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I have always had issues with my family, I am a 16 year old girl. Honestly i'm just stuck and I don't know what the right decision to make is. First of all, my mother and father have been divorced since I was 4. My father had a stroke last year in January due to diabetes which has left him in stable yet unstable health. He will definitely die much sooner because he has not taken care of himself. He is also currently homeless and living with his brother whom he hates. I live with my mother, stepfather (since I was about 6)and two younger brothers. None of the children in the family have the same two parents (five children in total but I will get to that). There is my older stepsister (1
, a 14 year old previous stepbrother, a 11 year old half brother, and a 10 year old half brother who is also a son to my stepfather. I am sick of the way I am treated here but I have nowhere else to go, I've made attempts to fit in and be a good child but it always ends in myself being abused in some way and giving up. about 7 months ago the 14 year old stepbrother molested me, so I told my stepfather and left friday for the weekend to my best friends house. When getting picked up sunday evening by my mother she began to yell at me, I could tell my stepfather had primed her to be mad at me as he often does. I told her to pull over and I told her what happened because she had not been told. My disgusting stepfather allowed the molester to remain in the house with my little brothers and sleep in the same room as them for two nights. Who says that sick minded freak wouldn't molest my little brothers as well? I had a history of depression and anxiety so I had already been seeing a therapist. My father at that point lived with us (he had nowhere else to go so I had to beg them to let him rent a room). Anyways, my stepfather told me straight to my face that I was a liar and that I made the entire thing up. I have no history of lying ever. I am the most honest and blunt person I have ever met in my entire life. I understand it is often hard for parents to beleive that their child could do something like sexual assault in most cases, but in this case he has raised me and been around me much more often than his son who would only come one or two weekends a month. A court case was carried out after I informed my therapist of what happened and the stepbrother was charged guilty (with little punishment due to the system of juvenile court). Anyways, to continue my mother has allowed this horrible man to remain in our house and began to treat me horribly as well. Whenever they argue she comes to me as if there's a "team me" and a "team stepdad" that she hops between. They constantly verbally abuse me and alienate me from the rest of the children in the family. I can handle the verbal abuse to an extent but when it gets to the point when I am questioning whether or not I wish to live anymore I feel there is a problem. I want to go to nursing school and be a nurse when I grow up. I cannot currently get a job because I do not have a car and we do not live close to any establishments that It would be reasonable for me to walk to as a job. I do virtual schooling because I was bullied at school thanks to my stepdad. My mother kicked him out at one point and he drove over to my best friend since I was young's house and lied and did everything in his power to convince my best friend that I made the entire thing up. I instantly lost all my friends and began getting brutally bullied. I put up with the bullying for months and months (yes I told the school but this kid's mom is in the PTA so her word was taken over mine). Finally my mother allowed me to switch to virtual schooling after 2 years of begging (I have always wanted to leave traditional education). Now I am yet again trapped. My mother keeps cancelling my therapy sessions because she doesn't want me to tell my therapist how I have been treated lately. I can't leave, I have nowhere to go. The only option I can fathom working out is moving to a faraway state to live with my aunt who hates my mother's guts. But I fear that will not be good for my future. Will I be able to get into nursing school there? Will she take care of me or will I be a burden? I'm just trapped and done and I don't know what to do with myself anymore, can somebody please list a few options that I may have?
, a 14 year old previous stepbrother, a 11 year old half brother, and a 10 year old half brother who is also a son to my stepfather. I am sick of the way I am treated here but I have nowhere else to go, I've made attempts to fit in and be a good child but it always ends in myself being abused in some way and giving up. about 7 months ago the 14 year old stepbrother molested me, so I told my stepfather and left friday for the weekend to my best friends house. When getting picked up sunday evening by my mother she began to yell at me, I could tell my stepfather had primed her to be mad at me as he often does. I told her to pull over and I told her what happened because she had not been told. My disgusting stepfather allowed the molester to remain in the house with my little brothers and sleep in the same room as them for two nights. Who says that sick minded freak wouldn't molest my little brothers as well? I had a history of depression and anxiety so I had already been seeing a therapist. My father at that point lived with us (he had nowhere else to go so I had to beg them to let him rent a room). Anyways, my stepfather told me straight to my face that I was a liar and that I made the entire thing up. I have no history of lying ever. I am the most honest and blunt person I have ever met in my entire life. I understand it is often hard for parents to beleive that their child could do something like sexual assault in most cases, but in this case he has raised me and been around me much more often than his son who would only come one or two weekends a month. A court case was carried out after I informed my therapist of what happened and the stepbrother was charged guilty (with little punishment due to the system of juvenile court). Anyways, to continue my mother has allowed this horrible man to remain in our house and began to treat me horribly as well. Whenever they argue she comes to me as if there's a "team me" and a "team stepdad" that she hops between. They constantly verbally abuse me and alienate me from the rest of the children in the family. I can handle the verbal abuse to an extent but when it gets to the point when I am questioning whether or not I wish to live anymore I feel there is a problem. I want to go to nursing school and be a nurse when I grow up. I cannot currently get a job because I do not have a car and we do not live close to any establishments that It would be reasonable for me to walk to as a job. I do virtual schooling because I was bullied at school thanks to my stepdad. My mother kicked him out at one point and he drove over to my best friend since I was young's house and lied and did everything in his power to convince my best friend that I made the entire thing up. I instantly lost all my friends and began getting brutally bullied. I put up with the bullying for months and months (yes I told the school but this kid's mom is in the PTA so her word was taken over mine). Finally my mother allowed me to switch to virtual schooling after 2 years of begging (I have always wanted to leave traditional education). Now I am yet again trapped. My mother keeps cancelling my therapy sessions because she doesn't want me to tell my therapist how I have been treated lately. I can't leave, I have nowhere to go. The only option I can fathom working out is moving to a faraway state to live with my aunt who hates my mother's guts. But I fear that will not be good for my future. Will I be able to get into nursing school there? Will she take care of me or will I be a burden? I'm just trapped and done and I don't know what to do with myself anymore, can somebody please list a few options that I may have?
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