I’m 17 years old, 18 next January, and have been on the receiving end of incessant abuse from both of my parents for almost 9 years.
i understand that the term ‘abuse’ is not one to be used lightly, and that many people dream of running away after a small argument with their parents or something, but my parents have been the root cause of my depression and heavily influence the instability of another mental illness I bear called borderline personality disorder.
I am the black sheep of my family, and despite my academic awards or the sacrifices I make for them or literally anything, there is no satisfying my parents. They adore my younger brother, revel him as the prize child of the family. And not to sound melodramatic, but I quite honestly am the failure, I’ll give them that. Mild drug use and a sexual past has painted me out to be a villain in their eyes, whereas my brother is so pure.
My school year ends in about two weeks. So desperately I want to leave. Given all of the arguments we have, it would be so easy to find a reason to escape. Maybe we could get into an argument end then I could raise my voice or something or start popping off. Usually i’m extremely calm but I think if I were to lash out, it would warrant a reaction from my parents to kick me out of the house. I already have a place to crash for the summer so I could do that. I don’t know, I just need advice.
i understand that the term ‘abuse’ is not one to be used lightly, and that many people dream of running away after a small argument with their parents or something, but my parents have been the root cause of my depression and heavily influence the instability of another mental illness I bear called borderline personality disorder.
I am the black sheep of my family, and despite my academic awards or the sacrifices I make for them or literally anything, there is no satisfying my parents. They adore my younger brother, revel him as the prize child of the family. And not to sound melodramatic, but I quite honestly am the failure, I’ll give them that. Mild drug use and a sexual past has painted me out to be a villain in their eyes, whereas my brother is so pure.
My school year ends in about two weeks. So desperately I want to leave. Given all of the arguments we have, it would be so easy to find a reason to escape. Maybe we could get into an argument end then I could raise my voice or something or start popping off. Usually i’m extremely calm but I think if I were to lash out, it would warrant a reaction from my parents to kick me out of the house. I already have a place to crash for the summer so I could do that. I don’t know, I just need advice.
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