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  • Hey: I’m 13 and I want out of my house




    I live with my mom and dad, little sister and brother We have also just got custody of my cousin. The reason I want to run away from home is because I suffer anxiety and serious depression that no one believes. Every time I try to talk to somebody in my house hold they brush it off and tell me it’s because of something Ridiculous that just happened but that’s not it in 2019 when I tried to commit Suicide my mom told me that if I did and I survived. She would give me what’s called a “lick’n” others words a beating and said she’d never forgive me they never touched me or hurt me ever but it feels scary to question or push my boundaries. A couple of days ago she seen the cuts I have on my legs (3 of them) and told me I better not be trying To start “trouble” and gave me a threaten glare I am terrified what will happen as soon as I press this send button.

    Honestly I just want out and want to get help for my anxiety and depression. My mom always yells at me then apologizes to manipulate me. She tells me that her mom treated her bad and that she’s worried she might be a bad mom too. I tell her she’s not but I think I might be changing my mind. She also tells me that they are all that I have and if I ever ran away or did anything they didn’t like they’d shut me out and never talk to me.

    I am also LGBTQ and a girl my parents are homophobic and when I turn 16 I am confessing and if they kick me out I have friends that I hope will stick around. My dad is cold and mostly ignores me or gets mad at me when I tell my little sister not to do something they shouldn’t since their his real kids and I am a step daughter. I have also been sexually assaulted and traumatized at a young age in foster care. I told my mom when I was 12 but...again they never believed me. I don’t know if I am just being silly and am terrified for nothing but I need help without them knowing if they did I’d have no contact to the outside world and shut down if any electronics and such. They make it seem as if I am the bad guy or they will try but I will not take any more of this

    What do I do?
    Last edited by ccsmod4; 07-31-2020, 02:51 AM.

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    • ccsmod4
      ccsmod4 commented
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      Hello,
      Thank you for writing to us here at the National Runaway Safeline.

      We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing what’s going on.
      It is times like these that would be nice to have a listening ear. It is also important that you remember to exercise self- care. You showed some by reaching out to NRS. Good for you.
      What you have been experiencing sounds very unfair. You do not deserve to be treated this way by your parents.
      It’s not your fault that they behave this way.
      Your feelings are important and they matter.
      You are deserving as anyone that wants to be happy.


      We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this tough and difficult time. We can best help by phone or chat so that we might learn a little more about your situation and how we might assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail and share more about how we can help specifically, please call or chat soon.

      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).

      If you would like to speak to a counselor about being sexually assaulted you might consider reaching to the referral we have provided. R.A.I.N.N. 1-800-656-4673 www.rainn.org


      Take care,
      NRS
      Last edited by ccsmod4; 07-31-2020, 02:49 AM.

  • i want to run away i am 11 turning 12 in 19 days i call myself 12 since i am going to be 12 in 19 days but yeh i am in foster care but i dont want to run away alone i dont have any electronics this is my foster moms Chromebook but yeh i need someone to go with but i dont now how i can get in contact with someone i live in holyoke Massachusetts but i dont now someone who i can run away with so this is hard and i want to just leave my foster mom yells in my face punishes me for little things i need someone to run away with and live somewhere but it is all hard to plan by myself if someone can give me the gmail for we can chat on google hangouts but i really want to go but i cant go alone i want someone to go with so yeh i really want to go but i need someone to go with can someone reply as soon as possible i need someone to chat with on google hangouts and that person can runaway with me and yeh i will plan with the person that chooses to go with me and we will talk and plan on google hangouts but i need someone to chat with please and someone to go with i am also been depressed for 1 year

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    • Hi there,
      Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It seems there is a lot that you are faced with right now and you’re feeling like leaving is one of your only options. It seems you want to know some information on runaway laws.
      While we are not experts on the law, 18 is generally the age that an individual may leave home without parent permission. If you are under 18 and leave home, your parent/guardian may file you as a runaway and you may be returned home. Also, those you stay with may run the risk of being charged with harboring a runaway. For more specifics on the law, the local non-emergency police or legal aid may better answer legal questions.
      We are here as support to help through this challenging time. We can best help by phone or chat as NRS is unable to respond more than twice by forum to assist you. If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.
      Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button).
      If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately.
      Be safe,
      NRS
      Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

      National Runaway Safeline
      [email protected] (Crisis Email)
      1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)
      https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/YourOpinionMattersToUs

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      • I'm 12 and I want to run away...

        My dad and I have always had a great relationship. Same for me and my 16 year old Brother. My Mom and my little brother are why I want to run away..permanently. I get blamed and hit for everything my Brother does wrong by my mom. My brother has caused my mother and I's relationship to be ruined every since he was around..3. Being in a Black and Hispanic household, my parents raise me to high standards when it comes to my grades, and if I get anything lower than an A my mom yells at me at a high toned voice for HOURS and hits me. If I do any little thing she yells at me. I love my mom SO much...but she doesn't return the same energy. I hug her and give her kisses all the time, and she yells at me and tells me to get off of her. She yells in stores at me if I do any little thing. She's told all my friends, their parents, and all of my family members the most humiliating things about me and she does anything to embarass me. If I let out one tear she hits me and yells at me that nobody cares and she curses at me. She treats me unfairly compared to my other brothers. And when my dad comes around she tries to act like we're all good, but the minute he leaves she goes crazy on me.

        I've recently been having many arguments with her about my school. She yells at me every day all day because of it, I do school work (homeschooled online) all day every day. She watches everything I do, wears, who I talk to, etc. I do everything and anything I can to please her and all she does is yell at me. I've tried to have a good mother-daughter relationship with her but I can never talk to her about anything or she yells at me. God forbid I complain- if I complain ONCE, she yells and rants at me about how bad her life was.... shes called me every curse in the book, and has caused several injuries, bruises, etc to me that I can't tell her I have or she'll give me more. SHe's always saying how I eat too much because I have to keep my weight down for sports, but im an average weight for my age. Around this age I'm gaining more weight due to growing, breasts, etc, and im becoming insecure about everything since shes always lecturing me about it.


        I really want to leave, but I still want to fulfill my career of being a doctor, ive had my mindset on this career since i was 2 and i dont want to let running away from home ruin that.

        I don't want to get brought back home by police either, because I might be put into therapy or a mental hospital. And my mom would holler at me for leaving in the first place and how i caused her so many issues.

        I want to be able to run away and get a job that i can get income from to survive, i want to be able to have other people to do this with (but im homeschooled and just moved so i know nobody in my area), I want to be able to still talk with my dad without him being able to track my location and find me (he knows how to overcome most things). And sadly...I still want to be able to contact my mom to ensure that shes ok and not causing more issues at home and balming herself or anyone else for me leaving..

        I want to be able to find some sort of new home with someone that i know, or find somewhere to live so that i can finish middle school and continue my education until ive graduated high school. I don't want to end up dead, or some loser living on the streets that cant do anything with their life. i know im young, and i know im asking for a lot, but i want to fulfill my life AWAY from my mom until i become older and im situated to a point where i can take care of myself and then go back home.

        Honestly...I've been trying to plan but i know lifes hard out in the streets and i need someone to do it with or some sort of help....Please dont give a response saying i shouldnt run away because i have my mind set on doing it. So please help me...

        and if your a kid who wants to run away too, I can give you my snap or number so we can communicate on how to do this.

        Help, please?


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        • Hi there,
          Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS). We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now and you mentioned being harmed. We’re sorry you’re going through this. You don't deserve to be hurt in any way. If you are at risk of any danger or feeling unsafe, we encourage you to reach out to 911 or seek emergency assistance immediately. You may also be able to report any mistreatment to CPS. Child Help USA 1-800-422-4453 www.childhelp.org is an organization that helps protect minors from being harmed. They can tell you more about how CPS could respond to your situation. If you ever need assistance calling out to CPS to make an abuse or neglect report please call is at 1-800-RUNAWAY.
          Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. You are not alone in this. We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time. While we are not experts on the law, 18 is generally the age that an individual may leave home without parent permission. If you are under 18 and leave home, your parent/guardian may file you as a runaway and you may be returned home. Also, those you stay with may run the risk of being charged with harboring a runaway. For more specifics on the law, the local non-emergency police or legal aid may better answer legal questions.
          If you would like to talk more in detail please chat soon through our website www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button) if you are unable to call in. We unfortunately cannot give advice as we are non-directive. You know your situation best
          We hope to hear from you soon.
          Be safe,
          NRS
          Please remember you can reach us directly by calling our 24 hour hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or through our Live Chat.

          National Runaway Safeline
          [email protected] (Crisis Email)
          1-800-RUNAWAY (24 Hour Hotline)
          https://www.surveymonkey.com/r/YourOpinionMattersToUs

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          • Hi I just turned 12, I thought about running away a few times not serious but now I am actually serious. I fell selfish though with these thoughts. I don’t feel like I belong any ware. My friends act like fake friends. They always choose me last for everything and are rude. My sister hates my guts. She bullies me whether it is making me her "slave child" or saying I suck at literally everything I do to telling me my parents love her more than me and to be honest it feels that way. At home they fight so much I cry and they are rude. Now they don’t abuse me or anything and are usually good parents but since 2 years ago they aren’t that good to me. My dad is to rough my mom makes everything overwhelmingly and I can’t stand it anymore. I get called name and am always being emotionally put down. They make me feel so bad about the way I speak even though they try to help but it doesn't. My brother is good to me though. Also I have being feeling very down for a year not because of puberty and that stuff. Just feeling useless and dumb, wanting to harm others but using family problems to cover it so I wouldn't get in trouble which is bad because my sister was really sick and that always makes me feel so bad for the way I think about but I just can’t stand it. But I can't talk to anyone about it so all of this is bottled up inside. One time I said I don't feel fairly treated but got told a brat and I do everything for you and that hurts me so much but he makes me do what he wants. I have to play piano eat food I hate, sit with him even though I am upset and he is too rough. He gives my sister hamster gecko, and paid 60 dollars for a snail. All I want is just one pet whether it is a dog bird or turtle. But she has 5 pets and around 15 other garden snails. I have to watch what she wants. They made me watch slender men even though they know I have always been super scared of sooooo many things especially horror movies. I have been feeling scared around my family. I don’t know what to do but I know if I run away there is no going back. My family would never forgive me. When I was little I would always run away and came home to a very angry family and they won’t let me sleep on the couch away from my sister without taking my iPad. Please help. I don’t really want to have to run away but I am not happy on my house hold and have no friends and family I can tell because my friends would snitch out of worry or for gossip and I have no close family that would take me in without bringing me home. I need a solution. Also I am not from THE USA.
            Last edited by ccsmod4; 08-07-2020, 04:45 AM.

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            • ccsmod4
              ccsmod4 commented
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              Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

              We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on. It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things in your life right now.
              It sounds like you’re fearing that the stress from the situation is getting harder and harder to handle.
              We are sorry you are going through a tough emotional time.
              Having your family react the way they do sounds like it has been upsetting and frustrating for you.

              Sometimes when things are too stressful it might help to talk with someone about it.
              Often, having a safe space to share how you’re feeling may bring a variety of solutions previously not thought of. This may be an isolating and lonely time for you, but you are not alone in this.
              NRS is here to listen and here to help.
              We want you to know that we are here as support to help you through this challenging time.
              If you would like to talk more in detail please call or chat soon.

              Our contact information is 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929); www.1800runaway.org (click on the chat button). You are welcome to discuss your situation and talk about possible options for help. What you did today by reaching out was great. Good job.
              We hope to hear from you soon.

              Take care,
              NRS

          • I’m 12 and I want to commit suicide and run away. Please do not think me a bad person because my parents do not abuse me, they just treat my sister better and I can’t get out of bed in the morning because I feel weak and tired after a full nights sleep. I mentally ache and I feel I have nobody to talk to because I don’t trust my mums.

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            • ccsmod1
              ccsmod1 commented
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              Hey there,

              Thanks so much for reaching out and sharing a little bit about what’s been going on, we know that it takes a lot of courage. The National Runaway Safeline is located in the United States of America (USA). Our knowledge of helpful community based resources and our understanding of youth in crisis related laws is limited to the USA. If you are located in a country outside of the USA, you can use this link to find a youth helpline in or around your country: https://www.childhelplineinternation...pline-network/.

              We hope that by reaching out to a local resource, you are able to get the support you need from an organization that understands the laws and circumstances that affect youth in your country.

              Be safe,
              NRS
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