I don't know what to do with m life anymore...

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I'm 14 years old and I currently live with my mother. I love her at times, but sometimes I just want to die because of her. My mom treats me like trash; maybe it's because I'm the middle child and we have a new baby brother who is three months. My mom constantly brings me down. There is never a day where she treats me with kindness. She's always bugging me about my 'bad' grades (a 79.8..a C) but she never congratulates me on my success on a quiz or even an overall 100 on my final grade. Sometimes I feel alone in my house, she makes me feel like I am not wanted by always saying 'oh you're such a miserable person and you have a bad attitude' when that's the complete opposite of what I try to do. When she gets mad she constantly says '...and that's why you're going to live with your father' to make me feel even worse. Once I asked her something and she got angry and shouted at me and I said under my breath 'I was just asking' she then applied that I was 'talking back' or 'back talking' when I was just continuing the conversation! That's what I dont get...when I continue the conversation, even in a nice way she gets angry. Also she treats her husband way better than her own children. She makes breakfast for him and leaves us to make our own. I mean, Im 14 and I know I should be learning to cook by now, but whenever I do, it never turns our correct. That is another thing she gets angry about..The fact that I can't cook. She's mad about something I have no control over. Please don't say 'Oh you're a spoiled brat' and all that because my mom never treated me right. This has been happening as long as I can remember, and I was ALWAYS a quiet person. I never talked to anyone, not even at home. And now I feel like I have anxiety but she doesnt care. I was depressed for a very long time once and she didn't care, I was isolated in my room 24/7 and she NEVER asked if I was okay. I really want to leave but at the same time, I don't because I haven't seen my father in years and I don't even know him, but I really want to get away from my mother. What do I do? I want to tell a teacher, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of my own mother. :/

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RE: I don't know what to do with m life anymore...

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