Tweet
Hey there,
My name is Apollo. Im a sixteen year old trans guy, and my living situation is pretty rough.
My mother has BPD, Depression, and Anxiety. Not only that, but my mother has extreme manic periods. There are times where I feel threatened by my mother and my father. When they fight it can be extremely physical. A few nights ago, my mother hit me and pushed my down during her manic phase. I strangled her and pinned her down (remind you she was out on the street screaming and fighting), and i pulled her back inside. My dad was inside the house during this entire throw-down (as he usually is). Whenever he tries to calm her down, he loses his cool and makes the situation even worse. This makes me become my mothers crutch and therapist. I have been living like this for the past five years of my life. This constant fear and fighting has led me down a path of extreme depression and anxiety, causing me to attempt suicide a few times.
I'm truly sick of living like this, not being able to be a normal kid, and instead having to be my mothers crutch, and her therapist at the same time. I am more the parent rather than the child, and it is straining my happiness and my mental sanity.
My mothers friend offered me a place to stay, saying that i could come and live with her for a couple of months, or however long i needed. Of course, i am extremely unsure of this, because I don't know how my parents will react. I want to be in a place where I feel happy and safe to share my passions and do things that I enjoy. My mothers friend is also very accepting and wants to support me through my transition.
My parents are always telling me that they are going to get better and that they want to be able to be here for me, but I feel like that is highly unlikely considering how long this has been going on, and how childish my mother is.
Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you.
My name is Apollo. Im a sixteen year old trans guy, and my living situation is pretty rough.
My mother has BPD, Depression, and Anxiety. Not only that, but my mother has extreme manic periods. There are times where I feel threatened by my mother and my father. When they fight it can be extremely physical. A few nights ago, my mother hit me and pushed my down during her manic phase. I strangled her and pinned her down (remind you she was out on the street screaming and fighting), and i pulled her back inside. My dad was inside the house during this entire throw-down (as he usually is). Whenever he tries to calm her down, he loses his cool and makes the situation even worse. This makes me become my mothers crutch and therapist. I have been living like this for the past five years of my life. This constant fear and fighting has led me down a path of extreme depression and anxiety, causing me to attempt suicide a few times.
I'm truly sick of living like this, not being able to be a normal kid, and instead having to be my mothers crutch, and her therapist at the same time. I am more the parent rather than the child, and it is straining my happiness and my mental sanity.
My mothers friend offered me a place to stay, saying that i could come and live with her for a couple of months, or however long i needed. Of course, i am extremely unsure of this, because I don't know how my parents will react. I want to be in a place where I feel happy and safe to share my passions and do things that I enjoy. My mothers friend is also very accepting and wants to support me through my transition.
My parents are always telling me that they are going to get better and that they want to be able to be here for me, but I feel like that is highly unlikely considering how long this has been going on, and how childish my mother is.
Any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you.
Comment