My parents have no respect towards me

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So I basically hate my dad so much and I just wish he would move out he used to be an alcoholic and at one point my mam had packed his bags and put them beside the door but I found out that she wasn’t actually being serious but they do and did fight a lot so like she just wanted to scare him that he will have to move out if he dosnt stop drinking and he did and then few months later went back and so on but now he isn’t and I just hate him so much and everything about him whenever I look at him all I can think about is how much I hate him and he has no tolerance whatsoever and talks very loud has the tv loud and just does not care I’m pretty sure he has anger issues and my mam whenever she is sitting with him he just like tells her stuff like she shouldn’t listen to what I’m sayin because I’m just young and so stupid and all that it is 1am and they were talking very loud so I simply went to say to be quiet and they just started saying that it is their house they pay for it they can be as loud as they can it was mostly him saying that and my mam agreeing to that I don’t know why but he is a bad influence on her and I can see it they mostly treat me the worst and always did I have two older sisters and I’m the youngest. one sister is living in another country and one is in college and living there and I’m only 15 so I can’t move out yet but I just hate living here because it’s like they have no respect towards me and I have always been treated like that and always just felt like I don’t want to be in this family because aperantly I wasn’t even planned but I just always felt like they just hate me and there is just so much more to the story like alot more too much to type here so this all might not seem this bad but if u heard the full story it would but I’m not going to type this hole thing here because it would take too long but I don’t know what to do because it is so frustrating that I just cant even sleep properly because all I want is silence like they should have some respect when they’re child is trying to sleep

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Hi, thank you for reaching out to us and sharing some of what you’re going through. It sounds really hard for many reasons. Feeling like your parents have no respect towards you; being told hurtful things; not having quiet when you need to sleep, or simply to think; having an alcoholic parent with anger issues – and all the things you couldn’t write to us – all of that is really hard and stressful.
Feeling like your parents hate you must feel bad, but please know that the way they treat you and what they say to you and about you is not really about you, it is about them. In your dad’s case, he probably has some problem or pain that he tries to dull with alcohol and anger, and his family takes the force of that pain. You, yourself aren’t the one he hates – the way he feels is what he hates. We hope that this might help you to understand some of the family dynamics that you didn’t cause and aren’t responsible for.
We hope you can know that you are not alone. Even though your sisters aren’t there, we are here for you 24/7 to listen and help at our hotline 1-800-RUNAWAY, or through our live chat service through the website at 1800runaway.org We also hope that you can feel proud of yourself for finding us and asking for help. You deserve that.
One resource we can give now is Alateen, which is a support group for the children of alcoholic family members. https://al-anon.org/al-anon-meetings...ateen-meeting/ You can locate a local group and meet with people your age who are going through the same sort of experience.
From here, we hope you will contact us by phone or chat so we can talk about the things you didn’t include so we can better help you feel more in control of your situation. Until then, we hope that you can find an adult that you trust at school, or a family member, or a friend’s parent to talk about what you’re going through. And we are always, always here to listen and help.