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I'm 14, the relationship with my parents is hard to explain and I sometimes question if they even value me as their child beyond treating me like any other rebelling teenager when I say something mature, challenging their beliefs (as in lifestyle, not religion if that makes sense, sorry if it doesn't) and they happen not to agree with me. They have habits of making fun of me which has happened since I was little, I think that every single time I had said that I wasn't okay with
them saying those things they always replied with, "stop being a baby/stop being sensitive, you know we are joking," obviously (or not so obviously, I don't know if this is just me) I am very insecure and even something feel ashamed with my interests/taste as well as anything I say, think, or even post online because of their teasing. They have a inability to see me cry without calling me dramatic/sensitive, this also applies when I try to open up about personal problems such as relationships. (I've lived through a lot of divorces, not my parents, mostly my grandparents/other family but It made me develop major trust issues, making it really difficult to make friends.) So I can't really talk with them, there was this one time I did talk to my mom about that specific problem, but it ended with her teasing me in front of family about how I 'have problems' refusing to even get me a therapist after addressing the problem. I never really do chores around the house, but that's mostly because I'm watching my siblings and doing schoolwork, To be honest mostly occupying myself online from the anxiety that slowly eats away at my self esteem. When I actually do chores they never say thank you, they don't give me an allowance but do buy me things, but at this point it just feels like they buy me things so they won't have to give me actual attention and have evidence to say, "we give her all of our attention, look at all the stuff we've gotten her!" Even though they get me that stuff again, to just leave me to my own devices so they can focus on their more active children, my younger siblings who they constantly give attention to when they are only doing what my parents tell them to. I get great grades at school, but all I get is a "good job" with a fake smile, then they brag about how successful I am to others, then complain some more about how I can't do what they want me to do and then back it up by saying, "I can be whatever I want to be, except that, that, and that." They get mad at me for having friends they don't like but when I don't at all they tell me I'll look like the weird kid, at this point I feel like an embarrassment to them. Also their discipline is all yelling and since they are impatient, they leave me to cry alone before yelling some more because, once again, they have an inability to see me cry. They expect me to parent my siblings when they've had enough, mostly my mom locking herself in the room, making me watch the siblings that hate my guts and are huge brats. I have been debating getting the school counselor involved before I have to deal with them for another summer but I'm too scared of the outcome,their favorite punishment is taking my phone and other access to the internet, the only place where I can somewhat escape to. Should I get my counselor involved or am I just being dramatic?
them saying those things they always replied with, "stop being a baby/stop being sensitive, you know we are joking," obviously (or not so obviously, I don't know if this is just me) I am very insecure and even something feel ashamed with my interests/taste as well as anything I say, think, or even post online because of their teasing. They have a inability to see me cry without calling me dramatic/sensitive, this also applies when I try to open up about personal problems such as relationships. (I've lived through a lot of divorces, not my parents, mostly my grandparents/other family but It made me develop major trust issues, making it really difficult to make friends.) So I can't really talk with them, there was this one time I did talk to my mom about that specific problem, but it ended with her teasing me in front of family about how I 'have problems' refusing to even get me a therapist after addressing the problem. I never really do chores around the house, but that's mostly because I'm watching my siblings and doing schoolwork, To be honest mostly occupying myself online from the anxiety that slowly eats away at my self esteem. When I actually do chores they never say thank you, they don't give me an allowance but do buy me things, but at this point it just feels like they buy me things so they won't have to give me actual attention and have evidence to say, "we give her all of our attention, look at all the stuff we've gotten her!" Even though they get me that stuff again, to just leave me to my own devices so they can focus on their more active children, my younger siblings who they constantly give attention to when they are only doing what my parents tell them to. I get great grades at school, but all I get is a "good job" with a fake smile, then they brag about how successful I am to others, then complain some more about how I can't do what they want me to do and then back it up by saying, "I can be whatever I want to be, except that, that, and that." They get mad at me for having friends they don't like but when I don't at all they tell me I'll look like the weird kid, at this point I feel like an embarrassment to them. Also their discipline is all yelling and since they are impatient, they leave me to cry alone before yelling some more because, once again, they have an inability to see me cry. They expect me to parent my siblings when they've had enough, mostly my mom locking herself in the room, making me watch the siblings that hate my guts and are huge brats. I have been debating getting the school counselor involved before I have to deal with them for another summer but I'm too scared of the outcome,their favorite punishment is taking my phone and other access to the internet, the only place where I can somewhat escape to. Should I get my counselor involved or am I just being dramatic?
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