I feel emotionally abused

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I do not where to start but I just know I have to talk to someone. So for awhile me and my dad never got on the right foot but recently it has gotten worse. It just feels when my brothers do something they are looked as “oh they are just joking” “they are perfect”. I will do the slightest thing and my dad will scold me. He will call be a spoiled brat. He will say he never wants to look at me and just stuff that hurts. It’s gotten to a point everyday of him yelling at me where I will only say as little as a word to him. That words starts the storm now. I will just say how my day is and he start yelling at me. He told me to go upstairs and i just cried. He opened my door and got in my face and yelled “what you have to say...Anything else huh” I was scared. My dad would never hit me but just the way he treats me has brought me to do things I regret. One time I left a cup in the sink and he yelled so loud and got in my face. The worst part is my mom joined in and started yelling. It’s funny because out of all my brothers, I am the only one staying away from drugs, getting good grades, actaully respecting people. But I am the worst kid at home, but anyways after my mom joined in. My brothers started just being rude too. This is so dramatic but it hurt so bad I cut myself.... I have been doing it off and on and I keep regretting right after but it’s not too serious. I just feel so mentally unsafe at my house and I just wanna cry everyday.it just feels like I am doing everything wrong and I have no one to talk to..Feedback please

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Hello,
Thanks for reaching out to National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you’re in a great deal of pain and feeling a lack of warmth at your home from your family. It’s understandable that you would want to talk this out with someone. It takes strength to reach out when you’re feeling emotionally abused and unwelcome in your own home.
You mentioned that you haven’t been physically harmed by your dad, but you are afraid. If you felt unsafe, you could file an abuse report with Child Protective Services. You could also call Child Help at 1-800-422-4453. This is a National Child Abuse hotline. It sounds like it’s hard to find support at home, especially with your mother and brothers joining in on ridiculing you. Hopefully, you have other family members or friends that you can go to for support. We can be a source of support as well.
You mentioned that you are engaging in cutting, and although not everyone who self-harms intends to end their life, if you are having thoughts of suicide, you could reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. It can be hard when you’re feeling attacked or abused at home, but talking about it could possibly be helpful. We are here 24/7, and if you’d like to discuss some other options, you can chat with us, or call 1-800-786-2929. We look forward to talking with you.

Best,
NRS