Abusive family

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I’m 15 years old I’ll be 16 in a few months and I’m afraid of my mom she has threatened to kill me multiple times and my father does nothing but stand and watch. She’s even threatened me in front of other people. My brother also tried to kill me about 2 years ago but got away with it. My parents have always been harder on me than my older brothers. I’ve looked into getting emancipated once I turn 16 but I’d need a legal guardian to help me and no one believes me. I have not been formally diagnosed with depression but I feel depressed all the time because my parents try to turn me into a picture perfect poster teen for other people. I’m also afraid to come out as bisexual to them because of their extreme homophobia. The reason they try to make me the picture perfect poster teen is for the church they have been forcing me to go to. My parents even took me out of public school because I tried to get help for the psychological abuse that the school started to notice after I was sexually assaulted in fifth grade. I don’t trust people at the church they force me to go to either because the boy who sexually assaulted me was the children’s pastors son from a church we used to go to. I have been suicidal in the past and have hurt myself in the past.

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. It sounds like you’re fearing that the situation may end in suicide if things don’t change. Your safety and well-being is important. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255); www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org is also a great resource to reach out to in addition to our crisis services.
Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon. Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
We hope to hear from you soon.
Be safe and stay strong,
NRS