to help work through the symptoms of depression and thoughts of suicide. If you are in need of any resources or services, we can help connect you to agencies that can provide you with the proper care and treatment that you deserve. Reaching out for help is the first step, and it seems you may be in need of some services.

If you are ever in any danger or experience any active thoughts of wanting to hurt yourself or end your life, we encourage you to reach out to emergency services for help or go to your nearest emergency hospital. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is also a helpful resource to turn to for support at www.nationalsuicidepreventionlifeline.org, 1-800-273-TALK (8255).

Your life matters, and you are important. What you’re going through right now is not and does not have to be permanent. We’re here to listen, help, and explore some options that are best for you and your situation.

We hope you can reach out by phone or chat soon as that is often the most immediate way to receive services.

Take care,
NRS