I dont know what to do.

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My parents suck and blame stuff on me i didnt do and call me things like a b**** and stuff like that, and the fact that I'm trans and she said being trans is sexist, doesnt help. I tried to run away at 10 but got caught before i left. She didnt do anything except threaten suicide watch??? I tried to kill myself and she just yelled, "Let her go to school, it doesnt matter where she is she'll kill herself anyways." I'm sick of it. but I'm scared because they say they love me and they give me stuff and we go to disney and i think I'm just overreacting. Am I? I don't understand how to feel. I have 2 siblings. And places to go if I did. But it's illegal to run away where I am and I cant tell anyone whats happening... I'm too scared to.. I don't know I sound dumb. Sorry...

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Hello,

Thanks for reaching out to National Runaway Safeline. It sounds like you are in a stressful and confusing situation where a lot of hurtful and kind things have been said and leaves you in a place of not knowing what to think or to move forward. You are really brave for reaching out to us and tell us a little bit about what is happening. It can be helpful to talk with someone about these types of feelings and thoughts.

You can seek help is reaching out to a friend, teacher, or counselor at school that can help you look for resources. Your mental health is important. You can also look at SAMHSA (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration) at samhsa.gov (call them directly at 1-877-726-4727) or NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness 1-800-950-NAMI to help you find the support that you need. If you do ever feel in direct danger, to yourself, or some else makes you feel that way, please call out to 911 or reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255) or The Trevor Project 1-866-488-7386.

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