I've been unhappy where I'm living for a really long time. I don't even live with my parents, I live with my grandparents but the state think our parents live with us and not 1 hour away. I've been depressed for years and tried to kill myself 2 times last October bc I couldn't take it. I've been emotionally absused for years and it's taken a really bad toll on me. And I thought about trying to kill myself again if it means I can escape this. But I don't want to die. I want to do so many things.

And lately things at home have been worse than usual. And I just want to runaway. Im 17, turning 18 in less than 2 months. If I leave can my family call the police and force me to come back? And if I went to live with my boyfriend who is only a year older than me(he just turned 19), could they do anything to him? My parents told me that even if I'm 18 I'm not allowed to leave but could I do it anyways if I am 18? Or even now if I wanted to?

(ps I live in Arizona.)