I’m Scared

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Hi there,

Thanks for reaching out to National Runaway Safeline and sharing a little bit about what is going. It takes a lot of courage to reach out and especially in a time where you have a really tough and complex situation. You have been experiencing your mom drinking a lot, in may be good to get some support with other people who also have a family member with similar situations. https://www.alcoholrehabguide.org/support/al-anon/ is a website to look into where you could find a local support group in your area.

Also another way you can seek help is reaching out to a friend, teacher, or counselor at school that can help you look for resources. Your mental health is important. You can also look at SAMHSA (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration) at samhsa.gov or call them directly at 1-877-726-4727 to help you find the support that you need. If you do ever feel in direct danger, to yourself, or some else makes you feel that way, please call out to 911 or reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (1-800-273-8255).

It can be difficult to know how to talk to your mom and express how you are feeling. At NRS, we do offer a service call conference calling, where you can call into our hotline and then we would reach out to your guardian and help advocate for you, help you express the needs of to your parents.

We are here for you and will support you in any way that we can. Please feel free to call into us directly as we can talk further about your situation and find resources that are best for you in your area. Stay strong and you are not alone in this! Our number is 1-800-RUNAWAY we are open 24/7.

-NRS

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Okay, can anyone one here give me advice? I know my case isn’t as bad as some of the other situations on here, but I’m still considering running away.
My mother gets drunk every single night, and the majority of those nights, she has a talk with me. Telling me that “You know what child, you weren’t actually supposed to be born.” AKA You are a mistake! I knew that’s what she meant by her tone. Another night, while she was drunk and knowing there was a bad situation going on in my head, taught me about antidepressants and told me that “I would never ever take them under my supervision! I don’t care what you think they are like, they will cause you to have heart attacks, they will give you tremors, and they WILL give you seizures.” That day I had almost jumped out a school window. She also has extreme bias towards my brother, to the point where he notices it and feels bad for me. It’s all about him, he’s so perfect, you do all the chores child, why can’t you be like your brother, why do you get in so much trouble, why do you have a B (my brother has a C). It hurts me emotionally and makes me feel unwanted and like I am a mistake.
I am depressed because of this favoritism and she can’t realize that, I’ve blamed it on a boy that I did get sad over, and she did nothing about when she knew we had broken up, offered no emotional support. Even when I had admitted I was suicidal she compared my hildhood to hers, trying to make me feel bad. Yes she had a bad childhood, but it’s not what I need. She also only tries to prove me wrong, even if I’m bawling and begging her to leave me alone, she pushes the fact I’m wrong. One day, I had a terrible migraine that a doctor confused with a potential stroke. I was rushed to a hospital and they discovered it was a migraine, but my mother still requested an MRI. I found it later that she requested it to see if my brain had physical symptoms of depression (this was after she knew I was depressed).
I could go on but I wouldn’t want to waste much time, I’m 12 and need advice. I want to run away for a few days, maybe a couple weeks. Another thing is there is a pedophile in my area that raped and drugged a 13 year old girl, and I look like I’m older than I am. I just need advice on what to do.