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I know it's risky. And I seriously hope it doesn't come to this. But, if my parents move, I'll lose my support and the people who are trying to make a legal case for me. I am LGBT and my parents will be moving to Tenessee, a notoriously anti-LGBT state. My parents already steal and go through my things and harass me a lot for being transgender.
I am also concerned about the situation getting even worse. They are not always physically harmful to me, but they beat my brother over and over with a belt very hard when he had an argument with them. Sometimes if my mom is frustrated that I am not getting up she will do stuff like sit on my legs, push me, hit me over and over, prod me with a stick, pry open my eyelids, cut off my breathing, recite sermons in my ears for hours until I'm maddened, etc (My parents will pry my eyelids open if they think I'm faking sleep as well). My parents also frequently grab at me to make me give them hugs or do stuff, sometimes to the point of almost bruising me. They have not hit me wirh a belt or spoon recently but when I was 5-8 they would corner me, hold me down, and hit me with a wooden spoon over and over again very hard if I ever did anything they considered misbehaving. When I was slightly older they would hit me with a belt once or twice, and it would sting for the rest of the day but not be too bad.
My parents will sometimes cut off my breathing, plug up my nose, or cover my mouth to make me do stuff. My dad also screams at me sometimes, saying how I am ungrateful and do nothing, and that I'm nothing but a problem. My parents say I am their favorite because I "had the most problems as a kid" and they felt sorry for me.
In addition, they act nice around my counselors while mocking them behind closed doors. Once, a crisis worker made them sign a contract to respect and support me as their son, and as soon as they got home they mocked the social worker and said they didn't even care if CPS got involved (they would actively do things that made me upset or that they knew gave me urges to self harm, as well as taking away my privacy and making fun of, snorting, and yelling at me; I am still not allowed to lock or close my door, and at one point I was not allowed to go in it except to sleep). I have to stash away my binder that I got with my own money, otherwise they will steal it like last time and throw it out. I know if they ever find out their harassment and telling me stuff like how I look like a mental patient, how people are only nice to me because they're too polite to be rude, etc, didn't make me stop being trans, their treatment of me will get even worse. I wish I could say I don't fear physical punishment from them, but I do.
My parents have an utter disdain for counselors who don't support their behavior and actively mock health professionals and government officials behind closed doors. No one takes me seriously because they act kind and supportive in front of others.
I don't know what to do. I know that running away is a desperate measure but I struggle to see how I can survive through all of this. I have an escape bag with basic items and legal documents packed in case, and I have friends/knowledge of shelters in the area.
I think if they begin to mistreat me worse physically, I will certainly run away.
I am also concerned about the situation getting even worse. They are not always physically harmful to me, but they beat my brother over and over with a belt very hard when he had an argument with them. Sometimes if my mom is frustrated that I am not getting up she will do stuff like sit on my legs, push me, hit me over and over, prod me with a stick, pry open my eyelids, cut off my breathing, recite sermons in my ears for hours until I'm maddened, etc (My parents will pry my eyelids open if they think I'm faking sleep as well). My parents also frequently grab at me to make me give them hugs or do stuff, sometimes to the point of almost bruising me. They have not hit me wirh a belt or spoon recently but when I was 5-8 they would corner me, hold me down, and hit me with a wooden spoon over and over again very hard if I ever did anything they considered misbehaving. When I was slightly older they would hit me with a belt once or twice, and it would sting for the rest of the day but not be too bad.
My parents will sometimes cut off my breathing, plug up my nose, or cover my mouth to make me do stuff. My dad also screams at me sometimes, saying how I am ungrateful and do nothing, and that I'm nothing but a problem. My parents say I am their favorite because I "had the most problems as a kid" and they felt sorry for me.
In addition, they act nice around my counselors while mocking them behind closed doors. Once, a crisis worker made them sign a contract to respect and support me as their son, and as soon as they got home they mocked the social worker and said they didn't even care if CPS got involved (they would actively do things that made me upset or that they knew gave me urges to self harm, as well as taking away my privacy and making fun of, snorting, and yelling at me; I am still not allowed to lock or close my door, and at one point I was not allowed to go in it except to sleep). I have to stash away my binder that I got with my own money, otherwise they will steal it like last time and throw it out. I know if they ever find out their harassment and telling me stuff like how I look like a mental patient, how people are only nice to me because they're too polite to be rude, etc, didn't make me stop being trans, their treatment of me will get even worse. I wish I could say I don't fear physical punishment from them, but I do.
My parents have an utter disdain for counselors who don't support their behavior and actively mock health professionals and government officials behind closed doors. No one takes me seriously because they act kind and supportive in front of others.
I don't know what to do. I know that running away is a desperate measure but I struggle to see how I can survive through all of this. I have an escape bag with basic items and legal documents packed in case, and I have friends/knowledge of shelters in the area.
I think if they begin to mistreat me worse physically, I will certainly run away.
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