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I'm 17 years old and a junior in a New Jersey school. I moved here almost two years ago and hate it. The students are rude to me, pick any grade there and yeah they're 9 times out of 10 some of the students that are currently bullying me. My mother, who I live with, is verbally abusive and her husband has a temper of a mad man. He, on numerous occasions, has gotten completely out of control. He has even hit his youngest out of five children (which he had with three wives.)
Now, I would normally escape to my bedroom, but I don't have one. I sleep on a pull out couch in the living room. All my personal belongings are either in my mother's bedroom, or they were thrown out because my stepfather believed it was in his way. I'm not allowed to go anywhere outside because my mother insists I'm too dangerous, when in reality I'm the most timid out of her whole family.
I've asked my father if I could go home, back to living with him and his wife but he says that I should just talk to my mother. I can't do that, her moods change so quickly that I have no idea who's going to come home every day.
I want a way out, but I'm not suicidal so the only appealing option to me right now is running away. I don't know where else to go, or who to run to, since my father lives many states away. What should I do? Who should I talk to? I need help, but no one here is listening. All I get is "Oh that's sad." Or "I can't do anything about that." Or even about the kids in school "They're just playing around, stop being so sensitive."
I've skipped three days of school, and had five excused absences. The school has been adding days to my absences like crazy, it's at a number ridiculously high for me and I can't put together how I possibly missed that many days. I know exactly why I was absent for the exact days. My depression is worsening, I can't find reasons to do the things I love anymore. I want to sometimes, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
What am I supposed to do? My mother can't afford a therapist. I haven't even met someone in my school that knows who the guidance counselor is. Please help me.
Now, I would normally escape to my bedroom, but I don't have one. I sleep on a pull out couch in the living room. All my personal belongings are either in my mother's bedroom, or they were thrown out because my stepfather believed it was in his way. I'm not allowed to go anywhere outside because my mother insists I'm too dangerous, when in reality I'm the most timid out of her whole family.
I've asked my father if I could go home, back to living with him and his wife but he says that I should just talk to my mother. I can't do that, her moods change so quickly that I have no idea who's going to come home every day.
I want a way out, but I'm not suicidal so the only appealing option to me right now is running away. I don't know where else to go, or who to run to, since my father lives many states away. What should I do? Who should I talk to? I need help, but no one here is listening. All I get is "Oh that's sad." Or "I can't do anything about that." Or even about the kids in school "They're just playing around, stop being so sensitive."
I've skipped three days of school, and had five excused absences. The school has been adding days to my absences like crazy, it's at a number ridiculously high for me and I can't put together how I possibly missed that many days. I know exactly why I was absent for the exact days. My depression is worsening, I can't find reasons to do the things I love anymore. I want to sometimes, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
What am I supposed to do? My mother can't afford a therapist. I haven't even met someone in my school that knows who the guidance counselor is. Please help me.
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