I am sad at home and can't do anything about it

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I am 17 going 18 in year 11, my mum and dad are divorced so I see my dad 3-4 times a year and call him every now and then. My mum is constantly putting me down with everything she does, I haven't felt loved by anyone in years and have been depressed and suicidal for years now too. After my mum and I had a fight instead of talking she called the police who looked at messages I sent my dad at the time of me being angry and sad and thought they'd call paramedics and I went to hospital for 4 hours until I saw a psychologist and left. This happened last year and my mum only apologised for doing that a few weeks ago. My dad is in Brisbane and works from 5am to 6ish so living with him would be hard and difficult for him so I have nowhere to go but I can't keep staying with my mum because I feel I will eventually do something terrible to myself. The rules my mum has make it hard for me to go to school without being tired from 6 hours sleep or less each night because I can only do homework late at night when I'm allowed up into my room after watching my dog for the day, I have tried to tell her that I am in an unhealthy situation but she doesn't seem to care and will not change anything. Is there anything I can do or anywhere I can go to escape this depression I am stuck in?

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