i want to leave with my little brother

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hello, im miles and im a trans male who lives in maryland, my parents have been abusive all my life, im 14 and my little brother is 13, i want to leave however i dont know much also im scared. leaving means leaving everything i know, also my parents while they haven beaten us, it never left bruises except for this one time my mother hit my brother with a spoon on his back, however it has healed since that was years ago, even now they beat us but never enough to bruise and only on occasion, however they make me so stressed and insult me on a daily basis i dissociate and have had suicidal thoughts in the past around ages 11-12, the reason im here now talking about all of this (which there is a lot more) is because im tired of living here, and my friend has held some foster kids before so i thought i could report them but i dont know how far itll go with no bruises however, also today my mother and i had an argument in which she threaten to hit/beat me because i didnt turn off the tv. in which i said she shouldnt threaten her child, she laughed and said "i can threaten you all i want" please tell me there is something i can do, even if i have to stay i rather my little brother at least be somewhere safe, hes a sweet kid and gets beaten much more than i do, also my mom took away my phone so i cant contact many people and is threatening to take away my door like she did to my older sister

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Thanks for reaching out to us at the National Runaway Safeline. You made a great first step to finding the help that you may need. It sounds like you are going through a lot and the people around you are not being supportive. You deserve to be treated with respect, to experience acceptance and to feel safe.

We want you to know that you are strong for having gone through so much already. It is perfectly okay to deviate from what others or the common population believe to be “normal”. You’re bravery and resilience is so admirable. You are so strong for having gone through so much without having the acceptance that you do deserve for just being you. Remember that you are not alone. If you ever want to talk more about what you are experiencing or get additional support we are here 24/7 at 1800-RUNAWAY or our live chat service. The GLBT National Hotline at 1888-843-4564 is another option to gain great support from those that are familiar with the issues and experiences of those that are also a part of the LGBTQ community. You can access their website link bellow to utilize all the other possibly useful resources they have to offer: http://www.glbthotline.org/

You mentioned that you were considering the options that may be best for you. By all means, if you do fear for your safety either now or in the future, do not hesitate to take the necessary steps to regain your safety. This may mean calling the authorities or possibly reporting the things you may be experiencing. Other options to think about may be other family members, friends, or a trusted adults that would be able to provide you with support or a safe place to stay. It is great that you thinking ahead. Should you feel like leaving home is best, it may be a good idea to think about how you will provide necessities for yourself such as food, clothing, showers, healthcare and other basic needs. You may want to also consider how your parent’s will react to you leaving without permission. We are not legal experts here, but typically as a minor (under the age of 1 you need permission from your parents to leave home. It is not illegal to runaway, but it would mean that your parents could file a runaway report with the police. This is usually done in an effort to try to return you home as the police are required to do so.

If you can give us a call at 1-800-RUNAWAY or reach out through Live Chat we can try to find some youth shelters that may be near your city and state by utilizing our database of resources. We can also try to call out to shelters with you or on your behalf to advocate for you.

Stay Strong,
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