what should I do?

[Guest]

I’m 17 years old.

I live with my verbally abusive (used to be physical) Mom and it has messed me up very badly. I have tried to attempt suicide in the past because of this. When I woke up in the hospital, all I remember was how she was speaking about me going to hell and that I should be more religious etc

She is also the reason why I’m not going to graduate. She nitpicks everything I do. She’s controlling. I cant even choose what to wear. She will insult me at any given and make me feel completely worthless. Today, t sister skipped breakfast because of how she made her feel. I feel myself getting worse and worse by the day, I just don’t know what to do anymore. I think about calling CPS but I’m afraid. I don’t have any evidence. What if they think I’m lying? Will I have to see her again? The anxiety is too much. I don’t think i could see her face to face. Even typing this out has my fingers trembling. How does this process work?

[ccsmod7]

Hi there, thanks for reaching out today.

Sounds like you have been through so much living at home with their mom enduring abuse that has lead you to attempt suicide in the past. We are so glad that you are still here with us, you so deserve to be treated with respect and to live in an environment where you can thrive.

Your life is so incredibly important and valuable, and here at NRS we want you to know that it is always to early to give up, and there is so much hope for you. If you ever do feel like you are in immediate danger of another attempt please do not hesitate to call 9-1-1 to be taken to the hospital. You can always also reach out to us at 1-800-RUNAWAY; www.1800runaway.org or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255.

You mentioned being scared to report due to lack of evidence and your fear of not being believed. That is really understandable, you know your situation best and only you should be making the decision with whether or not to report. If you would like to talk through your options or if you would like assistance calling out to your local abuse hotline please call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY. If you would like to talk to an expert child advocate about how reporting would work confidentially you might reach out to Child Help 1-800-422-4453.

If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

We hope to hear from you soon.

Be safe,

NRS