All of a Sudden I just Want to leave

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As the title says, I just suddenly want to get out. I believe my Dad is verbally abusive and my Mom is okay. I am supposed to be there perfect daughter, and I don't want to be. I've thought of leaving before, but I've never felt like this about it. I just want to get out and go somewhere. I want to go to New York City. I want to get away from everything. I know I could save up a lot if I put my mind to it for money to support me when I get there.

I am a practical person. I know what is realistic and what is not. I know it will be hard and I know it will be dirty and gritty and dangerous but I don't care. I am stronger than my parents will ever realize and I know I can make it through that. I know I should bring a good amount of clothes and I also know not to leave on a whim. I know I should plan it very carefully. I should know which train to catch, which time to leave, which route to bike. I know I would plan all these things.

When I got there I would want to be creative, to make things to sell. Busking would probablly be pretty easy to do. I could sell pictures. I could bead things and sell them. I know that I won't make simple little kid craft things. I know I would make a lot of stuff in advance. I feel I would make it. And right now I just want to tell someone.

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Re: All of a Sudden I just Want to leave

Thanks for sharing how you’re feeling with us. It sounds like you’re thinking really serious about leaving your house. We’re sorry to hear that your dad is verbally abusive. Home should be a place that you feel safe and comfortable. It’s great that you are being realistic about everything. It’s important to really think through your plans, the possible consequences, all the pros and cons before making the decision to leave. Have you thought about things that could change in order to make you not want to leave? Are these things that are in your control? What, if anything, are some things that you could do to make it work at home?

If you do decide to leave, do you think you’ll be safe? Obviously having a plan is important, but living on the streets isn’t always something you can plan. Just so you know, our job is not to tell you not to runaway or to runaway. We just want to make sure that you’ve really thought through all the possible options. If you want to talk to someone more in depth about what’s going on and your plans, give us a call anytime. Our hotline, 1-800-RUNAWAY, is completely confidential and anonymous. If you do leave, keep our hotline in mind. It’s toll-free from any pay phone. We have a message service in which you could leave a message for your parents. We can also do conference calls with your parents if you wanted to talk to them. We can search for services for you, like shelters or drop-in centers. If you decide later you want to go home and have no way to get there, we have a Home Free program that can help runaways get back to their legal guardians. However you decide to utilize our services, please remember that someone is always here. Best of luck.