I'd feel great to have some help

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Hi I just turned 16 years old in august and I cannot stand my parents anymore. To start off, they treat me as if I was steal a very little child. My mom barely let's me go anywhere with friends or do anything. She doesn't let me walk to some stores that are about 3 blocks from my house by myself. She doesn't let me sleepover friends house. I don't party or drink or smoke. My father will yell unreasonably and overreact to small problems. one instance my father screamed and woke us all up because he didn't look hard enough for a spray bottle. I don't think fathers should scream that bad and swear and threat. My dad's always been this way but I'm just getting sick of it, and my mom. I don't get really good grades in school and that's one reason why they are how they are, but it's just hard. & my parents think I'm getting worse only because they're getting worse. I hate coming home. But i have no friends to turn to. My mom forced me to bring over potential friends and my mom has to approve of them or not. my only problem is that she asks very personal questions and scares them off plus she never approves of them anyway so it's kind of a moot point. If you wonder there type of people i bring over, they are good people who have been hurt in their lives. I bring home mature people with life experience. I like older company. It makes me happy. It's winter and I guess they don't want me being in my room doing nothing. although that is what makes me comfortable. I am going through depression because I'm so unhappy at home. I want a boyfriend, i've talked with the same boy for years, we are very intimate and sexual. I love him and if i could hang out more and talk constantly, maybe the sparks would fly. But my parents are too controlling to allow me too for a close bond with anyone. In fact i believe my parents have chased him off. I just don't know what to do anymore. My mom and dad have threatened to divorce 4 times. There last time started ended in a physical altercation and the police. i have medical issues gallore and my parents never would like to follow up on them. I was diagnosed with a tumor on my ovary from unknown natural causes, depression, and severely unbalanced hormones. I am testosterone heavy and don't have regular periods, and was prescribed birth control. HOWEVER, my mom never wants to follow up and stop my problems and instead keeps making me take quack doctor medicine. I just want to leave the house. I was originally in therapy but when i had said something that prompted a call to cps, i never saw my therapist again. And then my sister. my little sister is undoubtedly the little satan spawn. She acts all goody goody and ridiculously childish around my parents and gets all the privileges she could ever ask her. As soon as my parents turn the corner she shows her true little demonic character. She pisses me off on purpose. She steals anything and everything that belongs to me. Money, nail polish, clothes, socks, my thongs, very important belongings ect. If i come to my parents they won't do anything. If i try to take matters into my own hands the situation escalates and i always get the blunt of the blow like a double edged sword. i always get harsher punishment for the same offense, or even a lighter offense. She loves to get in my head on purpose and drive me insane. She knows full well she does that mess too. and my final grievance, church. i recently came out to my mom as an atheist. Her first impulse is to forcibly take me to church every Saturday against my will but gives my older, also atheist, sister a choice. I told her I'm sick of it and she can only blame herself if i act out. She won't be able to convert me because i've made up my mind. I just want her little crazy christian fiasco to stop. Finally, My parents underestimate me and what i know. I make it a point to provide correct information and the always say to me "Children should be seen not heard" and that pisses me off because if i decide to have an insightful, knowledge filled conversation about current events, i should be able to. I don't have enough confidence to stand up for myself, which is something that has also been bred into me. It's not right for a 16 year old to not want to come home because of all the mental abuse at home. I don't know what to do. My mother has taken my phone so i have no way to call anyone. I truly want a real person to help me with my problems. Not an annoying computer generated paragraph that i often get. :/

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re: I'd feel great to have some help

Hello,

It sounds like you are having a tough time with your parents not understanding what you need mentally and physically. That sounds like it has been really frustrating for you. From what you shared, you want fulfilling relationships and friendships in your life. You seem to also want to be taking care of your health and mental well being, and your parents just aren't doing that for you right now. From what you shared you really want someone who will be able to help you with these things. In hindsight, you have tried a number of things to help the situation already. Including a therapist. That's pretty resourceful of you to think of those things. We encourage you to give us a call or reach out via chat if you can, for further assistance. Our chat services are available at www.1800runaway.org every day from 4:30p to 11:30p CST. If you are needing someone to vent to, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is another chat service you can use if we are not available. Their website is www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org.

Take care,
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