Help! I'm 13 and abused by my family

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So after my dog passed away, my whole family basically broke down. My brother (who is slightly autistic) has hurt me for as long as I can remember. A few days ago, he broke my nose. He has also broken two toes, stabbed me with a knife, and verbally abused me. My parents, especially my mom, stand around and watch it happen. He has had no punishment overtime he has hurt me. Both of my parents verbally abuse me, calling me things like "b*tch, wh*re, ect.) My mother has even pushed me and scratched me a few times. The issue with my brother snow his age. When we were 5, and he was 7, I was taller than him. Now, he is 15, 6 4', and 190 pounds. I have to walk around with a knife in order to feel safe in my own home. However, when I do that, my deadfalls me "over dramatic, insane, crazy". I lock my door at night. My brother has never been arrested, because he is underage and my parents lie to the police. I spend all my time locked away in my room now. My fear is that if I run away, I will be caught, or not have any money, because aim too young to get a job. I also can't put myself into foster care, because of legal reasons. My parents make it seem like I am the problem, and blame me anytime they fight. This is what makes me believe that they will not let me be put up for adoption. I am also scarred of how I will react to any change, because have a history of suicidal attempts, and I suffer from depression and anxiety. Does anyone know where I can go? I have no family members near me.

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. It may also be a good place to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS