Where do I start

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Ok let's see in 14 I was supposed to get aborted my mom died when I was 11 my dad hates me so much and I'm a complete utter failure. I am depressed I get bossed around abused by my sisters and I don't want to hit them or anything and if I don't do anything they start mentally abusing me I have so much sucidal thoughts my other sister is an addict there's no one I can talk to I get forced into a religion I don't even want to be in. I am aneorexic and I have disorders and abnormalities of my bodies when I'm in school I feel ok but I feel empty like life is without a passion running away is a no go but I still want to I wanna be able to just forget about everything be peaceful and not disturbed if I do sucide I don't know what awaits me after my death NO ones cares at all I just feel as if I'm a complete utter waste of space but I do aspire to be stuff but those are dreams that need to be focused which I can't if everyone around me stares at me like a freak life is a no go for me what do I do??

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RE: Where do I start

Hi there,

Thank you so much for reaching out to us. It sounds like things are really tough and have been for awhile. It sounds like there has been a lot going on at home and you’re looking for some help navigating your options. We’re here to support you as much as we can.

You shared that your mom passed away when you were 11. This had to have been so hard on you and your family, and continues to be a difficult thing to have experienced and live with. We are so sorry for your loss. Losing anyone is hard, especially a parent. You mentioned that you have thought about suicide. This is a really serious thing to be thinking about. We’d like to provide the National Suicide Hotline at (800) 273 TALK (8255) if you would like to talk through these feelings with a counselor. We want to make sure that you have access to the support that you may need.

Another option you might consider is counseling. You talked about suicidal thoughts as well as eating disorders. This is a lot to handle all on your own. If you would like resources to counseling services, you can call us any time and we can try to locate some near you that would be free or low cost. Another resource that may be beneficial would be The National Eating Disorders Association at (800) 931 2237, or chat with them through this link: http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.o...erral-helpline

It sounds like there is so much going on at home and in your life and you are feeling really overwhelmed. Your feelings are entirely understandable and valid. We’re here to support you the best that we can, in any way that we can.

Please do not hesitate to call or chat with us to talk more.

Best of luck,
NRS

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Thanks so much

I appreciate you support and I feel as if I'll get better with every step of the way

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RE: Thanks so much

Hello again,

Thank you for your reply. We are happy to provide you support. It sounds like you are recognizing that little steps go a long away with improvement. It often is not easy to realize this. Please know that we are always here for you if you ever need to talk or would like more resources. You are not alone in this.

We wish you well!

Take care and stay strong,

NRS