I wanna run away

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I am 14 years old and am adopted. One of my parents really dislikes me and tells me she can't be around me. She told me that she hates being around me and that she thinks of me as an unpleasant person to be around. Idk what to say though because when I try to talk to her, she ignores me and leaves, or gets extremely violent and destroys my stuff.

I can't talk to it with anyone because they could potentially report it to cps, and my other mom threatens that she will send me away to a boarding school if someone gets notified.

My cousin who comes over every weekend is not at all helpful because he just hits me upside the head and says, and I quote "do better". When ever he is around, I can't talk back, I can't make a point, I can't even stand up for myself.

My mom is currently being crazy, slamming doors, yelling at me and calling me an asshole, and saying she's gonna kill herself she thinks i stole some of her weed. I was actually gonna run away last night, but my other mom caught me and dragged me back to bed.

I really wanna run away, but I'm scared of what they will do tome if they find me. I wanna first know, can they hurt me once they find me? And also, how do I find a good run away location when I don't have any friends? Plz let me know

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RE: I wanna run away

Hi,

Thank you for reaching out to the National Runaway Safeline. For more immediate assistance, please do not hesitate to call us at 1 (800) RUNAWAY. One of our liners will be happy to speak to you! We’re available 24/7 and every day of the year.
It sounds like you’re going through a lot. No one deserves to deal with violence and disrespect. You mentioned that you did not want CPS to be notified. However, if you’re dealing with violence, do not feel safe at home, and you have physical marks this is an option. This is entirely up to you, if you are interested you could give us a call and we will support you through this process.
If you feel that home is unsafe and that you need to run away, we can put you in contact with shelter resources, but for that to happen you have to give us a call. Also be aware that shelters often would most likely require notification of your parents, legal guardians, or CPS. If you run away and your mom knows where you are, she will likely be within her rights to make you go back home. Though that may be the case, she does not have the right to hurt you physically. You have the option of reaching out to the police about her threats of suicide and her violent actions. We hope that this helps and that you’re able to figure out a safe solution to your situation.
We hope that you’ll give us a call. We are always here to help!

Thank you,

The National Runaway Safeline

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i can't live with my mom anymore

hi , i'm 14 and i was adopted when i was 3 days old by my mother & father . lately , i've been having anxiety so i've had to been homeschooled for the first semester of my 9th grade year. it's been the worst with my mom and i don't know what to do. she constantly yells at me for things i don't do. she doesn't trust me anymore for no reason . she doesnt physically hurt me but the way she speaks to me makes me want to actually die . i don't know what to do. i've told her i wanna be put up for adoption because i can't stand living with her anymore . i've told her that she's the cause of my tears , i even started cutting because of her & i was stupid and didn't know what to do. ive told her i want to die , but she doesn't care, she thinks it's a joke when it's not. i know i can't go to the police because there's no violence or physical harm happening . one day she threw a whole stack of about 150-200 papers at me but other than that, it's just her words. i hear her constantly talk about me behind my back to my dad. she picks arguments. she argues for no reason all the time . i've always been grateful to have a mother but not this one . whenever she's stressed or frustrated she takes it out on me & my dad . my dad currently is going through a horrible time right now so i don't want to upset him by leaving . i've tried running away but she threatens to take my phone or whatever so i come back because my phone is my safe zone. my phone is where my friends are which they make me feel better when i'm upset or angry . but the way she talks to me , is no way a mother needs to talk to any child . i need & want help fast😭.

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Re: i can't live with my mom anymore

Hi there,

We are glad you reached out, it sounds like you are going through a really difficult time with your mom. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help, and we are here to support you. Physical or emotional, no one deserves to be abused, and you don’t deserve to be treated that way by your mom. One option you do have is you can file a child abuse report, and we understand that can be a hard decision to make and if you would like to talk with someone to get more information and support about child abuse reporting you can call Child Help USA at 1-800-422-4453. If you ever feel unsafe at home, you can always call the police at 911 for help. It sounds like your dad knows about what is going on with your mom, is there any other adult that you can trust in telling to get help? You mention your friends are really supportive, would you feel comfortable telling their parents, or an aunt/uncle or grandparent?

You mentioned in your post that you have been considering killing yourself, and we understand going through this situation alone can be difficult. Trained professionals are available to support you 24/7 at the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, and help in discussing options to keep safe while you are going through this. They can also chat online 24/7 at:

http://chat.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/GetHelp/LifelineChat.aspx

It takes a lot of strength to have reached out to us, and we are glad you did. It sounds like you have considered running away, and we support you in whatever decision you make, and we are here to make sure your plan is safe. If you do leave home and feel like you are in trouble or need help you can reach out to National Safe Place. You can text the word SAFE and your current location (address, city, state) to 69866 for immediate help. Within seconds, you will receive a message with the the closest Safe Place location and contact number for the local youth shelter. You will also have the option to text interactively with a mental health professional for more help. It’s quick, easy, safe and confidential. We are available to talk with you more in depth about your options and how we can help at 1-800-RUNAWAY. We are 24/7 and you can remain confidential.

Best,
~NRS