I want to run away and I have for years but I don't know how

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Since I've been in 4th grade I've known I've been different from all the other kids. I was at sleepwear camp when my parents left on visiting day I was the only one out of 13 not crying. I thought it was normal not to but it turns out it's normal to cry. Now 6 years later and I still feel like this, my parents are either always yelling at me or at eachother and I just can't stand it anymore. I've only ever had several friends in my life and none of them I can talk to about any of my problems. I used to have this one person that I would talk to but after a while they stopped responding and I felt alone again. I always feel alone and I likable even when I'm with friends, I always feel useless and like jm that annoying kid that everyone hates. I just wish sometimes that I could have lived with another family and never the one I'm living with. I've lived with them my whole life but I just don't fit in, I never have and I don't don't think I ever will. This past summer I did something I loved, it's my favorite thing in the entire world and I found out I wasn't aloud to next summer thanks to my parents. I've always been my happiest when I'm not around them, I wish that I could be around the people that I'm supposed to love and be happy but I don't love them and I'm never happy around them. My family just makes me miserable and being around them 24/7 doesn't help and also the fact that my parents think I enjoy spending time with them and not my friends really doesn't help. They don't understand how hard it is for me to make friends and hang out with them all the time. They've never know how many people have left me and gone for someone else instead. They don't know how damaged I really feel on the inside.

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Reply: I want to run away and I have for years but I don't know how

Hello,
Thanks for contacting the National Runaway Safeline.

It sounds like you have been going through a tough emotional time in your life.
It’s not always easy to fit in socially and establish long term friendships.
Having mixed emotions about those friendships establish short or long is just how you feel.
It’s a credit to you that you are being honest about how you feel and hopefully you are on a path to work your feelings out.
It sounds like perhaps you have not expressed how you feel to your parents.
Is that right?

Communication is so important although it’s not always easy to do.
There may be any number of reasons as to how things have gotten to the point they are today.
The question is how do you take the first step to opening up the lines of communication?
You took a big step tonight contacting NRS to express the way you have been feeling. Good for you.
There may be other options to explore in helping you discover a way to relieve some of the frustrations you have about living with your family.

Taking care of yourself emotionally is important. Perhaps looking into information for support services would be an option you might consider exploring. Sometimes counseling can be a way to learn ways of coping with your situation.

If you would like information for counseling /support services in your area give NRS a call at 1-800-Runaway (786-2929).
You can also live chat with one of our Crisis Service Volunteers to gain this information.
Just go to www.1800Runaway.org
How does that sound?

We hope that reaching out to NRS has helped in some way.
We appreciate your honesty.

Take Care,
NRS