Just end it.

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I am a 17 year old girl who is a half mom full time. I cooked dinner 4 days a week, clean my house, and watch after my four younger siblings and I have been doing this since I was 13. I have had anxiety since I was 7 and I have had depression since I was 11. I want to die, but I'm to weak to actually kill myself.
My parents aren't bad people but their so busy providing for us they have a hard time taking care of us. My parents are also blind to the obvious like my scars on my arms from using my nails to cut my skin, and my obvious depression. I love my family but I can't help but feeling I'd be happier without them, I just want people who will accept me. I'm so tired of living, I just want people who will care about me as much as I care about them. I've tried telling my parents about my depression they just said I was just looking for attention, I've tried to make them understand, I've tried talking, it didn't work.
I've considered running away for years, now I'm considering doing the opposite because if I've already tried to save what I have with my family now I need to leave to save what I have left of myself. Tell me it's okay. Tell me I'm doing the right thing. I need to try something different, I need to save myself. I just want it to end.

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Re: Just end it.

Hello there,

We’re glad you found our online forum and felt comfortable enough to share a bit about yourself. It sounds like you’ve been through a lot and have had to grow up quickly. Unfortunately, it also sounds like the extra responsibility has taken a toll on your mental health. We’re very sorry your parents haven’t taken your depression seriously. Please know we aren’t here to judge you and we can listen and provide support to the best of our ability. There is also other support out there for depression, self-injury, or if you begin to have thoughts of wanting to kill yourself.

To Write Love On Her Arms

https://twloha.com/

An online network that provides hope and support for a variety of issues including self-injury

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: You Matter

http://www.youmatter.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

A movement created by the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline to spread the word that you matter

Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance Wellness Tracker

http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageServer?pagename=wellness_tracker

Free app to help you track your health and wellbeing

We hope our response as well as these resources can help you while you figure things out. If you’d like to discuss your situation further, you’re more than welcome to Live Chat with us. Best of luck!