I am struggling with my parents

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So i am 16 years old and every once in a while something happens at home; either an argument, a fight, or I just feel so unappreciated and I consider running away. I am very aware that it is not the best option and taking such a risk in a city that a I am in is not a very smart choice. I understand that it will take time for me to gain means to do so safely.
I constantly feel ruled by a male dominated household even though my mom is the breadwinner. I feel like my parents don't listen to me and anything I do is not enough. They are old fashioned. and it affects the way i am forced to live my life. I can appreciate how different my childhood is to theirs but my life now don't reach the standards of a normal teenager's life. I barely go out or have a social life yet on the rare occasion that I want to, I get such a hard time for it.
Nothing I do is enough. I feel this way they constantly compare me to their teenage selves and because I am in my last year of high school and everything in school is getting harder.
Also I have to apply to universities and the topic always fades out because of financial struggles. Also, the main reason for my dad wanting to let out his anger on me. It is so random. Physical abuse isn't very often but not a day goes by and I don't feel emotionally abused. I don't want to waste these last years of my teenage life like this.
But i going to have to swallow my pride.
I need help to fix this issue.
I have a long term runaway plan and I am saving money from now because I have a feeling that (being a female in a traditional household) I am going to have to fight for my independence.
But what should I do now?

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Thank you so much for reaching out to NRS, we know that it can be tough to share your story and we appreciate that you’re brave to share your story with us! We are here to listen and here to help you in your situation. Sounds like you are going through a very frustrating situation. It seems you are very aware of the risks involved in running away, which is good that you did your research. You said you feel ruled by a male dominated household, have you tried talking to your mother about how you feel. You also mentioned that your parents do not listen to you, you could try writing them a letter and maybe it would be easier for you to get your point across. And it must be extremely difficult to be constantly feel compared to your parent teenager lives. That is great you are in your last year of high school, you are almost done! You mentioned the topic of you applying for universities always fades because of financial struggles. You could apply for financial aid, or apply for scholarships. To do this you should talk to your guidance counselor and they should be able to provide you with steps in applying for scholarships and financial aid. You mentioned that physical abuse is not very often. You should not have to deal with any abuse whether it be emotional or physical. If you wish to report the abuse you can contact Child Help (800) 422-4453have your city and state. Also if you are feeling upset you may want to try speaking with a counselor at your school or somebody you trust. Again we thank you for reaching out to NRS, and we wish you the best of luck in your situation. We are here 24/7 so feel free to chat with us or give us a call at any time.