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Hey, my name is...well let's just say my name is Natalie. I'm 16 and I live in California, Hayward. And I don't know if I can live here anymore.
At school, I tend to hang out by myself a lot. Not that I want to be by myself but I just am. Everyone seems to exclude me from everything.
Like whenever there's group work and projects, everyone just teams up with each other then leave me off to just do the work solo, which is VERY overwhelming. Just today I had two big projects from two different classes assigned to me. And I don't even know how to start one of them. One of the projects is a group work project, so like always the teacher lets everyone pick their partners. And like always I'm left on my own. The teacher says that there will be no alternative assignment or lesser amount of work for those who work alone. After he said that I heard someone say "Like Natalie" in the back, then a couple of people snickered. I was angry but I didn't really do anything towards the negative comment. I don't really know if these things are
considered bullying but to me in my mind it definitely is. I feel sad all the time and when I get home I tell my mom about it but she doesn't really make things better. She just says things like "Just talk to God about it" but I think that maybe talking to God isn't really working and I'm just REALLY tired of everything she just doesn't seem to listen nor care about how TERRIBLE I'm feeling. I even tell her that I hate the school I'm at and that I want to change schools. But she's not really certain about it. She wants to wait a little while more to see if things will get better though I know that for ME it won't. So I'm looking for somewhere to go, somewhere far away. Cause I can't take this anymore. I even tell my mom that I would like to "send myself away" or "go away somewhere far" and she told me "then go send yourself away" which really shocked me. But it kinda made me want to really do it since I have her approval.
At school, I tend to hang out by myself a lot. Not that I want to be by myself but I just am. Everyone seems to exclude me from everything.
Like whenever there's group work and projects, everyone just teams up with each other then leave me off to just do the work solo, which is VERY overwhelming. Just today I had two big projects from two different classes assigned to me. And I don't even know how to start one of them. One of the projects is a group work project, so like always the teacher lets everyone pick their partners. And like always I'm left on my own. The teacher says that there will be no alternative assignment or lesser amount of work for those who work alone. After he said that I heard someone say "Like Natalie" in the back, then a couple of people snickered. I was angry but I didn't really do anything towards the negative comment. I don't really know if these things are
considered bullying but to me in my mind it definitely is. I feel sad all the time and when I get home I tell my mom about it but she doesn't really make things better. She just says things like "Just talk to God about it" but I think that maybe talking to God isn't really working and I'm just REALLY tired of everything she just doesn't seem to listen nor care about how TERRIBLE I'm feeling. I even tell her that I hate the school I'm at and that I want to change schools. But she's not really certain about it. She wants to wait a little while more to see if things will get better though I know that for ME it won't. So I'm looking for somewhere to go, somewhere far away. Cause I can't take this anymore. I even tell my mom that I would like to "send myself away" or "go away somewhere far" and she told me "then go send yourself away" which really shocked me. But it kinda made me want to really do it since I have her approval.
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