I dont know anymore...

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My parents are those kind that don't let me do anything. No matter how good I am or how hard I try in school they always looked over me. Recently I have become more defiant and have been arguing alot lately. My mom has now been yelling at me for stuff I haven't even done. My dad will come home and kick me off the internet or even not let me play video games because "My grades are only 86% instead of 90%+". Im now not aloud to do anything fun. They expect me to only do school and eat the food that my sisters (I am very picky) like all the time. I am also homeschooled. I want to go to school next year to get away from them. Im depressed because no matter what I do I can't seem to impress them or get any love. I hate my parents now and they hate me. Please help I don't want to run away but at the same time I can't bere to stay here any longer.

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Re: I dont know anymore...

Hello,
We are glad that you have reached out to us. We are sorry that you are going through a stressful situation. We can see that you are frustrated with how strict your parents are. You are not comfortable at home and don’t know what else to do.
You mention that there is a lot more arguing now than before. Trying to communicate that with your family can help put things in perspective of what has gone wrong. Speaking with your parents about how uncomfortable you are at home can be a first step. You are stressed about your parents’ expectations and telling them about how you’re struggling with can possibly help your situation. Showing interest in organized activities that can occupy your time away from home can be helpful. You can join a sport or a hobbies group at a local park, for example. You can also reach out to friends and scheduling activities with them, activities that can happen weekly or daily. This can help you avoid being at home in an uncomfortable environment but still doing something positive with your time.
If things are still unbearable at home after trying other options, you can talk to your parents about an alternative living arrangement, like a family member or a close friend, some place where everyone can agree with you staying there. You can definitely give us a call us or chat with us to talk more about things. We want to make sure you are safe and have resources so you are not in a dangerous situation. You can reach us by calling at 1-800-RUNAWAY (786-2929) or chat with us at 1800RUNAWAY.org. We would be happy to talk to you about all possible outcomes.
Take care,
NRS