19 with depression and anxiety

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I live in Wales and I have been suffering with Anxiety and Depression, my family thinks that they understand but they don't. I have recently broken up with a boyfriend that I had been with for almost 4 years, and I can't tell my family what he did. at the start of the relationship he used to rape me when he thought I was sleeping if I didn't have sex with him, and I have to see him everyday in college plus he lives in the same area. I have been to the doctors and have medication but I don't want to have to explain to my mother why I'm on the medication, I also feel like I have let the whole family down because I am the rock of my family and I look after them no matter what but recently they have been putting me down, making me feel more worthless than I already do. I want to move out so I can be away from my family, further away from my ex and actually be independent because not having to worry about other people would make everything so much easier and I could just focus on myself.
The problem I have is that I have been looking for a job for 2 years now and nobody wants to take me on, so I have no money and nowhere to go I may not be a run away but I might actually be homeless if I can't get out of here soon. my ex was living under a homeless youth service so I know how to look after myself what bills need to be paid and washing cloths putting together flat packs for furniture because I used to do all that for him so he wouldn't shout at me as much. all I need is the money and the house and I'm set to go. I don't know what to do I have tried researching everything I can to find out if I could get some sort of help but I've come up with nothing. I know this is a long shot but does anyone think that they might be able to help me, any information would be great.

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Hi there,

It sounds like you are in a difficult situation, and we understand it takes courage to reach out for help.
The National Runaway Safeline is located in the United States of America (USA). Our knowledge of helpful community based resources and our understanding of youth in crisis related laws is limited to the USA. Since you are located in a country outside of the USA, you can use this link to find a youth helpline in or around your country: http://www.childhelplineinternationa...where-we-work/
We hope that by reaching out to a local resource, you are able to get the support you need from an organization that understands the laws and circumstances that affect youth in your country.

NRS