Never Coming Back to This Old Town.

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Hi. I am a young adolescent female having a struggle with family conflicts and social issues. I have always been intimidated by the thought of letting others hear my voice and I always feel threatened near my parents. My mother intimidates me the most. I have experienced some indescribably brutal acts she has caused for me (usually involving extreme violence), leading to my development of servere anxiety which makes it hard for me to make friends or talk to people in general. My parents also make it very clear that I am a failure by comparing how much more successful my older sister is than me. Until this morning, I felt a sense of hopelessness and an agonizing aching inside my chest when I think about the way my family sees me. This morning, I finally put running away into serious consideration. I know where I am going and will be cared for. I know what I am packing and I know all my routes. I know how to defend myself if ever in a "stranger danger" situation (I will buy pepper spray). I will replace all my old devices that could possibly be used to track down my location by serial number.

I do not wish for my original family to come into contact with me or my new family from the point of my new life on and forever.

Anything else I should know???
(Legal matters, laws, safety, etc.)

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Re: Never Coming Back to This Old Town.

Hello and thanks for reaching out on our online forum. We’re very sorry to hear you’ve been struggling with family conflicts and social issues. You don’t deserve to be threatened or to have experienced brutal acts of violence. If you feel you are being abused, you have the right to report it. We recognize that can be a tough decision and we’re here to help you through that process. There is also https://www.childhelp.org/.

As far as the anxiety you’ve been experiencing there is help out there for managing anxiety and other mental health concerns. Unfortunately it sounds like your mother’s actions have led to your anxiety which now affects your daily life. We can’t imagine that makes your situation any easier. http://www.dbsalliance.org/site/Page...llness_landing offers wellness tools including a wellness tracker you might find helpful.

The last thing you mentioned what you finally put running away into consideration. It sounds like you’re at the point now of putting together a plan. We don’t help young people run away, but we understand that some people feel no other option. If you are set on running away, we can talk to you about pros and cons and hopefully some safe options. There is also http://nationalsafeplace.org/ as a starting point. Hopefully this gives you a start and please feel free to try out our Live Chat.