If I leave my mother will kill me, if I stay I will kill mys

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Hi, My name is Lethe I am 17 and live with my crackhead mother in the slums of NC. The only reason I'm here and talking is because I have run out of options. I leave mom hunts me down and kills me, I stay I'm going to kill myself. Simple as that. I'm NOT kidding about my mother killing me. If I wasn't working and bringing home the cash she steals from me I would have been sold to a pimp or shot in the head and my organs sold.
My mother steals all my money so I only have enough to pay the rent, by now I would have had enough to get my mom help for her drug problem and moved us to a better place. I've broken my hand so many times fighting that I've lost count, I fight to keep our standings in this s*** (Edited for language) hole place.

Is there anything you can tell me that can help my sichuation? Anything at all?

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Re: If I leave my mother will kill me, if I stay I will kill mys

Thank you for contacting us at NRS. We’re glad that you felt able to share some of your story with us. We’re sorry you are going through such a difficult situation. It sounds like you have been dealing with a lot lately, especially with your mother. It also sounds like you have some serious concerns regarding what would happen if you leave or if you stay at home.

You sounded pretty serious when you stated that you are worried your mother will hunt you down and kill you. That sounds like a very dangerous place to be right now. If you did leave where would you go? Is there any place where you have stayed before? There are youth shelters, but generally they have to contact your parent/guardian and/or get consent within a certain period of time. Usually, this can be anywhere from immediately to 72 hours and can depend on the shelter. If there is abuse at home though, the shelter may also choose to contact Child Protective Services (CPS). Should you feel that this is an option for you, we can locate shelters based on city and state, should you want to provide that information.

It also sounds like you have had to take on a lot of responsibility at home with work and making sure your rent is paid. You mentioned you’ve broken your hand multiple times so it sounds like you have had to deal with some pretty nasty fights as well. If you do not feel safe at this time, have you considered calling (CPS)? If you are encountering abuse and wanting to file a report, we are able to take down the report for you or conference call with CPS and stay on the line with you while the process takes place. There is also an organization called Justice for Children, which helps advocate for children and youth in abusive situations where the system has failed. Below are both numbers, should you decide to call on your own instead.

North Carolina Child Abuse Reporting
1-800-662-7030

Justice for Children
1-800-733-0059

You also mentioned killing yourself if you stay at home. How long have you thought about this? Have you ever felt this way before? What would your plan be? Is anyone else aware of how you are feeling? How do you feel others in your life would react to something like that? If you are feeling at this point, you are welcome to call us at our 24/7 hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY. There is also a National Suicide Hotline too, should you feel like talking to someone there.

National Suicide Hotline
1-800-273-TALK

We hope that this helps in your situation and again do not hesitate to call our hotline, should you need further assistance. We wish you luck and hope that your situation improves.
- NRS

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Re: If I leave my mother will kill me, if I stay I will kill mys

Where would I go if I left? Easy, anywhere that wasn't here! I can fight and I'm not afrade of hard work so I souldn't have any problem finding a jod with all the farms looking for cheap labor. I'm almost 18 so I'll beable to do what I want then and my mom can't call the police on me.
Pretty nasty fights? If you saw the people here that try and challange me you would be wondering how anyone could live here! My mom knows better than to hit me though, if she ever layed a hand on me again she would be going cold turky on her drug habit cause I'd be long gone and she can't work... no that's not right she CAN work she just won't.
I'm cerently nursing a three broken fingers from a fist fight I got into with one of my mom's dealers. She had skiped payment hoping she could whore herself out to him instead. He didn't accept that as a payment and so he was going to brake her arm. Long story short he's got a broken nose and swollen eye and I got broken fingers.
I don't think calling someone would be in my best intrest they would only want to take me away from my mom. though she and I get into arguments she's my mom and I want to take care of her if she would only let me.
I'm not a push over, and I won't back down when it comes to my mom or my own safty but I do have my limits and I think I'm reaching them. That's why I came to you people for atvice.

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Re: If I leave my mother will kill me, if I stay I will kill mys

i am under 16 and i feel like that sometimes. i almost left tonight and i had no where to go so i didnt. my guy friend invited me to stay @ his house, but mi mom would automatically kno i wuz there. i also have an abusive sister whos older than me (15) nd my mom acts lk she doesnt care. dont kill yourself and dont let your mom get ahold of yer money.

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Re: If I leave my mother will kill me, if I stay I will kill mys

Thank you for your quick response to our previous post. It sounds like you are in a very difficult situation right now. It seems like you don’t like the situation you are in right now and that you are supportive of your mother but you don’t like her habits.

You said that soon you will be 18 and able to do what you want then. How long until you do turn 18? Would you leave after then? Have you thought about where you would stay? You also said that there are a lot of farms that are looking for labor. Are any of them accessible to you now? Have you contacted any of them about work?

If that doesn’t work out, do you have any other options? Have you ever heard of Job Corps.? They can help you obtain your G.E.D. if it is something that you are interested in. They can also offer job skills training in many trades. The training, meals and housing are all paid for by them. If this is something you are interested in, they can be contacted at 1-800-733-5627 or through their website http://www.jobcorps.org

You said that your mom can work but chooses not to. Why do you think that is? If it is because of a drug habit, you can try calling the Alcohol and Drug Helpline. They are also a 24 hour hotline that can provide you with information about alcohol and drugs. They will also be able to refer you to treatment programs in your area. Their phone number is 1-800-821-4357; they also have a website, which is http://www.adhl.org

Another hotline that may be able to help you is Families Anonymous. They are a 12 step program for families/friends of people who may have a substance abuse problem. Their phone number is 1-800-736-9805 and their website is http://www.familiesanonymous.org

You said that calling CPS would not be in your best interest because they would take you away from your mom. That is not always what happens although it does happen. What happens is that they would send an investigator out to your residence to follow up on the call. If they feel that it is unsafe, they may remove you for a period of time while they tried to help your mom out also. They may also recommend family counseling, individual counseling, substance abuse treatment, etc…We understand if you do not feel that this is the best option for you but we just wanted to clarify what they may do.

Are the police an option? Do you feel they may be able to help you?

We hope that these may be more options that you can look into. Again, please feel free to call our hotline if you need anymore information or if you need help calling any of these or other agencies. We are 24 hours, confidential and anonymous; we can be reached at 1-800-RUNAWAY. We hope that this can help you and please don’t hesitate to call us.

-NRS