My parents make me want to kill myself

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Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

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Hello there,
I come from a family that has been plagued with very similar issues, and i am a survivor of physical abuse and verbal and emotional abuse from my mother and father and sister who have serious drug issues or alcoholism. My advice from my experience would be for you to take steps towards learning a skill that would eventually get you a job that you could enjoy, but dont make it too hard for yourself or expensive, and in your future you can take steps to create the solid foundations financially in your life to support yourself. I wish i hadve done that early on but i didnt. In the beginning i went from job to job, often reliving upheaval and lack of stability. And later on i did a one year diploma which helped. Sometimes having physical stability with where you live and work really helps alot. And at the same time, to start seeking self help free information on the internet greatly helps too. Bless you. I hope things come right: for you.

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Reply: My parents make me want to kill myself


Hi there,
Thank you for writing to us here at National Runaway Safeline (NRS).

We understand it takes great courage to reach out, and we appreciate you sharing a little bit about what’s going on.
It sounds like you’re quite overwhelmed by things at home right now.
You do not deserve to be verbally or emotionally abused by anyone. It sounds like you have tried to do right by your mother but things have not worked out favorably for you.
It is not your fault that her life has been one of self -abuse.

You deserve a life of peace and with a safe environment. Sometimes things can be chaotic and confusing making it difficult to know where to turn.
NRS is here to listen and here to help. If you would like to speak more about your situation and begin to look at some options towards making a plan, please give us a call or live chat with us.

Contact 1-800-Runaway (786-2929) or www.1800Runaway.org (Live chat).

If you should staart to have thoughts of suicide please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255

You did a courageous thing by reaching out today. Good for you.

Be safe and take care,
NRS

I don't know if anyone will even see this, but I need somewhere to vent... My mom is addicted to narcotics, a liar, and she is extremely abusive. Just the other day, she attacked my brother, scratched his neck and left a cut on him. He pushed her away in self-defense and she called the police on him. The reason for their altercation is because she has an obsessive, vitriolic hatred for my aunt (her sister) and my brother sat in the same car she did when they were both offered a ride home. He told my mom that I was inviting my aunt to my upcoming graduation, and the woman went insane. She started off telling me that she wasn't coming to my graduation if my aunt was coming. Then she started telling me how I'm ungrateful because she took me on vacation and bought me video games when I was young, and how she worked (keyword: worked) hard to "raise" me, and how instead of "taking care of me" (quotes because she hasn't taken care of me since I was 15. I cook her dinners, I take care of her when she overdoses on her drugs. She literally has never had a clue about how long I've been depressed and suicidal because of her) she should have spent her money on her own nails and clothes and shoes, instead of doing anything for me, and how I'm "choosing" my aunt over her (mind you, I never once told my mother she couldn't come to my graduation). She told me I had to choose who comes, it has to be her or my aunt. I told her that I wasn't going to choose, because whoever wants to support me on my graduation day will show up so long as they have their tickets. She then yelled at me, "NO IT'S NOT MY F***** CHOICE" and then proceeded to tell me how I'm a piece of sh** child and that she wishes she would have aborted me because she feels "so hurt and disrespected." Now she has decided to kick me out since I supposedly believe that my aunt is my mother. She has disowned me and given me three months to leave her house. She keeps coming into my room to yell at me, and even in the morning when I have to leave to catch the bus she's there, screaming until she gets an answer. She asked me "Since you think you're smart who do you think is going to cover your financial aid now?" And I told her (not like I meant it, but she wouldn't leave me alone and I would have been late) "I could ask my dad." She got mad and created some elaborate lie to tell my dad about the whole situation, and he told me to "Not get him involved in my crap." Now I don't even have a father to go to about this. I don't even know what to do anymore or where I'd even go.

Right now I just regret not killing myself when I had the chance, but since I'm still here, I figured I should just ask for some advice...