Im so tired of feeling this way need somewhere to go

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Hi, this is myself coming to this website trying to be safe towards myself. I know there's more out there in life for me but I need help..
Im 16 years old. And I live in Pennsylvania. Theres no busses for me to get on well I tried finding..
For years now, I have felt unsafe at my house. My mother has fibromyalgia and bipolar, she will never talk to me because she always uses the excuse "im in pain" "get out of my room" Then she will cry out to my father if I try even talking to her.
And well, when my dad steps in he will threaten for me to go to my room so I always end up staying in my room locked up.
But, my parents are always putting me down as well, making me feel suicidal each and everyday. Ive been to the hospital several times with crisis because of family issues and I try to take my life.
I have no money. But im sick of feeling this way, I do have a boyfriend, but my parents will not let me live with him or anyone else that can make me happy.
The cops have been to my house several times.. They always think me and my brother are f***** up and my parents play the innocent s***..
I really need somewhere to go to. The shelter in my city requires you to be 18 I believe and is full. And my parents or the cops cant find me there.. Because if they do ill probably be locked up for running away and I just dont want to go back.
Ill be 17 in August. Yay my birthdays coming... Im not honestly excited anymore. I've never had atleast one happy birthday.
I tried to do this online chat but it wont let me reply in the chat box, I even emailed them and have not got an answer yet.
I stayed at this place hoffman homes for a bit but I just couldnt take the people there.. So I left. I got in to hoffman homes because I got survived by the hospital for taking 6 bottles of pills.
Its just time for me to get out before I have no life.

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re: I'm so tired of feeling this way I need somewhere to go

Hello,

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I want to run away

I am 13 and I need to run away but I don't have enough money and don't have anywhere to go but I need leave. I can't stay. What do I do?

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RE: I want to run away

It sounds like you are going through a lot. And what you are saying makes sense. Sometimes youth need to take a break, or leave a bad situation. But it is an overwhelming thing to try to tackle. Let’s think through a couple of options.

You could connect with National Safe Place, http://nationalsafeplace.org. With that program, you text SAFE to 69866 with your current location, and you’ll get a message showing the closest safe place location (various businesses participate.) You’ll also get a contact number to the nearest local shelter, and be able to text with a mental health professional. It’s all anonymous too.

If that doesn’t work, you can always call or chat with us. We have a database with resources and can provide you with local youth shelter contact info too.

Sometimes youth stay with friends or relatives for a while. This can even be something guardians know about and approve of, depending on the situation. This gives everyone a chance to have space. You did say you has nowhere to go, but it might be worth reconsidering in case there’s an option you hadn’t yet thought about.

Thank you for reaching out. Remember you can contact us 24/7 on the phone, or daily via chat, if you want to talk through this further.