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Hello, the common thing on this forum seems to be that most people are 15 and all seem to have ANGST so i wanted to vent some of this and get some advice from someone.
So lets take this from the top,
BACKGROUND
My mother is the main reason why i want to run away, shes a very headstrong person (something that I seem to have learned from her) and as such she refuses to listen to reason. My mother has never been the gentlest when it comes to emotional things, so in the 7th grade I went through that "the world hates me and everyone is against me" phase which is just that... a phase. This is where my problems begin to happen because at the time i thought i was depressed (I look back on it now and realize how petty it was) so i was seeing my schools counselor and after enough time we had a meeting with my mother. Well the meeting didn't go too well and i was only left with an entire year of suicidal jokes and brutal belittling going as bad to the point of my mother pretending to cut her wrist as she shouted in as loud as she could in a mocking voice "I JUST WANT TO DIE". My mother also has a background of doing things that only benefit her like when she promised to take the family to Canada only to take the money herself and go to China by herself. She has tried to leave the house multiple times and every time she doesn't seem to to give us even a bit of regard. She can humiliate a person on the smallest thing and has no mercy when she does so. My mother lacks the ability to give her family a bit of regard and yet still claims that she does SO much for the family. While its true she does pay the bills for the house and every once in a while speaks to my teachers ( I'm no saint and i wont pretend to be one ) however it seems that that is the only thing she stands behind to justify what she does.
PROBLEM NOW
So i am not an only child, i have two sisters both older than me with one currently sitting happily with a masters degree and the other in college. My oldest sister (the one with the masters) has recently moved in with her boyfriend without being married to him. My mother does not seem to be all too keen on the idea and is now practically disowning my sister by refusing to attend thanksgiving if my sister and her boyfriend will be present ( remember how i said that she only does stuff that benefits her but hurts others? ). My other sister does not approve of my mothers actions and today i made the mistake of asking what the problem is between them. This argument diverged into an argument about our family life in general, highlights of it were "Then leave this is my house and i will stay in my house but YOU can leave" *Loud sobbing used to mock me* and "She is my daughter and i will do what is best for her" even when the choice is not hers anymore.
Id like to hear what this forum has to think of this problem. Is this a common theme in the forum? Is there a way to get around this? Will running away to my sisters house do anything at all?
thank you all in advance for reading this really lame story
So lets take this from the top,
BACKGROUND
My mother is the main reason why i want to run away, shes a very headstrong person (something that I seem to have learned from her) and as such she refuses to listen to reason. My mother has never been the gentlest when it comes to emotional things, so in the 7th grade I went through that "the world hates me and everyone is against me" phase which is just that... a phase. This is where my problems begin to happen because at the time i thought i was depressed (I look back on it now and realize how petty it was) so i was seeing my schools counselor and after enough time we had a meeting with my mother. Well the meeting didn't go too well and i was only left with an entire year of suicidal jokes and brutal belittling going as bad to the point of my mother pretending to cut her wrist as she shouted in as loud as she could in a mocking voice "I JUST WANT TO DIE". My mother also has a background of doing things that only benefit her like when she promised to take the family to Canada only to take the money herself and go to China by herself. She has tried to leave the house multiple times and every time she doesn't seem to to give us even a bit of regard. She can humiliate a person on the smallest thing and has no mercy when she does so. My mother lacks the ability to give her family a bit of regard and yet still claims that she does SO much for the family. While its true she does pay the bills for the house and every once in a while speaks to my teachers ( I'm no saint and i wont pretend to be one ) however it seems that that is the only thing she stands behind to justify what she does.
PROBLEM NOW
So i am not an only child, i have two sisters both older than me with one currently sitting happily with a masters degree and the other in college. My oldest sister (the one with the masters) has recently moved in with her boyfriend without being married to him. My mother does not seem to be all too keen on the idea and is now practically disowning my sister by refusing to attend thanksgiving if my sister and her boyfriend will be present ( remember how i said that she only does stuff that benefits her but hurts others? ). My other sister does not approve of my mothers actions and today i made the mistake of asking what the problem is between them. This argument diverged into an argument about our family life in general, highlights of it were "Then leave this is my house and i will stay in my house but YOU can leave" *Loud sobbing used to mock me* and "She is my daughter and i will do what is best for her" even when the choice is not hers anymore.
Id like to hear what this forum has to think of this problem. Is this a common theme in the forum? Is there a way to get around this? Will running away to my sisters house do anything at all?
thank you all in advance for reading this really lame story
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