I need to get out of here...

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I know that I probably sound like a whiny little brat, but I really need help. I have social anxiety, depression, and I am suicidal. My parents know this, yet they act like its no big deal. They get upset at me for trying to express my individuality, and often times get angry at me when I fall behind in school. They never took any action against my depression, so it keeps getting worse and worse. I've often thought of killing myself, but would instead nix the idea. They tell me that I'm fat, and constantly complain about my hair, face, clothes, and attitude. When I'm happy or finally enjoying something for once, they always bug me about why I'm so happy. And when I'm being my normal depressed self, they bug me about it too. They constantly bug me about school, my friends, and badger me about what's going on in my life. Every time I give them the same answer, since nothing ever changes, but they refuse to leave me alone. They monitor me all the time, and make my anxiety worse because I constantly have the feeling that they are watching me. All. The. Time. I hate it, and I've expressed this to them, but they brush it off. I've honestly been planning to run away since I was 7, and I'm 14 now. I've had it all planned out, but now I'm finally ready to set my plan into action. I just. I need help. I need to know where to go after I get out. I need to get to a place where I can stay, and where the police wont hunt me down and drag me back home. I'm planning to wait till after christmas, so I can get some extra cash from my cousins. But, if I did leave, do you know of any way to integrate yourself into the foster care systems in Canada? That would be great.