I am 13 and i can't live with my mother anymore!

[Guest]

I am 13 years old and for the past 2-3 years i have been going through some rough time with my mother.I am a really shy girl and i really dont like to fight with somebody especially with my family members.The problem is that my mom starts a fight for such little things and that really makes me mad at her.The thing is ...I start getting mad but I try to calm down and not hurt her...but instead, I hurt myself 10 times worse...Whenever we have a convesation about something I did wrong ,but its insignificant...its something that normal people would not care and move on......well my mom doesnt do that ...she stars verbally abussing me and I start crying....For some time I start crying for every single thing that my mom tells me ...and I dont know why she is like that and why do I react like that...also my mom has divorced for 11 year now..and I don't know anything about my dad...but thats not the case......So when I start crying I just can't stop...and my mom goes further with verbally abussing me because I cry....But from what I know, "crying" is a type of metod for reselling stress...and thats what I do ....and thats what my mom does to me ...and I feel like this started to affect me at school, I start losing attention to class and I also stopped studing for school and I just cant keep up with anything....I just feel like the whole world is moving but I am just staying in one place and not move and not improving anything...I would really like some advice in how could I tell my mom to stop doing this to me...and I have tried to do that but she is still not changing...I tried changing myself to see if the changes but.....no results....
I would really like to get some advice ...or help me understand what I am doing wrong!
Thank you!

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First of all, thank you so much for reaching out and taking steps towards finding a safer, more comfortable environment for yourself and your child. You absolutely do not deserve to be physically or emotionally abused by anyone. It is admirable that you are taking responsibility for your mental health by seeing a therapist and taking medications, and you deserve to be in an environment that supports your self-care and ability to make decisions for yourself. Also, congratulations on your scholarship, it seems that you are doing very well in school and want to have a happy, successful life for you and your daughter.
If you don’t feel safe at home, there may be options for short term and long term housing in your area for you and your baby. Another thing to consider is that if you are being abused at home, you could possibly take legal actions to get yourself in a safer space. If you’d like to call our hotline number, we can better assist you by talking through the details of your situation and options that may be available to you. We wish you the best of luck and hope you will give us a call. We are available 24/7, are completely confidential and here to listen and to help.