Hey: I’m 13 and I want out of my house
I live with my mom and dad, little sister and brother We have also just got custody of my cousin. The reason I want to run away from home is because I suffer anxiety and serious depression that no one believes. Every time I try to talk to somebody in my house hold they brush it off and tell me it’s because of something Ridiculous that just happened but that’s not it in 2019 when I tried to commit Suicide my mom told me that if I did and I survived. She would give me what’s called a “lick’n” others words a beating and said she’d never forgive me they never touched me or hurt me ever but it feels scary to question or push my boundaries. A couple of days ago she seen the cuts I have on my legs (3 of them) and told me I better not be trying To start “trouble” and gave me a threaten glare I am terrified what will happen as soon as I press this send button.
Honestly I just want out and want to get help for my anxiety and depression. My mom always yells at me then apologizes to manipulate me. She tells me that her mom treated her bad and that she’s worried she might be a bad mom too. I tell her she’s not but I think I might be changing my mind. She also tells me that they are all that I have and if I ever ran away or did anything they didn’t like they’d shut me out and never talk to me.
I am also LGBTQ and a girl my parents are homophobic and when I turn 16 I am confessing and if they kick me out I have friends that I hope will stick around. My dad is cold and mostly ignores me or gets mad at me when I tell my little sister not to do something they shouldn’t since their his real kids and I am a step daughter. I have also been sexually assaulted and traumatized at a young age in foster care. I told my mom when I was 12 but...again they never believed me. I don’t know if I am just being silly and am terrified for nothing but I need help without them knowing if they did I’d have no contact to the outside world and shut down if any electronics and such. They make it seem as if I am the bad guy or they will try but I will not take any more of this
What do I do?
I live with my mom and dad, little sister and brother We have also just got custody of my cousin. The reason I want to run away from home is because I suffer anxiety and serious depression that no one believes. Every time I try to talk to somebody in my house hold they brush it off and tell me it’s because of something Ridiculous that just happened but that’s not it in 2019 when I tried to commit Suicide my mom told me that if I did and I survived. She would give me what’s called a “lick’n” others words a beating and said she’d never forgive me they never touched me or hurt me ever but it feels scary to question or push my boundaries. A couple of days ago she seen the cuts I have on my legs (3 of them) and told me I better not be trying To start “trouble” and gave me a threaten glare I am terrified what will happen as soon as I press this send button.
Honestly I just want out and want to get help for my anxiety and depression. My mom always yells at me then apologizes to manipulate me. She tells me that her mom treated her bad and that she’s worried she might be a bad mom too. I tell her she’s not but I think I might be changing my mind. She also tells me that they are all that I have and if I ever ran away or did anything they didn’t like they’d shut me out and never talk to me.
I am also LGBTQ and a girl my parents are homophobic and when I turn 16 I am confessing and if they kick me out I have friends that I hope will stick around. My dad is cold and mostly ignores me or gets mad at me when I tell my little sister not to do something they shouldn’t since their his real kids and I am a step daughter. I have also been sexually assaulted and traumatized at a young age in foster care. I told my mom when I was 12 but...again they never believed me. I don’t know if I am just being silly and am terrified for nothing but I need help without them knowing if they did I’d have no contact to the outside world and shut down if any electronics and such. They make it seem as if I am the bad guy or they will try but I will not take any more of this
What do I do?
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