Alone .

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I just don't want to be in my house no more .
Like, I'm just not good enough . I'm a mistake . I've had big problems before with my family and I almost killed myself twice but now my problems seem to just grow more & more & idol if I can do this anymore . I'm hated in my house . I feel unwanted here . Like I have 2 sisters & my parents have favorites . My little surer is my dad's while my big sister is my mom's . Like where do I belong? How come I'm no ones favorite? . & why is it I'm always my parents last choice when it comes to good things but I'm the first chose when it comes to bad . How come when an argument begins (every d*** day) I'm the one to blame when all I do is lock myself up in my room . I'm always the bad guy when all I try is to not get on their nerves . Seriously, how can parents have favorites .i just feel so alone . Why can't I be someone's first choice.? Not only alone but I feel hated and unwanted by my "family" . I'm always the one to go to when someone ad because someone is always trying to argue with me . I'd my sisters so something bad, why do my parents get me in trouble & grounded for something I can't do.? I'm always the one to be told I can't do ******** right or I work for nothing or I'm a waste of space . Why can't I just mean something to someone.? & when I try talking to them they laugh at me and insult me . & when I do something wrong I get whooped . My sisters get everything they want from shoes to electronics . But my parents any even buy me a d*** $5 t-shirt from Walmart . I'm just a waste of space & I don't want to be a waste anymore . I wanna die and disappear from everyone's life . Maybe it'll be for the best . All I know is I won't be missed so that's good I guess... Idk ....

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Re: Alone.

Thank you for reaching out to us. You’re very brave for sharing all of that and we’re glad you made the choice to do so. It sounds like you are dealing with a very frustrating situation at home with your parents and siblings. No one should have to feel unloved or worthless in their home and I’m sorry that you are having those feelings. You are a very important person who is worthy of love just like everyone else. I’m sorry to hear that you are not getting your needs met and home is not a comfortable place for you to be.

You mentioned that you have tried to kill yourself before. We just wanted to let you know that you are not alone and there is a lot of support out there. There is the National Suicide Hotline at 1-800-273-TALK where you can speak to someone. Or you can call us the next time you feel like talking to someone.

We really hope that you call us at 1-800-RUNAWAY so we can talk about your situation more. We’re here to listen and help. You don’t have to go through this alone. You can call our hotline 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, and someone will be here to assist you.