Running away

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I'm fourteen and I'm having difficulties running away from my home. My dad is extremely verbally abusive and treats me like a dog. My parents are divorced and my mom is constantly stressing me out to the point where I'm crying so hard I get major migraines. I live with my mom and grandparents, my grandparents are both verbally abusive, too. My grandma will make fun of me and has even called me cuss words such as, "little *****" and "*******".

I have considered suicide multiple times but I have so many people online who care about me and truly do love me. I wouldn't forgive myself if I did anything to myself. I have cut myself in the past, and my sister is encouraging me to continue it.

I have a friend who lives a few states over, they have agreed to help me run away when I turn fifteen next year and pick me up. I'm aware of legal issues but I don't feel safe here anymore. My grandpa has grabbed me and thrown me against the wall five feet away. I still have a scar from where my elbow was cut on a nail in the wall.

I'm sorry but I just can't do hotlines or lifelines. My mom always has her phone and I don't own one myself, I just need some typed up advice instead, just please.

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Re: Running away

Hi there,

Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.

You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and well-being. You do not deserve to be hurt by anyone. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. We are not experts on the issue, but generally once it's been reported, social services will either decide whether or not to take the case and further investigate. If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services if you are having depressed thoughts or thoughts of ending your life.

Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.

For a safe place to turn to you may reach out to us by phone, chat, or email with you city/state/zip or visit http://nationalsafeplace.org/ to find shelters within your state on your own.

We hope this helps a bit. Please be safe and reach out soon by phone or chat so that we may help.

Take care,
NRS

If at any time you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.