I'm 15 and I can't get out of my abusive home

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I'm 15, I've been living with my mom all my life. When I was young she and my step-dad used to sell drugs and I would go on the car rides with them. My step-dad died and my mom get help for her addiction but she's now mentally abusive and I can't do anything. I live with my Aunt and Uncle who are really abusive towards my brother, they verbally degrade him all the time. I want to leave so badly but CPS won't do anything because I'm not really physically abused (I have been before, but rarely and not recently). I don't know what to do, I deal with suicidal thoughts daily because my family makes me feel like I'm nothing. I have such bad trust issues, I worry my friends at school and I can't vent to them anymore because they're stressed out. I have anxiety and depression and I can't take much more of this, I'm gonna snap. Is there anything I can do to get out of here besides CPS? CPS won't do anything.

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Reply: I'm 15, I've been living with my mom all my life


Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

From everything that you have been going through at home with your parent’s it took a lot of courage for you to reach out. We appreciate you sharing your feelings about the situation. Well done. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now. You don’t deserve to be abused in any way and we understand how this has caused you to feel stressed and upset. It sounds like CPS has been contacted but have not done anything to your satisfaction. Your voice is your strongest asset and you have shown amazing courage standing up and speaking out to authorities. Though you feel frustrated understand that your life matters. If you are ever having thoughts of suicide please reach out to someone be a friend or someone you trust.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

We’re sorry you’re going through this. It is not your fault nor your brother’s that this is happening. You are not responsible for how others behave. You have a right to want to feel safe. We understand your frustration with CPS. It is sometimes harder to prove verbal abuse but if you are able to get documentation through recording when it is happening, it could help to prove what you are experiencing.

We are here to help and here to listen. If you would like to tell us more about your situation and explore options to make change, please contact us at 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) or www.1800runaway.org

You did a great job reaching out today. You are so brave.
If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 9-1-1 or seek emergency assistance immediately.

Be safe,
NRS


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