Can/Should i call CPS for verbal abuse? Or is this even verbal abuse??

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Honestly I have no idea what to do at this point. Nearly everyday when I wake up I get yelled at by my dad, when I get home (this is everyday) i get yelled at. Before or after dinner (most days) I get yelled at. At least twice, if not more, a day I get yelled at by my dad or mom. Mostly my dad, he is constantly yelling at me for completely stupid reasons. It usually starts off with my poor grades in school, which I may add are mostly his fault, and then turns into something else. He yells at me for random stuff, like how I look, my friends, my hobbies, what clothes I wear. Ive been told on multiple occasions that I didn't deserve to be born, or I was a "F*** up"

In public or around other people he acts perfect, and everybody thinks he is. He went to two ivy league schools so everyone thinks he's amazing and knows everything. He constantly holds that over my head. But when he, myself, and my mother are alone he is a completely different person.

Ive been depressed for 3 years, self harming for all of them. He is a HUGE part of it. I already hate myself, how I look, etc. And he only backs that up. Lately i've been seriously considering suicide. And lately, he has been getting worse. He used to hit me, not badly but a bit. A few days ago he didn't exactly hit me but he grabbed me. Im self harming more than ever, I used to drink and take pills a lot. Just to take my mind off of everything. Sounds bad enough and when you add in the cutting and starving myself its pretty bad. Lately the cutting has been worse and I'm back to drinking, partly because of him.

He and my mom are fighting worse as well, I, call me a bad person, honestly don't care if they get a divorce. Frankly I want them to, it would give me just another reason to be depressed. But I'm worried that my mom is starting or will starting doing something dumb. When they get in a fight, which normally starts with him fighting with me, she'll just disappear for most of the day. Im really worried.

I don't want to call CPS, or call/report it to anyone yet. Yet. But its at the point where I don't feel safe anywhere because I feel that if I do anything ill get in trouble for it. I have friends helping me through this, but, I honestly don't know how much they can help.

So yea, Im 13, and have no clue what to do... I just need help, thanks.

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re: Can/Should i call CPS for verbal abuse? Or is this even verbal abuse??

Hello,

You seem to be having a tough time with your dad at home, being verbally abusive with you and sometimes even physical. It sounds like his actions are really affecting you to the point that you are using drugs and having thoughts of harming yourself. You shouldn't have to deal with all of that. You're really strong for reaching out for help. It could be helpful to call or chat with the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline when you are feeling like this. They are available via chat on their website or by phone at 1-800-273-8255.

As far as with identifying what you are going through, we recommend you call Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453. They are a resource for youth who are dealing with abuse. They could try and give you ways to identify what is happening with you and what you can do to stay safe. They may not be able to tell you directly what you should do, but they are a great source of information and planning. Child Help USA does have a website as well if you want to take a look at it. If there is anything else we can help with, feel free to call or chat with us anytime.

Take care,
NRS

[Guest]

My situation is not as bad as the last person who wrote seems, but I am still unsure of what I should do. I have been depressed for 3 years and am finally starting to recover. I thought it was caused mainly by circumstance of my life. For example, I moved 3 times in fourth grade to 3 different states. But lately I have been thinking maybe the reason I have been so depressed for so long is because of my parents more than I originally thought. My parents are both out of work right now. My mom has been out of work for about a year and my dad has been out of work for 3 years. We live with my grandparents on my dad’s side and it can be rough. Recently my dad told me I was a bad person and didn’t deserve to have my drivers license due to a response I made after he made a very racist comment about a person who gave him warm coke a cola. He hadn’t even seen the person. I reacted to this because I was disgusted in his comment. He freaked out. My mom told me she was not and never would be on my side. Which made me feel even worse. I feel like I have been verbally abused at times. And once my dad put me in a choke hold and grabbed my arm hard. This has been a shock to me because I have never paid attention to his behavior like that before. And he has never acted quite like this before. Conditions seem to be getting worse and worse. Long story short, I don’t feel very safe anymore in this house. I don’t want to call a hotline because I’m not sure if I have enough reason to. When I am with my parents, a lot of the time they make me feel like crap. I am an only child and they have always tried to put me in a box. But right now I don’t even feel like they want me to succeed. I’m 16 and I thought I might just have to wait till 18 to be free but I don’t know if I can make a way to leave for myself when I am 18. What if I can’t make enough money before then to survive on my own? Then there is college. But am I just completely overreacting about all of it? Am I actually a bad person? I really don’t think I am but it does not help with my dad drilling it into me. What should I do?

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Hey there,

Thanks so much for contacting us, it takes a lot of courage to reach out and share your story. It must be really hard to live in a home with so much tension - you are not a bad person.
Running away is a big decision and it can be very stressful to figure out what you want to do.

You mentioned that your dad has previously choked you and grabbed you. Absolutely no one deserves to be abused. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering. It may also be a good idea to explore options for staying with another family member or someone you trust as far as transferring custody.

At the beginning of your post, you sais that you have been depressed for the past 3 years. It can be really hard to live with mental health issues and we want you to know that you aren’t alone in addressing them. If you’d like some additional support, an organization that may be helpful is the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI). You can contact them by calling 1-800-950-NAMI or you can text them by sending NAMI to 741741. Another agency that could be of great help is the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA), they can help you locate low or no cost mental health care providers in your area. Their number is 1-877-726-4727 or you can go to their site at samhsa.gov.

If you’d like to go over what’s going on in depth, or if you’d like to explore other options that you may have available to you, please don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. You can also chat us by clicking on the “CHAT” button on top of our homepage. We’re open 24/7 and here to listen and support you in any way we can.

Stay safe,
NRS

[Guest]

I have a question so I wanted to know if you think I should call someone about it but pretty much my friend has autism and her parents sound like they hate her and verbally abuse her every day. They say things like “your a b****” “I hate you” “your fat” “your lazy and a worthless piece of s***” and so on and every time her soon to be adopted brother does something wrong she gets yelled at for it. And recently her moms cousin died and my friend is really upset and mourning and tried to talk to her parents but they tell her she needs to the f*** up about it because it was her second cousins fault he died and she needs to stop obsessing over it. And her dog died to and when she gets upset about it and tries to talk about it her parents tell her to stop talk out of her a** and when my friend tries to talk to her dad or love him he pushes her away and says so you think you can walk in here right after having an attitude (when she didn’t have an attitude) and act all innocent. Her parents talk crap on her all the time to me especially if front of her they tell me how she’s so spoiled and she is a b**** and I really want to help and call someone because she is always calling me crying and telling me how mean her parents are. Nothing physical has every happened but they are super verbally abusive towards her.

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Hey there,

We are so sorry your friend is going through that with her parents, and she is lucky that you care so much about her that you want to try and help. Sometimes the best support is just to be there. We want to provide some resources your friend might find helpful if she feels ready to talk to someone about how she is being treated by her parents. She can always reach out to us through our chat or our phone line. There is also another organization that provides crisis assistance through text, and they can be reached by texting "NAMI" to 741741.

In regard to the verbal abuse you mentioned... Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what she shares. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if she's ready to do that we are here to help her through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made.

Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

If she is at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage her to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

So if my parents tell me that they dont care about and they starve me can i call cps

[ccsmod15]

Hello,

You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and well-being. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. We are not experts on the issue, but generally once it's been reported, social services will either decide whether or not to take the case and further investigate. If they do take the case, they will send out someone from child protective services to do an investigation (interviewing people in the household) and from there they will decide the level of danger within the household. It generally ranges from no danger (the youth stays in the home, some services are given, and the case is closed), moderate danger (they will provide family services with possible temporary displacement) and high danger (they will remove the youth from the home and offer certain services).

If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

Please be safe and reach out soon by phone or chat so that we may help.
Take care,
NRS

[Guest]

My mom said i am a prisoner i am not allowed anywere, my food is limited when my mom has enough money to feed me as much as she needs and because i am adopted the government is able to provide money aswell and reats my siblings to things i am not allowed to do. If i were to take more i get grounded. I have depression for years i have never been ble to discover why but i just recently discovered it was because of them. They always bring me down and dnt let me see anyone but a theripist because i am such a ¨bad¨ kid. she verbaly abuses me, it is not bad as others but i cant handle living there anymore or i will run away, killmyself, or if it is possible call cps but i dont know if this is enought to call cps for, i dont have anything to have evidence for it but i am sure my ¨mom¨ will agree to it. Can i call cps and be put into a group home or leave?

[ccsmod15]

Hey there thank you for reaching out,
You mentioned experiencing emotional abuse which may be reportable against your adoptive mom. Please keep in mind you by no means deserve any type of abuse, emotional or otherwise. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what you share. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if you’re ready to do that we are here to help you through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

I am a 16 year old girl turning 17 in 7 months. I currently live with my mom and her bf. Me and my mom do not get along. She is a recovered adict. And hasn’t been in charge of me sense I was 2. And last summer I moved in with her. But her and her bf would always fight. They still do. But because of all of the fighting that happend. I ran away for the summer. I had than moved back with my grandparents and had a rough start of the year. I had met some bad people and had a momentary impulsive decision to try and kill myself. I ended up in the hospital for 9 days and moved back to my moms on Christmas Day. Sense then I have been living with my mom again. While living with my mom, I have been put on depression and anxiety meds. But as the months have gone on it hansnt gotten better. I have been isolated and just like really depressed because I have not been allowed to leave my house to hangout with friends very often. About two weekends ago I finally got to see my bestfriend after 7 months. But when I am aloud to leave it’s only with family. Or the 3 times I have ever been allowed to hangout and be with people I get moody and upset answers. And most of the time the answers are for no reason. Like keeping my room clean. (Witch I make Shure is done every other day). Or like school work. I have troubles concentrating and staying focused or understanding things so it’s hard for me to learn sometimes so I get yelled at everyday about school work.and poor grades because I struggle and I have told her that. She is very bipolar and it makes me feel as if I am the one that ********ed up in the head or that something is wrong with me. Like she tells me to make friends but when I try to and ask her to meet them or have them come over to hangout no one is allowed here or I am not allowed to hangout. But when I tell my trusted family that she says I’m lying and that it’s not true. But everyone believes her because she is the parent. Living here has made me lose so much interest in things I used to love like music and singing. And school and just people in general. I dont even like to eat much anymore. And when I’m at home she always be like saying how when I wear no bra under a shirt and I’m developed that it’s not okay. Because her bf is in the house even though u can’t see threw my tee shirts in the slightest. It was really sexist and made me feel bad about myself. At this point idk what to do because it’s toxic here and I stick up for myself and what I believe in and this house and like the way my mom thinks makes me feel like I’m just a prisoner here.

[ccsmod15]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time with your mom. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by email or bulletin for assistance. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.
Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe,
NRS

[Guest]

It doesn’t seem to be that bad for me but i feel as though it’s getting worse. my mom constantly yells at me and tells me this like “you don’t use your brain” or “i don’t need anymore” she’s also an alcoholic and that really messes with my anxiety and SH issues. She never asks how I am and been my family tried to help her with her alcoholism, but she never did it. She also slams my door and makes me feel like the victim. i’m sure this isn’t a bad case at all but it really effects me and I really don’t want to live with her anymore.

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Hi there,

Thank you for reaching out to us, it sounds like things have been pretty tough at home you’re your mom. You mentioned experiencing emotional abuse which may be reportable against your mom. Please keep in mind you by no means deserve any type of abuse, emotional or otherwise. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what you share. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if you’re ready to do that we are here to help you through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made.
Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.

Be safe and stay strong,
NRS

[Guest]

So I chose to live with my father when me and my siblings weren't in the best house and cps got involved so I chose ny father I love him. he always got me stuff and I was so happy. then he started yelling at me everyday for stuff I didn't do or did that didn't fit his expectations. I was scared everyday he came home because he used to hit ny mom a long time ago and I was scared. he snapped and he hit me I couldn't believe it he said he never would I just wanted to dissappear. I got really depressed about everything my mom mostly I loved her so much when she left us I told him how I was feeling and he said "well I can't have you being like this its messing with your grades your going to have to do better" now hes keeping me away from my cousin and siblings I can't do it anymore I feel horrible everyday he keeps pushing me where I was self harming at one point he drinks everyday smokes to and was snorting pain killers. His girlfriend was trying to commit suicide in the house because he wanted to break up. Help me what should I do I can't live here anymore its hurting me so much I can't live like this. He's even gotten so drunk he said he was gonna get my aunt to pick me up and take me to New Mexico to live with her. Just help me I don't want to live like this.

[ccsmod15]

Hello,

You mentioned some things that raise concern for your safety and well-being. If any harm or abuse is happening at home, you have the right to report it. We are not experts on the issue, but generally once it's been reported, social services will either decide whether or not to take the case and further investigate. If they do take the case, they will send out someone from child protective services to do an investigation (interviewing people in the household) and from there they will decide the level of danger within the household. It generally ranges from no danger (the youth stays in the home, some services are given, and the case is closed), moderate danger (they will provide family services with possible temporary displacement) and high danger (they will remove the youth from the home and offer certain services).

If you feel like this is an option you want to explore, you may find this website helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. Their number is 800-422-4453. We can also help you to file a report if that’s the route you are considering.

Please be safe and reach out soon by phone or chat so that we may help since we can only respond to forums twice. Our number is 800-RUNAWAY or you can chat with us at www.1800RUNAWAY.org.
Take care,
NRS

[Guest]

So my mom does a lot of nice things for me and sometimes i feel like it's only to keep from trying to keep me at home. I live alone with her and my dad isn't able to be home. They fight over the phone often and my dad calls me to make it a burden on myself like I did something to make them fight. My mom is very strict and wont let me do anything out of the house then proceeds to yell at me for never going outside and doing things. When i was younger she laid hands on me but only stopped when a teacher made a report abut it then she told me to never talk about what happens at home because then someone would take me away from her. I feel like she is adding to my depression. recently I got into a fight with her about how she is toxic. She yelled at me at the top of her lungs and stopped my visits to my counselor. I have had many thoughts of suicide, self harm, and I have tried to commit which my mom got angry at me. I'm not old enough to get a job and i don't know if i can stay at a friends house or if my mom will call the cops on me. I'm also not sure if i can call anyone about this.

[ccsmod15]

We’re glad you reached out to us. It seems like you’ve been through a lot and are feeling unsure and unsafe. It sounds like what’s been going on at home with your mom has been really difficult to get through, and we know you don’t deserve that type of treatment from her. We’re not able to give you direct advice or tell you what to do, however we can point you toward some resources that can help you advocate for yourself, such as the organization ChildHelp. They’re experts on figuring out abuse situations, and can help you out if you decide to make any calls. Here is a link to their text, chat, and phone call lines: https://childhelphotline.org/.

We hear you saying that the problems with your mom are driving you to suicidal feelings and actions, and we are so sorry this is happening to you. If your mental health is being impacted by your mom’s actions, you absolutely deserve the treatment and care you need, and it’s not okay that she stopped you from seeing your counselor. We have a couple of resources for self harm and suicide prevention that also have a chat service, so you can talk to someone who understands how you’re feeling in the moment:

https://www.twloha.com

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

You are not alone.

We’d be happy to discuss more options to help ensure your safety if you’d like. Please feel free to reach out to us at 1(800) RUNAWAY, or you can chat with one of our crisis counselors online at 1800runaway.org. Take care, and we hope to hear from you soon!

Sincerely,

NRS

[Guest]

so my real mom, and dad are always calling me names. my mom called me 'special ed' 'ugly ass' and what not. and my dad says ******** like 'lazy ass' 'trifling' and being toxic, constantly comparing me to my sibling, constantly pressuring me about a job when i'm only 14. putting even more stress on me, they make me feel bad about myself as if i don't already hate myself and wanna commit suicide, ive already tried many times anyways, ive already been self harming since 11, and its getting worse because of them. its like im the hated child in the house hold, always being yelled at, humiliated, denigrated, labeling, insulting, and unnecessary scolding. they honestly make me hate my life more, and i just wanna get out of here and get moved to another state.

[ccsmod2]

Hi,

Thank you for contacting the National Runaway Safeline, it takes a lot of courage to reach out and share your story. It must be really stressful to live at home in that situation.

You mentioned that your parents have been verbally abusing you. No one deserves to be treated that way. If you feel unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You have every right to report any abuse that is happening in your home. If you feel like that’s an option you want to explore this website might be helpful: https://www.childhelp.org/child-abuse/. You can also give us a call and we can help you file a report if that’s the route you are considering. It might also be a good idea to explore options like staying with another family member or someone you trust.

At the end of your post, you mentioned that you have been self-harming and that you are feeling suicidal. It can be really hard to live with mental health struggles and we want you to know you are not alone in addressing them. If you’d like additional support, an organization that might be helpful is the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI). You can contact them by calling 1-800-950- NAMI or text them by sending NAMI to 741741. Another agency that could be of great help is the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. You can contact them by calling 1-800-273-TALK or go on their website suicidepreventionlifeline.org to use their chat feature.

If you’d like to go over what’s going on in depth or explore more options that might be available to you, don’t hesitate to call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. You can also chat us by clicking the “CHAT” button at the top of our homepage. We are open 24/7 and here to listen and support you in any way we can.

Stay safe,

NRS

[Guest]

im pretty sure what im going through is verbal abuse i get called **********es, whores etc i love my mom to death but im fed up i called cps before all they did was take me to my gmoms house for three months but then closed the case because they had no proof even tho i have cameras all over my house but they told me they would come to my house often to check up on me its been about 7 months since ive been back home and they didnt come yet i also deal with physical abuse the other day my mom broke a wooden broom over my head and pulled my hair hard that i got a balled spot this isnt her first time pulling my hair out and once she beats me up for no reason at all she takes my phone but tonight i plan on calling the cps and having them come back to my house because im fed up
im 13, a girl, and only in 8th grade this has been going on for about 4 years but it really got bad 2 years ago

[Guest]

So I've been depressed ever since my middle school year started. I feel more and more suicidal every day and I don't know what to do anymore. My parents hate me, I get yelled at for the most stupidest reasons and I hate being home. I don't feel safe being home. I'm suicidal when I'm home because all they do is treat me like trash. They haven't been physically abusive in a while but definitely verbally. Im so close to committing suicide. So close. I don't want to be here anymore, please help me.

[ccsmod15]

Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
You also mentioned experiencing emotional abuse which may be reportable against your preants. Please keep in mind you by no means deserve any type of abuse, emotional or otherwise. Unfortunately, emotional abuse is often harder to provide evidence for compared to physical abuse which is often what CPS relies on when conducting an abuse investigation. That said, we can’t be 100% sure what the outcome will be if your local CPS decides to open a case based on what you share. Sometimes CPS decides to remove minors from the home and other times they offer services such as family counseling or mediation instead. The only way to know the outcome might be to reach out to them directly and if you’re ready to do that we are here to help you through that process. Reaching out to Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453 or www.childhelp.org may help to get a better understanding of what may happen before and after a report is made.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe and stay strong,
NRS

[Guest]

Your dad seems bad he should not do that to you

[ccsmod15]

Thank you for your response to another user’s post. Often forums are a place of support and understanding for many youth. It often may be validating and helpful for users to read similar situations as well as exchange feedback to one another. For anyone experiencing any difficulties or challenges, the National Runaway Safeline encourages youth to reach out to our 24/7 crisis support line either by phone or chat for immediate services.
Thank you, NRS

[Guest]

im still not quite too sure if im being abused or not or emotionally neglected in any shape way or form. it all started when i was a little girl around my toddler age with my biological dad. He was an alcoholic. He'd come home from work really drunk. He would throw my moms pills down the toilets Would chase me and my mom around the house with wood. Has tried to literally kill me before. I was introduced with the police at a very young age which i don't prefer to be a good thing.

After my Biological Father Moved out:

- things started to calm down staying in the chill zone. We were a nice, happy family because thats when my brother came into the picture and she didn't want my brother to go through what me and her went through. Then my mom met this guy named we are going to call him Dave. (NOT HIS REAL NAME) - Dave and my mom got along REALLY well. At first, he was this or he sounded / made it out to be a really kind, sweet person that really is a raging bi**h behind the scenes. It took him about a year before it all started. One day, i had a soccer game and i was at my friends house. i asked my mom if it was ok for me to go and she said that it was fine so i went, obviously. 3 hours later my stepdad is in the drveway, getting out of the car knocking on the door and being what i thought he was a genuine nice human being. We left the house ( i was 7 years old at the time ) he immediately started yelling at me saying we are going to be late etc, and it for whatever reason idk how but it got to the point where he literally slapped me on the leg and left a mark. I didn't tell my mom about it till we got to the game. She tends to remember what she wants to remember so the whole time it was her yelling at me in the car saying that i never asked to go to my friends house when i literally did and i finally was like "yes u said i could go, but u dont even care because if u cared you would know that your just so perfect boyfriend hit me and left a mark on my leg" she didnt really seem like she cared or anything but said she would talk to him about it and so i said ok whatever sure. you can call it a grudge but it only escalated from there far much more worse. He would yell at me for literally the stupidest reasons. We were learning clocks in math class at school and i didnt understand it whatsoever. I was literally sleep deprived the whole day the next day bcs my parents didn't let me go to sleep until i got it correct and even then the were telling e it was wrong when in reality he VERY FIRST TIME i gave them my hw. none of my answers were wrong to begin with , i only found that out bcs my teacher and i went through it together. I went home and told my parents and they didn't even seem to care.

Most recently my stepdad had just cheated on my mom with this other girl and has moved out but still gives his daily yell at Kailyn sessions every now and then for literally no reason. It started to rub off onto my mom, and hen rub off onto my brother but ofc its my fault my brother acts the way he does. im the "role-model" when ive been nothing but nice to my brother even after he continued to snitch on me, get me in trouble, etc. im not even allowed to have a phone. i used to, but not anymore because the last time i did i tried getting help. so i just sneak one anyways and then i get caught but whatever. My mom yells at me abt my grades when most of it is also her fault. she takes my chromebook away right when i get home and yk is like always digital now so i cant really do anything about it. im so stressed at school trying to catch up as much as i can on a daily basis and my home life just is like pounds on top of pounds on top of pounds of more stress coming my way. is like non-stop. it never stops. its never ending and it just continues. my mom pulls my hair. she slaps me. she threatens me. she says stuff like "youre a whore" "you're a **********" "at least i have a family who cares about me" "I hate you" "I wish you were never born" "if i had a time machine i'd go back and change my mind about having kids" etc. I've told cps numerous amounts of times but its like they don't care because its always unfounded, same with police its always a closed case. ive told almost literally everyone i know and nobody but my best friend understands me, and cares enough to help which i dont know how much thats helping. There isn't a day where my mom isn't yelling at me on a daily basis. It's gotten to the point where i want to start doing drugs, i want to literally commit suicide but my mom doesn't care because they are all just "excuses" right? nothing but "excuses" She always tells me that i dont have it that bad and other kids have it worse. which is probably true but gives her no right to treat me the way she does. im just super scared and not too sure what to do anymore. ive completely lost hope.