Hey,
So my I've known my step dad since I could remember because my real dad left when I was born because he and my mom were only 17. This man used to be a good father to me, my mother, and brother, but only for a short time. Over a couple years around age 5-6, he was alright but definitely wasn't perfect, but I still respected him and at the time loved him. However recently, especially since 8th/9th grade things have gotten MUCH worse. I should mention I am 17 and a senior in high school, also an all AP/honor class student, I've even strived to make it to Calc 3. But it's been very hard with my step-dad. He has caused me little physical pain, he is almost always verbally abusive and has caused me far to much stress and it's absolutely having an effect on my mental health.
As of today, living in my home is me, my mom, and two younger brothers. My step-dad yells at us almost daily and makes me feel like absolute ********, I'm sure my family feels the same. However, I'm very depressed, and angered lately and this has caused me to become academically lazy in school. I constantly have thoughts, especially when he my step-dad goes on his yelling sprees, of suicide, running away, or even thoughts of severely hurting or killing him, I've never felt worse in my life and I can't imagine life going on, and there's no way I can live in this house another moment!
My step-dad constantly hides from us in our garage and doesn't do a thing besides going to work to support our family, he then tells us how we're all lazy pieces of ******** and how we don't ever do anything. I know exactly what he's doing in the garage, and I even have photos to prove it, as I've thought of showing my mom, although I'm uncertain he has a card for this, he has excessive amounts of marijuana that he smokes everyday and hides from us most of the evening. He also has started drinking too, also in the garage.
My group of friends all know everything I have mentioned above, and I've thought about talking to my counselor at school about this, but I'm just too afraid to, as of possible results. I've tried talking to my mom a year ago about this exact situation and nothing happened, and it's only gotten worse, one of my friends, including his family, knows all about my situation and has told me many times I'm always welcome to come there anytime to get away from my step-dad.
I need serious help, this is affecting my life tremendously, I can't even put into words how bad it is, even though most of the abuse is verbal, I'm going INSANE in this house, and I'm ready to have a meltdown, I CANT handle it, I'm only a senior in high school and already want my life to end. I really need help, and before I do anything rash or major, I need help from you guys, please, I just want this all to end...
So my I've known my step dad since I could remember because my real dad left when I was born because he and my mom were only 17. This man used to be a good father to me, my mother, and brother, but only for a short time. Over a couple years around age 5-6, he was alright but definitely wasn't perfect, but I still respected him and at the time loved him. However recently, especially since 8th/9th grade things have gotten MUCH worse. I should mention I am 17 and a senior in high school, also an all AP/honor class student, I've even strived to make it to Calc 3. But it's been very hard with my step-dad. He has caused me little physical pain, he is almost always verbally abusive and has caused me far to much stress and it's absolutely having an effect on my mental health.
As of today, living in my home is me, my mom, and two younger brothers. My step-dad yells at us almost daily and makes me feel like absolute ********, I'm sure my family feels the same. However, I'm very depressed, and angered lately and this has caused me to become academically lazy in school. I constantly have thoughts, especially when he my step-dad goes on his yelling sprees, of suicide, running away, or even thoughts of severely hurting or killing him, I've never felt worse in my life and I can't imagine life going on, and there's no way I can live in this house another moment!
My step-dad constantly hides from us in our garage and doesn't do a thing besides going to work to support our family, he then tells us how we're all lazy pieces of ******** and how we don't ever do anything. I know exactly what he's doing in the garage, and I even have photos to prove it, as I've thought of showing my mom, although I'm uncertain he has a card for this, he has excessive amounts of marijuana that he smokes everyday and hides from us most of the evening. He also has started drinking too, also in the garage.
My group of friends all know everything I have mentioned above, and I've thought about talking to my counselor at school about this, but I'm just too afraid to, as of possible results. I've tried talking to my mom a year ago about this exact situation and nothing happened, and it's only gotten worse, one of my friends, including his family, knows all about my situation and has told me many times I'm always welcome to come there anytime to get away from my step-dad.
I need serious help, this is affecting my life tremendously, I can't even put into words how bad it is, even though most of the abuse is verbal, I'm going INSANE in this house, and I'm ready to have a meltdown, I CANT handle it, I'm only a senior in high school and already want my life to end. I really need help, and before I do anything rash or major, I need help from you guys, please, I just want this all to end...
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